Trying isn't enough apparently

If nobody ever loves me
I think i'll be okay
Bc i know that He loves me
And that is more than enough

Reading Maria Elena's latest blogpost --> (peliks.blogspot.com) makes me teary eyed. MashaAllah, so beautiful. If only i could be like that. But no, I am thankful that I am born with Islam, and do not have to go to the extend that the sister went through. But being a Muslim born is what most of us took advantage of and look lightly towards. I admit sometimes I only remember Allah when I am sad, but i'll try by best to remember him when I am happy too! Or maybe, at all times. Because He never really forgets us or else we'll be dead by now. And we won't be having all those kinds of luxury that we're living in right now. Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah.

sometimes when i look at other people committing sins
i think to myself
maybe they're committing sins due to ignorance
but im committing it with knowledge

Astaghfirullah

May our imaan grow from day to day, ameen

Hanna xx

Love For

What do you love? Who do you love? Doesn't really matter ey? But I know one thing for sure, if you love someone/something, you want the whole world to know on how amazing the person/thing is so that the world can love it too. Not share the person, of course (if a person is the case).

For example right now.

I have this tingling feeling of excitement whenever I see a bunch of words perfectly jumbled together and forming a perfect sentence, or even a word itself. I see happiness in a sentence that creates not just meaning to me, but other meanings to different people. I love how the words made me feel. Sometimes I just feel like tweeting beautiful sad sentences but I'm just afraid people will just mistaken me by thinking i'm being emotional at the moment but I'm just trying to convey the message on how beautiful I think the sentence is. I think sentences formed with emotions create more impact than others that are just, written. (Maybe that's why I just love poetry)


"How can I fight for something I no longer feel"

Look at that. So, so beautiful.


alhanasabrina xx

Love After Marriage

I was browsing thru Instagram, and I came across a friend of a friend's profile. I don't even know her, but I do know that she got married earlier this year and she's just 21 years old. And she had this picture w a caption "love after marriage is simply amaaazing". 

And that triggered something. 

Love after marriage is not only practiced by us muslims, but those w strong beliefs in their religion too, no matter what religion they're in. Because no one actually perceived love before marriage as something good for you but yet many people practice it nowadays, myself included. It's just to avoid incidents that can lead to all the social problems that the world doesn't need anymore.

I know, not many people can truly accept the fact that you are going to marry a stranger, but i somehow find that somewhat inviting. Like there's so much fun in actually figuring out your spouse after you got married, and you can do everything together cause it's well, halal! 

Because I believe, if both of you are meant for each other, good for each other, love will come along eventually, even if you despise him before. If it ever happens to you, just profile him first, and after making your decision, do solat istikharah and inshaAllah everything will run smoothly for you :) After all, love for the sake of Allah is the best love there is. (And i also believe love comes from spending a lot of time together, so yeah)

In another note, maybe its us, living in the modern day era so we can actually not socialize so much but still can get to know our future spouse a little bit before getting married. And hopefully to all those gentlemen out there, please do not approach a woman without even intending to marry her. Please?

There's actually pros and cons of this topic, and i'm not saying if you don't do it, then you're wrong, no. All i'm saying, if knowing the person you want to marry beforehand will reduce the likelihood of both of you not getting along after marriage, why not? But of course, everything has limits. And may Allah put it in our hearts to remember it. InshaAllah. 

May our hearts and imaan be stronger during Ramadhan. 

Alhanasabrina :)

Together

I now know that love and happiness must come together. One shall not exist without the other. I mean, you can't just hold on to love without happiness and you can't go on just feeling 'happy' about it, without love lurking around somewhere.  

Oh, life. 

Hanna xx

Stranger

Your face is so familiar yet I don't know who you are
Are you an angel, or a shining star?
You appeared in my dreams
You were there along the creaks
Is this as crazy as it seems?

Your voice sounds so smooth yet I can't recall your name
Cause when I listen, it all sound the same
Are you my subconcious?
Are you my other half?
Or are you a demon, waiting on behalf

I passed by you yet I don't see you
Like a shadow, lurking behind the moon
Could this be the end? Will I see you again?
And will I get to know you
Like I think I did, once so subdue

Arms so strong carrying me yet I don't feel a thing
Are you the one running or am I the one falling?
Like lightning you came and the same as you leave
And I watched you change, with a slight heave


by Alhana

Sweet stuff

Found this somewhere

"Forever and a day"

A girl can always dream, can she? :)

Hikhik cheeeesy post on a Tuesday 

alhanasabrina xx

Of the late

I haven't been doing much thinking really. Well, being the thing that I used to do the most, it came as a shock to me on how I can actually not think too much.

Nope, not at all.
Not about life and its mysteries.
Not about feelings and its complications.
Not about formulas and its theories.

Only, I think the few are on my mind of course are this one competition and him. Mostly. Kinda bad if you ask me. I think i'm so occupied with stuffs until i've no time to actually cater to my needs. Not that it matters a lot if you ask me.

It's just good, not having to worry about something until you feel like your brain is about to wreck. But tests are coming up so it's kind of the same. Lol

I need to read. Bye!

Key: you

Saying and quotes may mean a lot of things, but mainly it is to teach us. And aren't human such intricate beings? The ones who He had made each different on the inside, yet similar on the outside. I believe that, no matter what other people say or do, what you say or do gives the most impact in your life. 

Because i believe, in every problem, there are plenty of right answers, but only 1 which is closest to the real answer. But if the person choose to believe in some other solutions, so be it. It is his choice. His stand. And that goes a long way. Even in Islam, there are 4 schools of fiqh! Not saying that only 1 is correct, all are correct, it just differs in opinions and point of views. 

To what he believes tastes good, he'll stick to that eventho there's something better. 

To what he hates so much, he'll hate forever eventho there's still good in the thing he hates

So what am i trying to say exactly? Things tht we believe in, paths and choices that we choose, it doesnt mean that it's the truly ultimate truth. Try and look around, maybe you'll find something better. Maybe you'll find something new to deal with your problems. You nee to reset your beliefs some times. Even countries need election, so what more you? 

I always tell myself something on repeat if i wanna get it stuck inside my head. Maybe the way i deal things were different, and now in the process of becoming better. Maybe the way i think before is the same and mundane, and now in the process of changing the way that I think. It is hard, because how can you exactly change something that is so hardwired on you that you can't even see it? 

But please, by all means. Stick to your principle if you want. I myself am finding it hard to believe what i'm repeating to myself every single day. But i need to try and suck it in, because i wanna believe that it's the best for me :)

InshaAllah

alhanasabrina

3rd point. Remember? (from the last 2 posts, lol)

It's about the guilt trip actually. Just, be thankful that you actually have guilt trips. Cause if it were to mean anything, it would mean that you actually have a heart. And that heart of yours, comes with feeling in it. And that's good. In a way, those guilt trips can also mean that you still have some imaan in you. So have faith, don't ever let go. Don't lose faith in yourself. More importantly, do not lose faith in Allah, for He is closer than you think ;) As sister Yasmin Mogahed said,

And mashaAllah, how true is that? But of course, we don't want to wait until our heart is dead then only we revert back to Allah right?

And that is my short 3rd point! Hihi sorry it took so long. Been occupied with something last week so i haven't be able to visit here or even tumblr. and oh, next week back to utp. This saturday I mean. Well, ready or not. Bismillah, 3rd year here I come :)

I'm a big girl already (wow); alhanasabrina

So, 1st of May. (again!)

This time around it's different cause it's the 1st OGA (old girls association) day held in the new TKC situated at enstek. My oh my. It's hard getting there if you're a first timer cause there's absolutely no signage whatsoever. NO. Except for those hand made signs which just points straight on when we're like there there. Haha. Anyways I had a blast! Exploring (and commenting :p) the grounds, dorms, rooms, dining halls, classrooms, and the trees. Heee. Everything's new, so everything's interesting. I'll show you some pictures.

ALAAA I DIDN'T TAKE PICTURES OF THE DORMSSSS

Okay so basically, it's just a room w 8 beds and lockers. Kinda small for a dorm. But with cemented floor. That's why it felt so, empty and new when i stepped in just now. Their lockers are smaller too! But the rooms, esp in the f5 block, (they're using the International Baccalaureate block) all max 4/5 persons each room. And with their own tables inside. How convenient. And the house hicoms, they live INSIDE the lounges. Soooooo comfy! Lucky them. And they're not using the old bedsheets, the ones we had to straightened up every morning, they're using those with zips instead. So no more 'tegangkan bedsheet' for them. Hihi. But but, the curtains are hideous. Well, the green's are. Sad :(

Ooooh and they have wifi all around the college. And the modems are on each floor of their dorms! See how lucky they are? *cringe with jealousy* lol

The downside is just that, it's hotter and waaay bigger so it's more tiring. But sooner or later you have to get used to it cause you're studying there right?

Oh oh and, remember square? The place we used to have dates and watch netball games and practice our march past? IT'S AN OCTAGON NOW. Haha. With no benches (yet?) and instead of a netball court, it's a basketball court. Heh.

OKAY IDK WHY BLOGGER IS BEING SUCH A... I CAN'T UPLOAD PHOTOS :(

I want to share the fun

*sits in a corner* *cries*

Well I guess i'll try again next time (if I remember) inshaAllah!

Love you girls to bits, alhanasabrina