life doesnt come with erasers

its been a while.ahha.many things come and go.yupp.if i were to tell the whole thing, this post will never end.where was i, yes.btn.BTN.ahha, no need for that.

next, exams.yeah.and in between that, was the uttermost important event.the turning point of my life.need i to explain it all here?i shall say no.


dear twin, i may have known you since i was here.but the journey itself was great.the first year, i thought i couldnt live with you around.i still remember those words i said.it all came to that point where you are willing.yes, its a noble act, a kind act from a very noble person like you.among those numbers, you were the one who was brave to stand up for me, although it all end up in dirt.useless.but the effort, thank you.i could not thank you enough.later on, you woke me up with a news.a breaking news that i already knew.and if i were you, i would be mad, seriously i do.i dont expect the flame to go off any time soon, but please.i regret.and im really sorry.its not that i did not have the effort to change things the way they are ow.but its not in my range of power.i tried.im sorry, i know i dissapoint you and you regret knowing me pun kan?so whats the use.im still waiting for the right time where everything will turn out right again, but it seem like it wont happen.so, let it be.i've seek forgiveness from god.and its up to you now wether or not you want to forgive me.-->Q


thats one thing i had to say.

next.


im replying to bean's post,

"betrayal is a crucial thing. and friendship is a pure thing. both can never mix together, and in any case, if they are present at the same time, destructive measures can occur."


what makes a heart of stone?what makes a heart so willing to betray?is it because of revenge, anger?grudge?think/ idk, ppl may judge, but the heart of the true person says, i dont know.some say, its emotions over mind.some say, we as humans mmg tak sedar what we did until we figure it was wrong.all wrong.stupid.a big stupid mistake.


i betrayed, i regretted it and i learn my lesson.


i can talk, ramble bout all my wrongdoing for hours, days if you want to, but thats immature.if i dont learn, whats the mistake there?but surely enough, im learning, still.maturing.MATUR-ING.

its difficult, being the one who is guilty but the person thats hurt doesnt feel what i expected her to feel.i know i know her.she said so.after all these years, after recovering from the mistakes both of us made, i watched her go, i didnt let her go, she wanted to go, she was tired, but i tried to let her stay.i tried.dont say that i dont try.please.

im guilty enough, other people's words make me stumble down and cry, but the truth shall be known.punish me for long as you can, forgive me, so i cn forgive myself.not long, before this eyes of guilt will leave you, far away and hope for the best.please.

crucial times.even the movies wont entertain me.

pushthemovie; maxime.