Strong Suit

I guess this is it. I am happy, i really am. I simply cannot ask for more. But evidently, with every happiness there's always something missing if you looked. It doesn't bother me much, wait, it does, but life had taught me enough to not dwell on sadness so much. Either it'll consume you, or you'll be consumed in it.

It's sad, really. Cause I never thought we'd be here. Like this. Both of us are happy now, but we lost each other in the process. I know, I can't help it but to blame myself cause I took the first step, but along the way, i wondered, why? Could this thing end differently? All that's left are questions without answers because my friend, time can't be turned back.

I always thought the reason is because we can't just be friends. Or maybe, we weren't friends in the first place. Or maybe something else that i'm just too blind to see. That's just sad. It's a shame really, cause we made such good partners. Not in that sense. Just by being bestfriends. But i guess that's not for us.

Thoughts while listening to Blind by Lifehouse.

Carry on, i'm perfectly fine; alhanasabrina :)

Story Of My Life

Here I am, sitting on Kino's floor reading Sarah Dessen's Just Listen because I left my book at my station in Petrosains. Talking about desperate measures huh? I just am so very grateful for the BB1M as it makes everyone - even those who seldom reads - read! Alhamdulillah :)

Okay, break time's over. Later fellas.

alhanasabrina :)

Thoughts for today

Saya rasa, jika jodoh sudah sampai semuanya akan menjadi senang. Walaupun seseorang itu tidak mencari (secara zahir) tetapi jodoh akan datang juga akhirnya (kerana, let's face the truth, siapa yg tidak mencari jodoh? :p)

Al kisah seorang wanita yang saya boleh gambarkan sifatnya seperti seorang yang sangat periang, mampu memberi senyuman kepada sesiapa yang berbicara dengannya. Dengan celotehnya yang menggelikan hati serta lawak dan ekspresi muka yang priceless gitu, mampu membuat perut seseorang itu hendak terburai rasanya disebabkan terlampau kelakar. Akan tetapi, masih tiada yang punya.

Ceh. Hahahahahhaha

Okay kesimpulannya, the first time they met was when they went out in groups, two unknown groups from two different companies, merging for an expedition somewhere. Then they went out again, the same two groups to bukit cerakah for an outing. This was 3 months ago. Then, on the girl's birthday, the guy sent her a huge bouquet of roses and some chocolates. I mean, who would have ever expected that? They were texting like normal people, talking bout normal stuffs, i guess. Then when january came, he asked for her hands in marriage and they both agreed. And the wedding is to be held this sept! I mean only 3 months after they met they got engaged, and then 7 months after that they are supposed to get married. I mean, Alhamdulillah for her, that Allah has chosen him to be the guy for her and in a such beautiful and simple way.

But then, some people have it all planned out. Like they went out for a couple of years but then still ended up married, that is also as sweet as the above. Just yknow, the hard part will be the waiting.

Just the downside of the 1st one is to plan the wedding in a such short notice. Even my mum wants me to book the date a year in advanced. Oops :p

Just my thoughts for today. Oh yes, for those who are celebrating, Happy CNY to all :D

alhanasabrina

You have to watch Dakota Skye

"Predictable doesn’t always mean boring.
Lust doesn’t always mean love.
Near doesn’t always mean close.
New doesn’t always mean exciting.
Different doesn’t always mean better.
Far doesn’t always mean distant.
Knowing everything doesn’t make you wise.
Knowing the truth doesn’t make you superior.
Knowing your problem doesn’t solve it.
Sitting between your past and your future doesn’t mean you’re in the present"

Something about this movie just gets me. Either that or I'm just loving it cause it's another love movie that I picked out from Tumblr.

And it has the famous love quote which isn't the one I posted here. Well I guess you have to watch it for yourself to know it right? 

Watch it, and tell me about it okay?

alhanasabrina xx

Treadmill

Countless thoughts acted upon, random craves became normal, sudden urges fulfilled, plates of delicacies swallowed, places travelled, days slept in doing nothing, money spent recklessly, all I ever did was give in to myself. I caved to all of my desires, wishes, and wants.

Maybe it's time to fight myself.

Oh love

I'm such a sucker for love movies. Sappy, cliché, romantic love movies. Just this morning I was looking to find a chic flick love movie to watch and I stumbled upon Love Actually. For those who haven't watched it, please do. Please please. With the ever charming Hugh Grant innit, you can never go wrong. And it's in England too, which adds more 'awwh' factor to it. Who doesn't love a movie jammed packed with British slang all along the way? I know I do :)

alhanasabrina

The usual 2012-2013 post. Teehee

Assalamualaikum fellow readers :)

Ahhh, what a splendid day mashaAllah the weather is very nice today don't you think? Well i'm talking about here in Tronoh of course since i have yet to finish my finals in couple of days. What other ways i want to start of a new right? (Not!) As Shahirah tweeted, as a UTP student you tend to celebrate your new years every year in UTP, battling finals. I have been in that torment since let me see, foundation i guess so this year's the 3rd year i guess. Ah well it doesn't matter much to me since i don't celebrate new years at all sooo. If you're lucky like some final year students, maybe you'll manage to finish off your last paper (ever!) like them on the 30th Dec means by new years you'll be free as a bird! Well, free, unemployed and pay-less. The only downside of finishing your studies is that. There are a lot of plus sides which includes raising your own money and the hot topic nowadays, marriage :p ah well, i wouldnt want to go into that topic much further. If my time is here then in syaAllah i'll accept it with warm hands :) (more like excited hands to be exact!)

So, my highlights of 2012?

Jan
Finished finals
Europe holidaaaaaay :D

Feb
Petrosains? Yeah pretty much
Outings since i'm on hols
Laser taaaag!

March
11th :)
Induction - the only girl! Mayn tough life
Went for f1! Lol there's more to that
Went for kl-utp-penang trip, alone :D

April
4 bestfriends outing :) ikea-seoul garden-fullhouse lol all food
Birth of Harvey :)
Tapestry of colours w Izzul

May
OGA day! Last year in bukit merbah tsk tsk
And back to utp! Brought Taylor
And you :)

June
Mummy back from dubai :D
Bandung trip hehe

july-august-sept
2nd 1st :)
Raya
Open house :)

Sept
Perth (phew, 3 vacays in a year? Alhamdulillah :))
Met lovely Kate Middleton and Prince William :D

Oct
2nd 2nd
Ustaz don live in UTP :D
Results, alhamdulillah :)
Convofair

Nov
Slurpee bring-your-own-cup day!
Birthdaaaaay!
Fiqh of Salah Al Maghrib seminar :)

December
May '10 Colourblocking theme dinner
Your birthday :)

I would love to include pichaas but i'm blogging from my phone. I know i can insert em but too lazy, might as well study. Just a quick note, Alhamdulillah i've been blessed to have the opportunity to meet new friends these past year, but terminated some as well :/ sigh. And also am blessed to be able to travel quite a lot, saw some new scenes and lived some new but exciting lifestyle for a bit, experience new stuffs, learn a lot and mostly change to be better (i hope), bit by bit, please do pray for me so that i'll be istiqamah in this. Towards the end all you gotta do is pray pray and pray. Believe in Allah and insyaAllah you'll be fine. Play by His rules, you'll be fine as well.

Oh wait, 2013 resolutions?
Be more - in terms of in this world and hereafter
Smile more, frown less
Lose weight! (Every. Single. Year!!!)
Less online shopping? Ahaha we'll see bout that. Thank you MARA! Lol

Forever grateful for loving parents, friends and companions. Alhamdulillah. I wish i would never take any of them for granted, esp my parents. They're my gems :') And to you, meeting you of course is one of my favourite highlights of the year. Hopefully you'll be part of my future too :)

Jazakumullah khair for sticking w me dear readers, i've love and i've lost, gain some and lose some but never regretted any cause without every single one of it i wouldn't be where i am today and who i am today. May Allah bless all of you and ease 2013 for y'all. (Lol)

Much love, alhanasabrina

P/s: please pray for my last paper for my second year this thurs, thank youuuuu :D

Finals fever ey?

Assalamualaikum lovely readers :)

Well, i guess you guys know what am I going to write since i made it so clear in the title. Really, why is everybody having their finals coming? Ahh its not a bad thing cause later we shall have holidays togethaaaaa! Weee. Ah well okay. This is my schedule. Alhamdulillah it's not so packed but one of em is a killer subject sooo, i still have to constantly study starting from now.

2712 0900-1200 Chemical Engineering Thermodynamics (killer!) *dies*
2812 0900-1200 Separation Process
3112 0900-1200 Probability and Statistics
0301 0900-1200 Analytical Chemistry


AND I'M FREEEEEE FOR 4 MONTHS! Yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

Please dearest, include me in your duas, thanks ;)

alhanasabrina

Poetry is as beautiful as the different meaning it brings to different people who reads it

It's raining and i'm listening to Dear God by Avenged Sevenfold, what could be better for the poetic side of me? :)

Days become weeks,
Weeks become months,
and months become years...
All in a short span of time

Memories are held between those times,
Both happy and sad,
Some unsure on where to be kept.
As the saying goes
You die when you keep it in,
You die as well when it is spoken.

As the synchronized rain falls
Two souls faced away from each other
Because one wanted to change
And the other doesn't

Aren't we all the same at one point or another?
Whether it's the same problems
Or the same differences
Same intentions, different ways
Same ways, different intentions

Oh honey why do you seemed so surprised?
It's all because
We came from one source
One creator

Above all
truer words have never been said
except one

surely but slowly, death is approaching



i'm getting rustier by day, forgive me

alhanasabrina

Talking Makes Everything Clearer :)

I KNOW I'M SUPER LATE BUT I'VE JUST WATCHED STEP UP REVOLUTION (-.-' yea i know) but who cares the movie is freaking awesomeeeeeee. But Moose came out for only one minute or so, le sigh. The dance mob where they wore suits were definitely my favourite. And not to forget the arts gallery mob. Teehee. Must be awesome to be professional dancers like them, gaah I can just ramble all day on my love towards dancing but it just makes me super excited and then sad. Cause i can't dance no more. Well not in front of you guys. In front of my husband yes :p Maybe we'll take dancing classes, who knows. Ehehe.

And see my title up there, that is most certainly true. But well, to whom that you can really REALLY talk to anyway? Well those are the ones that you can most clarify things and please please don't take it for granted. It's not bothering them, (atleast not for me), cause atleast you can clear things out with them. Because as I said earlier, to how many people that you can actually really really talk to anyway? Not many I presume. So treasure them, let them know they matter. I know I'm trying :) Cause I don't wanna lose those who are dearly to me just because of some unresolved inner conflicts, or simply my ignorance.

Of course, everything doesn't always applies to everything*. Get what I mean? No? Google it :p

alhanasabrina

*but in most cases, they do. But who knows you can be the 'other' part of it?