The usual 2012-2013 post. Teehee

Assalamualaikum fellow readers :)

Ahhh, what a splendid day mashaAllah the weather is very nice today don't you think? Well i'm talking about here in Tronoh of course since i have yet to finish my finals in couple of days. What other ways i want to start of a new right? (Not!) As Shahirah tweeted, as a UTP student you tend to celebrate your new years every year in UTP, battling finals. I have been in that torment since let me see, foundation i guess so this year's the 3rd year i guess. Ah well it doesn't matter much to me since i don't celebrate new years at all sooo. If you're lucky like some final year students, maybe you'll manage to finish off your last paper (ever!) like them on the 30th Dec means by new years you'll be free as a bird! Well, free, unemployed and pay-less. The only downside of finishing your studies is that. There are a lot of plus sides which includes raising your own money and the hot topic nowadays, marriage :p ah well, i wouldnt want to go into that topic much further. If my time is here then in syaAllah i'll accept it with warm hands :) (more like excited hands to be exact!)

So, my highlights of 2012?

Jan
Finished finals
Europe holidaaaaaay :D

Feb
Petrosains? Yeah pretty much
Outings since i'm on hols
Laser taaaag!

March
11th :)
Induction - the only girl! Mayn tough life
Went for f1! Lol there's more to that
Went for kl-utp-penang trip, alone :D

April
4 bestfriends outing :) ikea-seoul garden-fullhouse lol all food
Birth of Harvey :)
Tapestry of colours w Izzul

May
OGA day! Last year in bukit merbah tsk tsk
And back to utp! Brought Taylor
And you :)

June
Mummy back from dubai :D
Bandung trip hehe

july-august-sept
2nd 1st :)
Raya
Open house :)

Sept
Perth (phew, 3 vacays in a year? Alhamdulillah :))
Met lovely Kate Middleton and Prince William :D

Oct
2nd 2nd
Ustaz don live in UTP :D
Results, alhamdulillah :)
Convofair

Nov
Slurpee bring-your-own-cup day!
Birthdaaaaay!
Fiqh of Salah Al Maghrib seminar :)

December
May '10 Colourblocking theme dinner
Your birthday :)

I would love to include pichaas but i'm blogging from my phone. I know i can insert em but too lazy, might as well study. Just a quick note, Alhamdulillah i've been blessed to have the opportunity to meet new friends these past year, but terminated some as well :/ sigh. And also am blessed to be able to travel quite a lot, saw some new scenes and lived some new but exciting lifestyle for a bit, experience new stuffs, learn a lot and mostly change to be better (i hope), bit by bit, please do pray for me so that i'll be istiqamah in this. Towards the end all you gotta do is pray pray and pray. Believe in Allah and insyaAllah you'll be fine. Play by His rules, you'll be fine as well.

Oh wait, 2013 resolutions?
Be more - in terms of in this world and hereafter
Smile more, frown less
Lose weight! (Every. Single. Year!!!)
Less online shopping? Ahaha we'll see bout that. Thank you MARA! Lol

Forever grateful for loving parents, friends and companions. Alhamdulillah. I wish i would never take any of them for granted, esp my parents. They're my gems :') And to you, meeting you of course is one of my favourite highlights of the year. Hopefully you'll be part of my future too :)

Jazakumullah khair for sticking w me dear readers, i've love and i've lost, gain some and lose some but never regretted any cause without every single one of it i wouldn't be where i am today and who i am today. May Allah bless all of you and ease 2013 for y'all. (Lol)

Much love, alhanasabrina

P/s: please pray for my last paper for my second year this thurs, thank youuuuu :D

Finals fever ey?

Assalamualaikum lovely readers :)

Well, i guess you guys know what am I going to write since i made it so clear in the title. Really, why is everybody having their finals coming? Ahh its not a bad thing cause later we shall have holidays togethaaaaa! Weee. Ah well okay. This is my schedule. Alhamdulillah it's not so packed but one of em is a killer subject sooo, i still have to constantly study starting from now.

2712 0900-1200 Chemical Engineering Thermodynamics (killer!) *dies*
2812 0900-1200 Separation Process
3112 0900-1200 Probability and Statistics
0301 0900-1200 Analytical Chemistry


AND I'M FREEEEEE FOR 4 MONTHS! Yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

Please dearest, include me in your duas, thanks ;)

alhanasabrina

Poetry is as beautiful as the different meaning it brings to different people who reads it

It's raining and i'm listening to Dear God by Avenged Sevenfold, what could be better for the poetic side of me? :)

Days become weeks,
Weeks become months,
and months become years...
All in a short span of time

Memories are held between those times,
Both happy and sad,
Some unsure on where to be kept.
As the saying goes
You die when you keep it in,
You die as well when it is spoken.

As the synchronized rain falls
Two souls faced away from each other
Because one wanted to change
And the other doesn't

Aren't we all the same at one point or another?
Whether it's the same problems
Or the same differences
Same intentions, different ways
Same ways, different intentions

Oh honey why do you seemed so surprised?
It's all because
We came from one source
One creator

Above all
truer words have never been said
except one

surely but slowly, death is approaching



i'm getting rustier by day, forgive me

alhanasabrina

Talking Makes Everything Clearer :)

I KNOW I'M SUPER LATE BUT I'VE JUST WATCHED STEP UP REVOLUTION (-.-' yea i know) but who cares the movie is freaking awesomeeeeeee. But Moose came out for only one minute or so, le sigh. The dance mob where they wore suits were definitely my favourite. And not to forget the arts gallery mob. Teehee. Must be awesome to be professional dancers like them, gaah I can just ramble all day on my love towards dancing but it just makes me super excited and then sad. Cause i can't dance no more. Well not in front of you guys. In front of my husband yes :p Maybe we'll take dancing classes, who knows. Ehehe.

And see my title up there, that is most certainly true. But well, to whom that you can really REALLY talk to anyway? Well those are the ones that you can most clarify things and please please don't take it for granted. It's not bothering them, (atleast not for me), cause atleast you can clear things out with them. Because as I said earlier, to how many people that you can actually really really talk to anyway? Not many I presume. So treasure them, let them know they matter. I know I'm trying :) Cause I don't wanna lose those who are dearly to me just because of some unresolved inner conflicts, or simply my ignorance.

Of course, everything doesn't always applies to everything*. Get what I mean? No? Google it :p

alhanasabrina

*but in most cases, they do. But who knows you can be the 'other' part of it?

Words, they satisfy

Wrote on 110209

Fate
Not to change, not to wait
And you know your life is at stake

Fate
It's like a play
Of Romeo and Juliet
You may expect him to stay
But instead she was the one to go astray

Fate
There is a but
Cause happy endings do exist
If you know where to find it

Fate
Familliar? True
But it always
Always ends with a date.

alhanasabrina

Heart-clenching Moment

Guess what? The first draft of the final exam's timetable is ouuuuuut! And i'm freaking scaaaaared. It's only less than a month! Phew. Time do flies, faster then superman. Even faster than flash. Hahah.

I really really hope that the timetable stays that way because for me, it's puuuuurfect. Hee. I guess the gaps are enough for me so that I can still have time to study. I have to start preparing from now! Here's a sneek peak of my timetable:

Oh yes, apart from the finals, it's the last 10 days of Ramadan! Don't let your studies get in the way. But it is still as important! Make sure you divide your time wisely yea. Sleep early and then rise early to do some qiam, study, sahur and Subuh prayer. InsyaAllah if you work hard enough, both lailatul qadr and the As will be yours :)

Okay enough rambling, guess I just miss writing. I miss both writing and reading but i've no time to do both :( Sobs. Well, my fault. Hee. Guess I've to find more time to read and write rather than indulging myself in episodes of TVD of Suits whenever I have some free time :p Hee.

Computational Methods test tomorrow! Wish me luck.

alhanasabrina

Tazkirah Subuh :)

3 jenis orang:

1) Sesiapa yang dosanya tidak diampunkan apabila telah sampai akhir pd bulan Ramadan

2) Mempunyai ibu bapa atau salah satu tetapi tk menjaga dan berbakti kepada mereka

3) Tidak berselawat apabila mendengar nama Nabi Muhammad s.a.w.

Allah akan masukkan ke dlm neraka dan dijauhkan dari rahmatnya.

After a while :) Ramadan is halfway through. I hope you ppl won't slow down. Remember, the last 10 nights are what we really want, lailatulqadr :)

alhanasabrina

Natch

 The whole passage starting from " to " is copied from here, leloveimage :).


"Your E.E. Cummings for the day:

it may not always be so; and i say
that if your lips,which i have loved,should touch
another's,and your dear strong fingers clutch
his heart,as mine in time not far away;
if on another's face your sweet hair lay
in such a silence as i know,or such
great writhing words as,uttering overmuch,
stand helplessly before the spirit at bay;

if this should be,i say if this should be-
you of my heart, send me a little word;
that i may go unto him, and take his hands,
saying, Accept all happiness from me.
Then shall i turn my face, and hear one bird
sing terribly afar in the lost lands.

I guess sometimes the thing you want most is the one thing you cannot have. Know that I have never been kidding when I said I would (and in some ways I have) sacrifice anything - everything - for you, because you and me and us and we, and our always, mean that much to me. Desire, I guess, wears us out, leaves us broken. Desire, I guess, can wreck a life. But you know, as tough as wanting something can be, I think the people who suffer the most, are those who don’t know what they want or worse don’t do what is necessary to get what they want. In the best possible way, you have absolutely wrecked me, because you see, I fell in love with you, always with a feeling, deep down, that there was very little chance of my ever being with you for that always. Definition of insanity, I guess, but holding true the adage that to love and win is the best thing; to love and lose, the next best – because at least I loved you with a love unsurpassed and never to be duplicated, completely and totally and unconditionally and without limits and with a depth that not even poets have been able to capture or even describe.

I wish you happiness. I wish you joy. I wish you grace. I hope that your life leaves you filled to overflowing with all that you had hoped - surpassing your every expectation. There is a wonderful benediction that goes something like “my wish for you: Comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, sunsets to warm your heart, hugs when spirits sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendships to brighten your being, a hearth constantly warmed by family and friends, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth, Love to complete your life.” I do wish all those things for you.

I will miss telling you what you mean to me, which is nothing less than what you mean to the world. I will miss finding new and wonderful ways to express my every feeling, which are numerous and deep and consuming. I will miss telling you how beautiful and amazing and intelligent and bright and gorgeous and lovely and sensual you are. I will miss describing the wonderment that is every one of your special places – and experiencing each of them inch by inch, touch by touch, kiss by kiss, for a lifetime.

You will always find ways to my heart, but I pray that one day the taste of your name, which sounds of beauty and sunshine and smiles and bliss and the warmth of a blessed day, will sound so, though I am not hopeful. Know that any time I need to see your face I will just close my eyes – you will always be there.

And no matter what, I will always love you. And while I will always hope, and pray and wish for the day when you come to me and say “I am yours, all yours, for always,” I will also just pray for a day when I won’t need you so badly every minute of every day and every second in between. You are a love, beyond love, and you will always have my whole entire heart."


Beautiful isn't it? Oh how I long to write like this. Someday.

alhanasabrina

Oh hi

Hey there
Sorry I took away your smile
I put you through so much
Guess the line once curved
Won't ever be that way again

And now the distance that separate us
The crater I created
Was once my source of happiness
Now my source of longing
That you be okay, as you once were

If it were me
I'd die the instant I knew
But you, being the strong one
Kept on walking
Tougher than the earth,
Although stepped by millions

Sorry I'm not able to return
The atmosphere that you gave to me
The best that I could do
Is tell you
And to be honest
I don't feel the slightest happy by doing so

I can't be selfish forever
Can't tie you to me if I'm not on the same page
And now all the time in the world are yours
Forgive me

I want nothing else
Than to see you happy
With or without me
If it what it takes
To see that curve again

You'll be fine, insyaAllah

alhanasabrina

The Minor Side Of Me

Have at it. C'mon, it won't kill you :)

and also, this

Only this band. They're the Big Bang :) Hehe. And they're coming to Malaysiaaaaaa! But of course I can't go. Sokay. Heh.

alhanasabrina