I'm Getting Married!

in exactly 54 days... you do the math.

OMG i can't believe it I'm actually getting wedding jitters right now. And its too late to change my mind (i mean even from the start its already too late cause yknow theres feelings involved LOL) but like yeah, this is really happening. It's real life guys. And for the past 6 months that I've been working (yes it has been that long) I've been doing mostly mundane stuff, nothing out of the ordinary, basic 830 AM to 530 PM jobs, 5 day work week and its really stressing me out sometimes. I'll tell you why in a bit. Lets get back to the part where I'm excited for my WEDDING YAY!

So basically i haven't really been updating anywhere or anyone about the details of my wedding preparation. I just have an excel sheet, some notes on my phone of all the never ending list of things to do and that's just it. I'll have a monthly update with the fiance on our progress just to make sure we have everything listed, and nothing gets left out you know. The last thing you wanna have on your wedding day is to go - wait where my ___? oh no. nope. not in my wedding preparation book. And plus, i have a suuuper organised mother, who takes care of things down to a T, yes i mean that. But then that also means less work for me cause she basically does half of the planning for me and I well, have just to go along with it. It is kinda exhausting but I stuck with it cause its gonna be my wedding anyway. Not that I didn't have any fun planning my wedding hehe but it was less stressful than I thought it would be. I don't really have any bridezilla moments (yet?) and the only time we're like even remotely close to fighting is just things relating to money. It really is a big issue since my mom is paying for like a huge chunk of my wedding. My power of authority only covers things that I'm paying for which includes gifts for the hubs, my solemnization dais and other teeny weeny stuffs. Lol. Theres more of stuffs that looks like I'm paying from my own pocket, but its also the same pocket that my mum fills in every month so... you get the idea. But really, it's not all bad, because the way i think of it is like the ceremony is hers to begin with. It's to celebrate me getting married as her daughter, not the other way around. I'm just happy that she's finally letting me go on an unsupervised trip with some guy she just knew after all of this is over. LOL

So yes, i'm basically super stoked that i finally get to marry the man of my dreams and head on to the next adventure of my life. Apart from that, remember all the things i said about being kinda stressed about work at times? Well the wedding plans has definitely helped with some of the stress, but I've really been thinking of venturing out to other ways to fill my time rather than aimlessly scrolling through social media just as a mean of "resting". I'm even thinking of starting my own YouTube channel! Wait for it, you might not know whats there to come. I really feel tired living this way, it really feels like i'm not living my best life. But I don't really have anything to complain about since I don't have to pay for rent and transportation but thats just how I feel. Hope that you guys don't take this the wrong way. Hehe

Well its almost 530PM (lol i'm blogging at work since i completed mine for the day) and its time to head home. Wish me luck guys! Until next time my dear readers, I love you all xxx

Alhana

Manpower

For all of those who know, for the last month I have been working with a recruitment company. I loved every single moment of it. No lie. I totally love it. Obviously there have been days when I first started where I'll be like "what am I doing here, it's not even in my field." But I decided to go on with it and commit for the 6 months that I am (supposedly) contracted for. Within the first week itself I fell in love with recruitment and enjoyed going to work every single day (except for the fact that I have to wake up early, I mean who enjoys that?!) Anyway, safe to say that working with Manpower was one of the best decisions I've ever made in my life. 

My boss(es) are uber cool, and I feel so supported and welcomed from day one. I constantly feel uplifted and inspired to perform well in my job. Colleagues are fun, full of energy and the job is even more so. I get to scout for potential candidates, screen resumes, talk to them and even made friends. The feeling that you get when one of them gets hired... priceless. I feel like I'm finally contributing something to the world.

On top of that, there's casual Fridays - which I absolutely LIVE for, and you're technically working in a mall, which is super awesome (read: unlimited lunch ideas). 

The only downside is, today is my last day working with them. I had to leave due to reasons, you know (I don't want to mention them here). But believe me when I say, I didn't wanna leave. Nope. I really wished that I am not in this position right now. But I really had to do this for myself, and I totally owe this to myself. 

To the company, I appreciate every single thing that you have done for me and I hope nothing but the best for the company in the future. One day I will definitely look back and proudly say that, that is the company I first worked for and helped me to be who I am now. Wait for it. 

Yours,

Alhana