post-weekend

although i'm so getting used to being the only child around, it is always always wonderful to get together as a family (duh)

and although i'm already getting used to do things on my own, been in boarding sch since i'm 13, now i'm 22, but i'll never ever get tired of being their daughter (duh again)

well just so you know, I had an amazing weekend, from the family reunion, watching captain america (met super old crush!!!) and the F1 experience with big sister. Totally worth it :)


family >>>>

alhana

Of the late

I haven't been doing much thinking really. Well, being the thing that I used to do the most, it came as a shock to me on how I can actually not think too much.

Nope, not at all.
Not about life and its mysteries.
Not about feelings and its complications.
Not about formulas and its theories.

Only, I think the few are on my mind of course are this one competition and him. Mostly. Kinda bad if you ask me. I think i'm so occupied with stuffs until i've no time to actually cater to my needs. Not that it matters a lot if you ask me.

It's just good, not having to worry about something until you feel like your brain is about to wreck. But tests are coming up so it's kind of the same. Lol

I need to read. Bye!

Treadmill

Countless thoughts acted upon, random craves became normal, sudden urges fulfilled, plates of delicacies swallowed, places travelled, days slept in doing nothing, money spent recklessly, all I ever did was give in to myself. I caved to all of my desires, wishes, and wants.

Maybe it's time to fight myself.

Superstar

It's hard, to be able to love someone with all your might but not being able to tell them what's craving to get out. Cause really, she's lost for words. But that's not love. Love won't do such things. If she really love, the words would come out like blood running thru her veins. She's afraid to ruin it. And he's waiting for her to take a chance. She's broken her promise once, and he's dying to see what's her reaction towards it. But the truth is, she had ruined it. Ruined. With an ed. And she has absolutely no idea on how to fix it. Stumbling upon lost messages, hidden pictures and she found her greatest treasure. Memories. And a portrait with both of them together. She never knew it existed. Well, she did. And now, it'll never leave her sight. Lost in her own world, she crouches in the light, seeking for help. But he won't help her. He wants to, but he wants her to be independent. And once she has that, he wants her for his own. Only for him. And secretly she wants that too, but she's afraid. Afraid that after she gave away all of her to him, he'll flee, like the others. But how could one take her seriously if she's not willing to give it back in return? She has to think. Fast. Before he fades away like he starts to be. She tried, but clearly words ain't enuff. But he's so far away, and she's outta gas. Help, where's the nearest gas station? She search for money. She yearns for guidance. She raised up both of her hands and ask for His help.

And then, she fell asleep with a smile. Wishing that her fight will end soon, she lied to herself thinking that everything will be okay tomorrow.

Something that I think suits the moment. Good song tho ;)

Just another love story: alhanasabrina