2011-2012

As usual, the new year post. Nothing much to say, since I have my finals coming. Maybe I shall do another post after finals, maybe a survey. I love surveys :B hehe

Not that I wanna be those typical 'I hate 2011 its a bad year so 2012 pls be good to me' people but there are some things that I dislike in this year. Mostly about my self and about my decision making skills. But then I learned something new every year, and that's what gonna shape me to be a better person and muslimah in the future. InsyaAllah.

Nothing to flash back, but for those who knows it, you know. For those who don't I shall not say anything. Just that I'm glad it's over and now I can keep my head straight for things.

Just this, whenever you have doubts or regrets about something, on why it ended, remember the main reason you did it. Even if you regret it, even if you love it with all your might, remember the main reason. That's what counts the most.

Im just glad I have 1/3 of the coming year to relax and plan what's best for my future. Just hope i wont waste half of it sleeping and eating just like I plan to do during the first week :B



Happy new year, everyone. May Allah bless us.

alhanasabrina

2 hours

This is a dream, I said to myself. The surrounding was vague, but the people innit were clear. We are having a party. All of a sudden, I'm awake. What's that noise ? Searching for the source, I found my phone, ringing. It's the alarm. With all of me that's awake, I gather all of it and turned it off. Then m back at the party. There were so many balloons. We were playing this some sort of game that I could not remember how it goes. Then the routine repeats. Some parts of my dream I could not remember. Fun fact: When you're in love, you remember 30% more of your dreams. True ? I dunno. Okay

Then I was awake for the final time. There stood my roommate, saying something I can't quite grasp. It's like m awake, but m not there. At least not there yet. While waiting for myself to return, I listened and heard: Hey, do you wanna wake up? I remembered that I stared at her, trying to look as normal as possible. And I nodded my head, not fully me, yet. She repeated and added: Cause if you don't, I wanna turn off the lights. I nodded. And there I was, fully sitting down on my bed. Funny. It's as if I hadn't slept at all.


Then after wudhuk, everything is clear for me. Alhamdulillah.


:) alhanasabrina

A Reminder Won't Harm

Anas relates that the Prophet (peace be upon him) said:

“None of you is a true believer in Islam until and unless he loves for his brother what he loves for himself.”  

[Sahîh al-Bukhârî and Sahîh Muslim]


alhanasabrina

Do you remember the forgotten ?

“Though lovers be lost love shall not.” - Dylan Thomas

Sometimes the people we meet change us forever. - Ben Holmes (Forces of Nature, 1999)

“Once they move, they're gone. Once you move, life starts over again.” - Jim Hinkle

Allah does not change a people's condition unless they change what is in their hearts (13:11)

Have you ever really wondered about all those people you meet in your life ? Why do they choose to be friends with you, instead of the other 6 billion people in the world ? Whats so special about you ?

Just think about it for a second. Have you ever met a person you are no longer in contact with or maybe are still, that completely changed your life for once ? At least he/she had changed the way you eat, or talk, or dress, just simply anything, to make you a better person. Or maybe just simply someone you passed by at the sidewalk, your senior at school wearing some perfume, so you decided to get one, some random cute guy wearing spectacles, and you decided that you like people wearing spectacles. Well, that's something, because it changes how you look at people, how you react to them and how you react to things that are on the people. That's the small changes.

And there's the big changes, maybe he/she inspires you to succeed, do really well to prove to him/her that you are not a total loser, or so that you could prove to him/her that you're worthy of being married to (but ended up splitting anyway), to become a good person after you've shoplifted or done a crime. Or maybe just simply, because of him/her, you've stopped smoking. or drinking. or swearing. Or maybe had improved your english, maybe just taught you a new word. It could be anything. Going out late at night, being a playboy/playgirl, anything. And even your primary school friends, your secondary friends, your colleague from work, your myspace friends, friendster friends, and even your facebook friends. They've may changed your life the most. Im most referring to my highschool frineds here, because I didn't spend 5 years of my life with then for no reason right ? :)

AND THE LIST GOES ON AND ON AND ON.

Well if you don't, start remembering. Because those people are the ones who made you who you are now. Well that's not completely true, your parents and God played a big part in it, but you still have them to credit. Maybe those artist, or those movies and TV series could join the list, because I know I did am affected by them. Well, I improved my english along side watching Chuck, Big Bang Theory and TVD okaaay. Lol. And also some plan making strategies alongside watching Gossip Girl :p

For those whom we've love and lost but learned a thing or two from them, for those we've met but have not spoken, and just simply, for those who have thought us something, just anything, THANK YOU :) 

alhanasabrina

He who gives in charity and fears (Allaah), and in all sincerity testifies to good, We will indeed make smooth for him the path to ease, but he who is a greedy miser and thinks himself self-sufficient and disbelieves in good, We will indeed make his path to adversity easy." [92:5-10]

Still UPPPPPP

Yep, it's exactly 5.11 am and m still up. A-mah-zinggggg. I know righttt. Lolz.

Okay Im awake and kickn at this time of night (or morning) is mainly because af the _______ PCE report viva thingy that I have to hand in and present tmr. Ugh. Yeaaaaaa it's hard. Not really, just it's very inconvenient as the lecturer didn't told us from the start that we have to do the freaking iCON for the same assignment that we did earlier. Pffffft. Okay i won't ramble on about iCON cause obviously you followers don't know anything at all about this iCON. Just to let you know, it is a software used by Petronas to calculate stuffs, very handy i could say, FOR A FOURTH YEAR STUDENT or as an intern  -.- But i've finished it so yeaaaaah. Tumblin till mornin. ;)

Okaaay. Another reason is that I slept for a full 3 hours after my class yesterday from 4 till 7. Hehehehe :B But i did woke up to pray of course. I just loveeeeeeee to sleep. Lolz. I think m sleepy most of the time. Haha. So now I am trying my best not to even touch my bed or else i'll go ZZZZZZZ. Trust me. I will happen ! but i shall not let it happen ! Hahahaha ! :D

Another reason is that I drank the Iced White Coffee from Ameeth just now after my gamelan class. That stuff really works on me, i tell ya. Effin seriously. Hoho. (Y)

Oh. I just wanna say congrats to my beloved little sisters from TKC, as you still able to keep our pride held high for your PMR results. Those who excel, keep it up. Those who didn't, it's not the end of the world, trust me. You girls have a long way to go :)

Oooooooh and m going home tonight ! At last ! After a month ! (lolz) But yea, really miss home :( But as i keep on saying, the worst isn't over, finals is still there. *sigh but it's okay. let's recharge at home. And hope to go out and spend a few bucks hehehe :B Christmas sale ! :p

Takecare people. Somebody out there loves you, remember that <3

alhanasabrina

Ironic, isn't it ?

IRONY

Pronunciation: /ˈʌɪrəni/

mass noun

the expression of one’s meaning by using language that normally signifies the opposite, typically for humorous or emphatic effect

 

Oh I thought you'd always be right here
Never thought I'd watch you disappear

Through it all, I'm holdin' on
I tried to make right of what went wrong
What would it take for you to see
I left you with the best of me
And I tried to forget everything you never said

Don't tell me it's too late
I'll wait for the moment you say
Say that you'll stay
'Cause I won't let go
And I need to know
That you won't be the one who got away

Today I have to face the truth
Can't replace, can't find another you

But through it all, I'm holdin' on
Tryin' to make right of what went wrong
What would it take, for you to see
That I've left you with the best of me

Don't tell me it's too late
I'll wait for the moment you say
Say that you'll stay
'Cause I won't let go
And I need to know
That you won't be the one who got away

We're losing time
Can I change your mind?
We're slippin' out
Can I bring you back somehow?

Don't tell me it's too late
I'll wait for the moment you say
Say that you'll stay
And don't give up tonight
This time I won't let you be the one who got away
'Cause I won't let go
I need to know
That you won't be the one who got away

No I won't let go
I need to know
That you won't be the one who got away

Summer after high school when we first met
We make out in your Mustang to Radio head
And on my 18th birthday we got that chain tattoos
Used to steal your parents' liquor and climb to the roof
Talk about our future like we had a clue
Never plan that one day I'd be losing you

And in another life I would be your girl
We keep all our promises, be us against the world
And in other life I would make you stay
So I don't have to say you were the one that got away
The one that got away

I was dreaming you were my Johnny Cash
Never one without the other, we made a pact
Sometimes when I miss you, I put those records on, whoa
Someone said you had your tattoo removed
Saw you downtown singing the blues
It's time to face the music, I'm longer your muse

And in another life I would be your girl
We keep all our promises, be us against the world
And in another life, I would make you stay
So I don't have to say you were the one that got away
The one that got away

The one, the one, the one
The one that got away

All these money can't buy me a time machine, no
Can't replace you with a million rings, no
I should've told you what you meant to me, whoa
'Cause now I pay the price

In another life I would be your girl
We keep all our promises, be us against the world
And in another life, I would make you stay
So I don't have to say you were the one that got away
The one that got away

The one, the one, the one, the one

And in another life I would make you stay
So I don't have to say you were the one that got away
The one that got away

That both of these songs' title are nearly the same. Haha. That's all :D

alhanasabrina

Push It To The Limit

 

Have you ever wondered what would it be like, testing your own limits ? Know how far you can go, with all the energy that you have. Have you ever did something with all your might, giving your all until you have none left ?

Well, idk bout you, but I always always have wondered bout that. Because there isn't a single thing in my life that I actually have given my all to. Studies, maybe. But 'give all your might' in this case means using your energy. For example, playing in a football game, 90 minutes non stop without taking a single walking step. Or maybe playing tennis without having to rest and drink water like everyone else always does. Or just simply you feel tired walking up the stairs to your 4th floor apartment but you're stuck at the third floor but you decided to go on and once you've reached your bed you just stumbled on in and recharge. Lol. Maybe, who knows ? I just wanna know what would it take to use our full energy ? If I knew the answer, I would feel very satisfied after doing it, cause you know, you have given your all in it. You deserve some credits man.

But someone like me, with a slight low-blood pressure problem may have lesser limits than all of you. So just now when playing tennis I've decided to check my limit. It turns out before I could even reach to the maximum level, my blood pressure will gimme a sign. So if I push harder, I will blackout. Seriously, I've tried.

I guess we will never know our limits, cause when the energy level has gone into the danger zone, our body will give us a sign that tells us to stop. But who knows, one might actually succeed in finding his/her limit. Do tell me yea. Haha. Later ! :)


alhanasabrina

-gram

It's weird that I have absolutely nothing to say. It's as if I am not feeling anything that's worth writing a post right now. Maybe I'm done writing about myself. Maybe.

Ever heard of Instagram ? If you're an iPhone user, obviously you've heard of it. It takes pictures and edit it with all sorts of filter. It's cool. Seriously. Even Justin Bieber has one. Lol. And even Selena Gomez. Okay. You can post all sorts of picture with it. The lucky ones will get their picture to the popular page. Their pictures are really pretty. Some people just post a picture of themselves, yknow. But idk, I like to post things that I seem to find beauty in it. Like scenery and all that. You can visit the website here at instagr.am

Okay now, what is Stickygram ? It's simple. All those lovely pictures you took with Instagram, you could turn them into magnets. How cool is that ? I bet those people who create this Stickygram get loads of money from this. You can visit their website here stickygram.com


Okay, this is a story on how my life relates to both of the things that I wrote up there.

1) I am an instagram user. Thus making me an iPhone user.

2) Just recently I've won something by retweet-ing a tweet. The exact words were

Win a Stickygram worth of $14.99 via @motiodesign now! http://rt.my/ua #StickygramGiveaway 

I used my public twitter account which the name will not be said here, i don't see any reason for that, and yeah after that i just waited. But did not hope that much as I rarely won this type of contest - or any contest at all. Lol.

Then during my curriculum class later that night, I received a tweet saying that I won that thing. It's cool cause yknow, 9 of those stickygrams costs $14.99 but I will get them for free.

I'll post a picture of em as soon as i get it okay ? Till then, followers. I miss you xx

alhanasabrina

It's Like A Lightbulb Moment

Malaysia seriously need more like this kind of videos. Pure genius, I tell you. Kudos to producer Rewan Ishak and also actor Redza Minhat. Hehehehe. Just emphasizing :p

Little footnote:

Sometimes we have to walk out from our little comfortable zone and just look. Look around. Don't just simply think that life only revolves around you and your little cage. It's more than that. Sometimes we tend to forget that. And that leads to us being reminded by little events of our lives that hurt, but immediately caused us to remember, and be better. Be constantly reminded so that life won't have to teach us a lesson once in a while. Give life some rest. But yeah, who can run away from enjoying the treats that life gave us and forget about the really important things ? None. But we can always try.

Create your own lightbulb moment - no, not like the video - just a moment where you sit back and reflect onto your current pace of life, and just be able to see things clearly. Be the one who's controlling things in your life. Remember, you are in charge. Don't let anything get in the way of that.

alhanasabrina

Guess what ? *I may be late but don't mind me*

IT'S NOVEMBERRRRR ! 

*jumps up and down*

:D

hehehe and recently i've came across a new-friend-of-mine's fb, and the person's birthday is on

11/11/11

HOW AWESOME IS THAAAAAAT ? super duper awesome i tell ya. hoho.

Lol getting hyped. Haha soooo good morning and

Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha to all the Muslims out there ;)

 Take care ! bye ! 

Hurtful Truth

Just today, I came to know that there are actually more to life than what has been portrayed to us. It's just the matter of whether we see it, or not. Whether we really want it, or not. Whether we really work for it, or not. Yes, people may be offered an opportunity just good enough for him/her at one moment that the person will come to a conclusion that make the person say, okay I am fine now, this is good enough for me, I can see my future with this so I shall settle with it. It is not right as it is not wrong. Unless you are a total loser, then there is something else better out there for you. You may not see it, but seeing other people of the same level as you do it can make you open your eyes wider.

Several things, in my opinion, might stop you to be more than what you are now: comfort, laziness and time. One, you may be all comfy and snuggled up tightly at the point where you are right now so even though you had the chance, you wont grab it cause you are so afraid of changes and having to be the junior all over again, going thru the registration, getting-to-know people and stuffs. Secondly, you are too lazy to go and search for the things that are better than you with the mind set that this is good enough for me and nobody else out there will take me. Thirdly, knowing that the change and opportunity will make you lose some time, thus wasting all of your time that you had put your effort in the former stuff just that you could leave it to go some place else better.

Pathetic, isn't it ? While some are curled up in a ball of mess, thinking that it is good enough for him/her so they must succeed whatever the conditions may be, some are just lucky to go somewhere and make their lives better. Not that i am reflecting it onto my life, but life's really not fair. Some, who knows big and powerful people are more likely to get what they want rather than a clever-nobody kid who applies for the same thing. Okay I won't go there, m just saying. My main point is the first two para up there. Just some thought.

alhanasabrina

Duly noted

Maybe for some, opening up and telling some other person about how you feel about a third person or anything that's bothering you, your heart and your mind is a big deal. Maybe I never thought that there is a person who's like that. I thought telling people stuffs is okay provided you keep all the little personal details all to yourself. Guess im wrong.

Point taken.

Happy Weekend Everyone

I cant quite grasp the idea of gamelan as a fun thing to do. It is quite easy yea but i seem to think that my soul does not allow it inside of me. Maybe my mind thinks that dancing always has and always been in my heart.

Lol whut am i rambling about.

For the sake of one credit hour, lets give it a try, shall we ? :)

Let's build some imaginary castles shall we ?

Still standing, alhanasabrina

Looking tough, but instead...

'The thought of having someone to go back to and tell about your day, helps you get through the day'

Random sentence i copied from twitter.

My first response was: I don't have anyone, so what does that make me ?

But I paused and thought about it for a while and suddenly realized. I do have someone. Not just one specific person, more or less I have at least 3 people I could talk to and pour all my heart's content at the end of the day.

Allah, that's one. Including my parents, that's three already. Minus the fact that I don't have a specific person, namely a boyfriend, I still have my friends. Not all of em, just some. and the thought of having at least someone, that's enough for me already.

So whenever you think that you have nobody, or you feel like you're completely alone, think again. InsyaAllah you will always, always have someone. Well one thing's for sure, Allah is always there. Needing a person contact ? Your parents' there. Maybe you want someone closer, in terms of age, you will have someone, your friends. Unless of course, you're the one who pushes them away. Open up, you'll feel good.

Oh and one more thing, and this is merely my point of view: don't publicize your sorrow and problems, the public is desperate to see you fall and you'll be seen as a sad person. You don't want that, do you ? :)

alhanasabrina

Through It All

That moment when we had a semi second eye contact but looked away because the pain contained in it were too unbearable. That semi second eye contact is worth a million unsaid words, and an infinity of unspoken memories. The hardest thing is that you can just look, but not being able to go near, or do anything just because you know that you're no longer his and he's no longer yours to talk to, to laugh with, to share stories with, to cry with, to smile with, to be happy with, to be sad with, and above all, to live with.

And if one of us really did look without the other really noticing it, have you ever wondered, what goes thru the other person's mind ?

Those words of yours - not really yours but, you know what i mean - are accurate, if you ever read this.

Bliss, bliss, bliss

Alhamdulillah, as I am given the opportunity to meet up w my tkc friends, at Amalina Izyan's open house just now.

Won't talk about how the event went, I'd rather spill it out in a different way. Let's see if im good at it or not.

I almost tweeted saying I don't like myself - I talk too much. But I didn't. I laid back and thought about that flaw that I have and remembered the situation when im most talkative - when im w my friends. I don't mind being talkative or anything, it's because m with them. It's just that they brings out the best in me. Nevermind it's just 4 or 5 of them who came just now, but they're some of my closest friends that I love so much. We can talk for hours, given time, and not afraid to be who we really are. We can make truth, eventho it's pain, becomes laughter because it's simply is the truth. Friends, best friends, can say out the truth even it really hurts because we know that they did it for no one else but ourselves. We can make inside jokes be unknown to other people because we have the connection, that unique chemistry that no one knows about. We can relate to everything each of us say just because we have that bond. Im not just talking about the girls who came just now, m talking about us, the whole Transcenders. We have known each other for 5 years plus minus, because we never really spoke our hearts off during the first day of school right - but our friendship definitely went straight till the end - of high school. Our friendship will never end, O Allah I pray for you to bless all of my friends and take care of them and ensure that all of us, and You, are always in their hearts.

That one perfect polaroid picture <3

Of course, us girls are second compared to beloved families <3 That I can't deny :)

Top Notch

Last two days, (did you sense a pattern here ? :p well I do enlighten myself on delaying my posts cause I don't wanna be caught as an avid blogger, blogging everyday, but well, who cares ? :p) I went to this open house somewhere. It was far, so I slept on the way there. Woke up to see a line of shiny expensive cars including this one

well, awesome, ain't it ? To cut things short, the open house was one-of-a-kind and it's like nothing-like-other-open-houses-i've-been-before. Lol. Wait, i'm serious.

It has starbucks, tutti fruitti, kambing, rojak, superbb tosai, cendol, delicious char kuey teow, fried crab, nasi lemak, satay, kebab, mee kari, mee rebus, popia basah, cakes, andd chocolates, namely patchi ;)

I had two vanilla cream ;) (but without the whipped cream) and the mango ice blended was surprisingly good. It's tea based. Heh. They have caramel, mocha, chocolate, vanilla and mango. Imagine having Starbucks without paying ? #die

The tosai, idk why suddenly i liked it, maybe it was because the tosai is not crunchy, and there's this white kid who loves it soo much he at a huge one on his own. the gravy's really yummy too.

Char kuey teow ? Best. So. Far. Seriouslyyyyyyyy. But I only ate little of it cause i had to make room for the other foods too ;)

I don't think I need to comment on every food right ? But this is the last one. Def need to let this out.

Tutti Fruitti without having the worry on how much it will cost you ? Of course people will go crazy ! esp kids. Haha. And me :p You can take any topping you want, and as much as you want to. Ha ! So i took a handful of gummy bears, a spoonfuls of nata de coco. And bla bla bla, I don't want to explain everything as you readers already got the picture right ? :)


The pictures won't load. I wonder why. I guess takda rezeki lah followers this time. Till then, we will meet again, insyaAllah.

Bye !

A trip to Floristika ;)

Last two days, (yep, that's how long I've been delaying this post) my mum made me get out of bed at 830 am just to bring me to this flower shop. Well, she said that it's a surprise and I would like it, and yep she's correct. I loved it ! Man, it's funny how flowers do that to you.

I wouldn't want to ramble much, so let me just show you some pictures that I took that day.

It's beside NST !

Purple roses :)

I call this, the only one that blooms ;)

Carnation !

Daisies , or as they call it, Gerbera :) *my fav !

Black and White Pussy Willow :)

Colourful Gerberas !

Pictures and names of all the types of flowers

Humongous vases ! :O

 *pictures were taken fully w my iPhone 4 and some using the Hipstamatic app



Are they any good ? Oh yeah, if you ever wanna go here, bring a jacket. It's so cold !

Till next time , insyaAllah ;)

alhanasabrina

A tad of random

I don't know where you are, or what are you doing, or are you healthy, or whether you are happy, well fed, or are you even alive or not.

Well, the last one seems a bit exxagerating but, I got the message clear right ?

Despite all that, despite that a part of me tries to shut you down and ignore the feeling, I can't help but to remember you, as you are now a part of my memory. And that is something that I can't remove, even if I wanted to. Allah can help me remove it, but that will be called Amnesia, or idk, get involved in an accident or some sort. No that i wish of it, but im just saying. Nauzubillahi min zalik. 

Sorry for the pause, but after the exams, i've been busy entertaining myself with Vampire Diaries and other sorts of halal entertainment. Hihi. It's not wrong, and I love it. It's been a long time since I had this long of a holiday. It's just been 3 days and I hope there's more to come of it ! InsyaAllah.

Lucky me, being a CE student of UTP, my exams finished on last Saturday but the PE students of my batch still have their last paper tomorrow. All the best for that :)

Oh and, do add me up: QuillSeeker43 on Pottermore ;)

alhanasabrina

Nothing Much, Just Finals.

0609

academic writing

0900-1100 hours

0709

differential equation

1430-1730 hours

0809

introduction to material science and engineering

1430-1630 hours

1009

introduction to oil and gas and sustainable development

0900-1100 hours

physical chemistry

1430-1730 hours

I need all the luck that I can get.

InsyaAllah :)

Force

M not proud of what Ive done and I try my best not to relive that moment but one way of teaching us humans is to embarrass them, make them remember. Tell the story over and over again so that the wound will never be healed, thus making us too embarrassed or really realize that it's wrong to repeat the mistake. It's not the best way to confront and overcome the mistake but provocation might turn out well sometimes.

Change Is The Only Thing That Is Constant In Life

If ever any of you readers reflect back and read thru of all of my old posts, you should have seen some major differences in how I write and what do I write about. So that leaves us to a major conclusion: I've changed.

The question in line is: Is the change for the better or worse ? 

* I know my blog's getting boring, but yeah, m trying to improve that. 

alhanasabrina

Chemistry

The subject I used to love the most. I still, I think. But now I can't seem to understand the beauty of Physical Chemistry. It sucks being in a world of confusion all the time. I'm trying. It feels great if I can conquer the subject like I used to. Everything about it is in the back of my head. But alas, it is never the same.

Nevertheless, I still wish for an A. Who doesn't ? I need your prayers, my dear friends.

250812
Physical Chemistry Test 2
1600-1800

alhanasabrina

Future Chemical Engineer, InsyaAllah

Today, I Saw A Dog

For once, I was there, sobbing in the cold. Alone without no one in reach. Everything around me was pitch black and all I can hear is tiny droplets of water, trying to make a dent in a rock somewhere. I'll cheer for you, dear droplet, as it will take major perseverance and effort to form even a slightest effect on the rock. I am with a jacket, which by now was soaking wet from the water. I didn't know where I was, or who I really am, or how did I get there. I can't feel my hand, it's numb. Numbness embraced me and at that moment I swear I was closer to death. My mind kept struggling, if only I could remember. Not even tiny bits of pieces of what had happened, just blank. I remembered the episode of Vampire Diaries where they made the person's memory disappear and I wonder whether that had happened to me. The thought only last for a second as I brushed it away, shuddering. Vampires don't exist, whispered the thoughts in my head. I tried to wander around, only failing miserably by falling straight to the ground the moment that I stood up. My energy was close to empty and my limbs are failing me. I need more time. The attempt of shouting for help - even speaking, was hindered as a squeak can barely come out from my mouth. The pain was excruciating, not physically, but mentally as the three cynical words kept appearing in front of me, forming an echo, 'I don't remember, I don't remember, I don't remember'. As if it's laughing at me. Over and over again. My head is throbbing like a drum. Boom boom. Boom boom. Boom boom. Suddenly, there was light, blinding my eyes. That's all I could remember.

I am not very proud of myself today, even though now is just half of today. It must be reflex, but bad bad reflex. And I really shouldn't put sleep as my priority over certain things sometimes. It just gets over the limit. Sigh. I shall try my best for the remaining of today.

Forgive me, O' Allah : alhanasabrina

Look At My Notes Inside My iPhone, You'll Understand Better

O Allah, grant me my patience, for YOU are testing me. All this fears, all this heartbreak, it is just merely You testing me.

Maybe I don't deserve it, that's why I didn't get it, no matter how successful I am during that interview. Maybe this is the way of YOU showing me that.

Maybe this is just Allah's cue for me, to see. To see how long will I be able to stand beside Him, patiently as He brings down a mountain of problems onto my shoulder.

InsyaAllah, with YOUR help, I am able to get thru this.

alhanasabrina

but you can't, can you ? :)

Ambillah apa saja kecuali Nur

itu janji Adam. Adam redha.


Nobody will know the pain of losing someone you dearly love, your other half. In this movie, it is Aidil who felt the most pain. First, losing Nur to his brother. Then after being happy with his wife Aliya w their two kids, she is now also, gone. MashaAllah. Nothing can be compared to that pain. The flashbacks, the memories. Ya Allah. Let me be the one going thru that pain, if I were to get married. I wouldn't want my future husband to feel that excruciating pain.

Astaghfirullah.


alhanasabrina

Taken from lovedthee.blogspot.com

Jangan memberi harapan pada yang belum pasti,

kelak ada insan yang bakal dilukai,

Jangan menaruh harapan pada yang belum tentu dimiliki,

nanti hati yang kecewa sendiri.

Sebaliknya,

gantunglah segenap pengharapanmu kepada Yang Maha Memberi,

nescaya dirimu tak sesekali dizalimi,

kerana Dia mendengar pengharapanmu setiap kali & Dia menunaikannya dgn cara-Nya yang tersendiri

Cukup cintai dalam diam dari kejauhan dengan kesederhaan & keikhlasan

Kerana tiada yang tahu rencana Tuhan

mungkin saja rasa ini ujian yang akan melapuk atau membeku dengan perlahan

Kerana hati ini begitu mudah untuk dibolak-balikkan

serahkan rasa itu pada Yang Memberi dan Memilikinya

biarkan DIA yang mengatur semuanya hingga keindahan itu datang pada waktunya

"Barangsiapa yang menjaga kehormatan orang lain, pasti kehormatan dirinya akan terjaga."

(Umar Bin Khattab ra)

If you really love her, you won’t touch her.

Not even the slightest bit.

You’ll protect her dignity and sacredness as a muslimah.

Just hold her in your heart for a few more years ..

then you can do it the halal way

“Sesiapa sahaja yang memberi kerana Allah, menolak kerana Allah, mencintai kerana Allah,membenci kerana Allah & menikah kerana Allah, maka bererti ia telah sempurna imannya.”

(HR. Al-Hakim)

As a reminder because I find this interesting. InsyaAllah.

Hikmah

I think everything that had happened to me has it's own pros and cons. Well, one thing that I know of, i'm glad to still be here, in Malaysia. Close to my family and friends. A girl can dream. Who doesn't want to go overseas and study and make your parents and teachers proud ? But I think for now, UTP is my place. I can't bear the missing if I were to go overseas to study, miles away from everything I love except for Allah. He is ALWAYS there :) I know i'll cry. Even reading a post about goodbyes put tears to my eyes, what more if it were me ?

InsyaAllah, i'll go overseas to continue doing my masters. InsyaAllah by that time, i'll have someone special to accompany me :)


alhanasabrina

I would just like to say

Alhamdulillah

that I am born in Islam.

for being able to live, hear, see, walk, talk and breathe.

for still having my parents, beloved siblings and relatives.

for still being able to sleep in my own bed, have my own hot shower, and eat hot food.

for having a nice house to live in, a car to drive in, and sufficient money to spend with.

for getting a scholarship from MARA to study in Universiti Teknologi PETRONAS.

for I am still a Muslim, having sense to wear my hijab, can still recite the Quran, follow the 5 pillars of Islam and still learning to be better.

for all the good things that are happening in my life now, Alhamdulillah.


alhanasabrina

Strength

Those tears, they're a must. But I feel sinned :( I am glad, as I have end the story. It is to give chance for both of us to repent for what we have done, and change. InsyaAllah, really change towards the better future. Towards the one and only Allah s.w.t.

Ya Allah tolonglah hamba mu ini supaya beristiqamah dalam usaha untuk berubah ke arah mu. Aku sedar, dan aku perlukan hidayah darimu untuk lebih dekat kepada mu. Lembutkan lah hati ku Ya Allah. Terima lah doa doa ku Ya Allah dan ampunkan lah dosa dosa ku yang terdahulu Ya Allah.

slow and steady. slow and steady insyaAllah.

InsyaAllah, after this I will have the strength not to cry for anyone except for you Ya Allah. I am determine to be someone, to be a better muslimah in your eyes.

I am trying, I am trying. Ameen.

Heartbreak

I can imagine my life perfectly if I were to accept the offer. I'll be super duper happy, but...

I guess no further explanation is needed here.

I want to, but i can't.

alhanasabrina

Tricks Of A Woman

Football. It can bring you higher than ecstasy and take you lower to the depths of despair. And we are all bounded by that one magical word

gooooooaaaaaaaaaaaaaal !

Tell me, who doesn't watch football ? :)

*inspired by that tv commercial

maxime

The title: It's a movie

Knock knock,

Starting ke finishing ?

*TKC-ians, you know what I mean ;)

Happy Ramadhan to all :)

Ramadhan is not just about fasting. It is more than that. Let us search for forgiveness from Allah in this holy month, and be better than usual. The most important thing is keeping the attitude during Ramadhan permanently, even after it had passed. May we get what we hope for in this month. Reset your niat :) May we get blessings from Allah, the Almighty.

Verily, the month of Ramadhan is devided into three parts. The first part of it is mercy; the middle of it is forgiveness, and its last part is freedom from the Hellfire.


Just as a friendly reminder

#1 Waiting List

Losing someone is never part of the plan. It never is and never will be part in anyone's plan. Tell me, who plans to meet a person and leave them then ? Nobody. The plan is just to do everything you can do the avoid the goodbyes from happening. Nobody ever plans to fight, or get in an argument. It all happens naturally, you get what I mean right ? We may not like it, who likes it anyway ? But it's all routine. A necessity, if I must say. We may never know the one who leaves us will leave us momentarily, or forever. So cherish all the time that you had, or still have. Look around you. Picture all of yr friends now, the one you do almost everything with. Okay and again, now picture you doing all of the same thing but now without them, maybe with new unfamiliar faces. Or maybe the same faces but it's missing one or two person. Who knows that may happen to you. Who knows. To me, perhaps. So we all should get ready, and try as hard as we can to makesure nobody ever says goodbye. Because it you were truly friends, it won't end just like that. Every one of your friends must have a special one on one bonding w you, so the chemistry between both of you is special. The only one. So isn't it sad to see it gone ? I don't see any exceptions here, but do tell me it you have one. All I could think of is the forbid of parents that leads you to unfriend w someone. That, i shall leave it to God to decide. It's hard letting go. Pfft, cliche ain't it ? Lol :p

Dear you, I have thought of seeing and feeling you gone, but I don't think it will ever be this hard. The thought of never seeing you again is almost unbearable but I guess I just have to bear w it. I hope you are doing well, wherever you are. You have a lot of potential, you do. And I wouldn't want it to be wasted. No use really writing abt how I feel cause I know you won't be reading this anyway. Take care :)

Hafto go. Train leaves at 1240pm. xx


i'm still maxime

I want my happy ending

Allah S.W.T telah berfirman, “Perempuan yang jahat untuk lelaki yang jahat dan lelaki yang jahat untuk perempuan yang jahat, perempuan yang baik untuk lelaki yang baik dan lelaki yang baik untuk perempuan yang baik.” (an-Nur’:26)

InsyaAllah i'll be in the second group. Pray for me ? :)

alhana

About Recently

Do you know that I think most readers start to write then only name their artwork ? Well, if it's true, I could be considered as a genius. Or plain stupid. It doesn't matter, cause every single one of us have their own style. And choice.

To be frank, I dunno why I'm writing this post but since I have this little bit of free time, might as well do something, right ?

Recently, I came across two absolutely different people but became best friends. I guess that's what you call opposite attracts. Both of them like different things, want different things, do different things, but they speak the same language. I never understood much, I just took the important points of it to write a story.

Justin Bieber has a story. Micheal Jackson has a story. The Beatles has a story. What about you ?

And also, recently I came across this piece of paper stuck to the wall. Nothing much, just writings in black and white with 'Moments Of Joy' at the center of it. You can guess it alright, it's telling me to write an article about your moment of joy and can stand a chance to be published in their magazine and win RM 15. Most of people will say, RM 15 ? Pfft. But the moment I saw those words, I already had my moment of joy to write about. I don't care about the money, I just want my work to be noticed. I dunno. But I'm not sure if I have the time to write if or not. The downside is, I have to attach it w a picture. That part, I'm not so sure.

And yes just recently, I watched the video of the Manchester United player being boo-ed and forced to take off his jersey and wear the Liverpool jersey instead. I think it was during training session. Correct me if I'm wrong. But if I'm right, Liverpool fans, chill out. It's just during training. If it's during the real game, you have the right to be pissed but not to the extend of taking away his shirt and forcing him to wear your jersey. That's against human rights. And to the lucky guy, congrats ! You are now officially a legend. Even Wayne Rooney tweeted that. You should be proud. I think the next guy who does that will be considered as attention-seeker so please, don't. You should've thought about that when Manchester United came to Malaysia years ago. Or maybe someone did it before, but the fans are not as ________ (insert word here) as the Liverpool fans. Cheers :)

Recently, I've had my mind twinning around the Love subject. Been watching those love movies, and hearing those love stories. A girl can dream. They always do. Guys do too, more than girls actually. But the talk about love is that, it will be random. You can't plan on when you will fall in love, or get married. Your heart will tell you that. All you can do is try to search for it, and be sure that by the time you found it, you yourself is mentally, spiritually and physically prepared for it. Because of love, people are happy. Because of it also people get sad, or heartbroken. I'm no Dr. Love to talk about it, I'm just saying what I know. One thing about love, it can change the heart. I came across one of my bestfriends in highschool who claimed that she doesn't want to get married, but look at her now. She has a boyfriend, and she's happy. And I'm happy for her. Another thing before I end, love can't be forced. If it's there, it will come. If it's not, there are someone out there who's waiting for you the same way that you're waiting for them now.

"Blessed be He who created all that grows in pairs from the earth and themselves, also from what they do not know."

Surah Yasin: 36


"And every kind we have created pairs: so that you remember His power."

Surah az-Zariat: 51

And now my mind is back to it's original state. Because i've poured my heart out here. I'm glad :)

maxime

how to love by lil wayne

I Got A Question For You

Ramadhan is near.

Are you ready ?

maxime

senyum by malique ft najwa

Do You Remember

Those words that i said before ?

It sounds more of less like this,


Well, now I have three things on the 15th of July. First it's my test. Physical Chemistry test. That's a must. Oh well. Second, it's the Pangkor trip w the Kembarians. Since I have the test on Friday night, I plan to go there on Saturday morning. So that's all set. But just now I got a message from He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named (not Voldermort) w an irresistible offer for me as a crew to go to Subang for a competition. The best part is, I will get some money $$ and i get to hang out w them, again :)

Okaay. The problem is now, I def can't go for the crew thingy unless if I take my test early. Andd idk if it's possible or not. But that's just an option. Not saying i will go for it, since I am not that ready for the test. Sigh, P Chem. Y U so harddd ?! Lol.

So now, I can only opt for two out of three options. I think it's obvious on which I should pick, but the crew offer, it came from someone, err just someone. Someone I look up highly to. And it'll be an opportunity wasted if i don't just go and spend some time w them and be happy for myself. But I think it's God's way to show me that my words are true after all. I can try to make it work by forwarding the test or something, but the true decision is actually mine to make.

I'll get back to you on this. Sigh. Pray for me.

xx, maxime

love you like a love song by selena gomez

Feeling bored ? Here's something you would like to see :)

Tronoh Theatre Shop UTP dengan kerjasama, JKKN, UTP dan Taman Budaya KL mempersembahkan

1) TEATER MAHKAMAH LORONG

Karya Dr Shark dan Arahan Atul

Sinopsis: Cerita memaparkan keadaan sosial di satu lorong yang dihuni oleh gelagat pelbagai jenis binatang.Ketenangan mereka terganggu dengan pembunuhan seekor kucing Parsi di lorong tersebut. Mahkamah Lorong bersidang untuk mendakwa Gagak pembunuhnya. Gagak telah di dapati bersalah membunuh. Namun adakah benar gagak telah membunuhnya?

Review:
Mahkamah Lorong bongkar ketidakadilan. Mahkamah adalah tempat mencari kebenaran. Namun, ada ketikanya berlaku ketidakadilan dalam perbicaraan membuatkan seseorang tidak bersalah menerima hukuman.

Itulah tema diangkat dalam teater Mahkamah Lorong arahan Profesor Madya Dr Shamsul Rahman Mohamed Kutty (Dr Shark) dipentaskan di dewan serbaguna, Universiti Teknologi Petronas (UTP), Perak, pada 19 dan 20 Februari lalu.

Menerusi teater dibintangi ahli Tronoh Theatre Shop (TTS) itu, kisah ditonjolkan mengambil latar sebuah lorong, Jalan Sam Pah Tong yang didiami pelbagai haiwan.

Pelakon yang memegang watak Gagak, Syafiq Faliq Alfan berkata, kehidupan binatang di lorong itu berubah apabila berlaku insiden yang merosakkan keharmonian mereka.

“Terdapat pelbagai haiwan mendiami Jalan Sam Pah Tong termasuk Gagak, Kurap, Mak Ayam dan Parsi. Setiap haiwan membawa karakter tersendiri dan bertanggungjawab mengangkat mesej dalam setiap bait dialog.

“Suatu hari, pembunuhan Parsi seekor kucing mewah kegilaan Gagak dan Kurap menjadikan komuniti binatang itu kucar-kacir dan tertanya-tanya siapa yang membunuh Parsi,” katanya.

Menurutnya, hasil siasatan membawa kepada penangkapan Gagak yang kemudiannya dibawa ke Mahkamah Lorong untuk perbicaraan.

“Semua saksi dipanggil mengemukakan bukti yang menghala kepada Gagak sebagai pembunuh.

“Gagak tidak bersalah mengamuk, namun akhirnya Gagak dan semua binatang lain ditembak mati dalam Ops Gagak. Watak yang merancang semuanya, Mak Ayam yang didalangi lembaga hitam sebagai ‘master mind’ yang tidak diketahui hingga ke akhir pementasan,” katanya.

(2) THE MELODY OF MIMES
Karya dan arahan Ash dan Acab

Menampilkan persembahan mime (seni tanpa suara) dengan menjadikan lagu atau muzik sebagai medium penceritaan. Pastinya mencuit hati dan menghiburkan.

TEMPAT: AUDITORIUM TAMAN BUDAYA KL (Bersebelahan balai polis trafik Jalan Tun HS Lee)

SLOT PERSEMBAHAN
16 JULAI 2011 (8.30 PM)
17 JULAI 2011 (3.00 PM)

TIKET: RM 10

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maxime

hello by martin solveig & dragonette

Former Gangster

I miss you. The three words that for me, can be said to any of our friends, as a sign that we remembers their company, and long for time spent together, or just simply a feeling of belong. It's easy to have that feeling, but hard to express. Maybe because the reason is not quite right, or just we shouldn't miss the person that we miss. There are also many reasons to miss someone. Not just for their company, maybe because you just wanna hear their voice, or see their face or just simply saying hello and ask how are they doing.

It's true. You'll never know what you've got till it's gone. Or taken away from you. Treat everyone well but don't flirt around. Just a heads up.

maxime misses you

backseat by new boyz

I Need A Doctor

Well actually, what i need is a distraction. There are so many things going on in my life, and yes everyday is not the same as the other so i can't say my life is mundane. The environment changes, yes but the content, and the people, there are all the same. Things we talk about, and the things we do, its more or less the same.

Im not supposed to feel this way, you know, bored w my current situation or what, i just should focus towards my studies and neglect all the other distracting things.

On second thought, yeah, i really shouldn't wish for a distraction. That will add more problems in my life.

I just need an outlet. You know, a place to tell things. Usually i just tend to tell stories to my friends but i feel like it's bothering them. I shouldn't. And maybe im feeling this way is because of my surroundings, they're mostly couples or happy people w good results. Haha. Not all of them la kan. And yes i've chosen this blog to fulfill it but it's just inadequate. Haha. Typical humans, always not satisfied. Well.

I have my outlet, on second thought. Okaaay. Now this post is kinda funny. Full w second thoughts. Don't mind me, just wanted to post something to tell my followers im not gone just yet. Hihi. How are you people doing ? Just reply to this post if you read this yeaa. If you want to. Feels good if I can hear some news from you. Thanks for reading anyway, i know this post, or all of my latest post are quite boring cause it's all about me, not facts or interesting subject matter. I'll try hard later okay ?

Bye bye :)

Maxime

haunted by taylor swift