I had an epiphany. It is a circle. (And guilt trips are fine, trust me)

Generally, there are 2 ways of reacting to things. The right way and the wrong way. Too general? Let me break it down to you. Wait on second thought maybe I shouldn't. Any grown person who are reading this must know exactly what I mean. Ways to react to things: infinite possibilities. Categories they fall in to: right or wrong. There are no definite answers on which are right and which are wrong. Not helpful? Try reading this paragraph all over again. Your brain will tell you. (or else just comment below i'll be more than glad to try and enlighten you!)

What popped into my mind just now is that everything is a circle. A cycle I mean. A cycle that can be described with a circle. Tadaaaa! For example, day and night. Our earth. Our daily life, we go to work every morning, and then go back home every night when it ends. We study, we score for exams. We work get money, spend it and then work some more. We buy stuffs, it gets old, we replace it with a new one. We said something, we get sad, and then we go back to being A-okay again. And the list goes on and on. What I would like to emphasize that, everyone feels this way. Everyone experience this. Allah made it sure that everything in this world is balanced. Everything complements each other. (Although some people pushed the idea of fatness actually being shared all across the globe, means if you're getting skinny, someone else somewhere is getting fat. And I thought of that too, money wise. But it yet to be proven hihi). But please don't get any comfort in thinking that oh those rich people if they're more on that side then they're less on certain side. Please don't. Getting those are bad. As a hadith say

He (sallallâhû alaihi wa-sallam) said: "Beware of jealousy, for verily it destroys good deeds the way fire destroys wood." [Abû Dawûd]

It just brings diseases and black spots into your heart. And you could be called schadenfreude for goodness sake. You don't wanna be called that do you? 

Okay, back to the point. What I really wanna emphasize is that, whatever it is you're going through, just remember, THIS TOO SHALL PASS (ahh good old days when I had to present about this with pika in front of the class). But yeah, it is true. You may be on the downside of your cycle now, but who knows, sooner or later, inshaAllah, it's your time. Your turn to shine. ALTHOUGH maybe sometimes you'll get bored of your state now and flipped out out of impatience. And then comes the guilt trip and then you're back to being contented all over again. Wow I said that like I got it all figured out ey? Actually, it is quite the opposite. I battle with myself constantly, all year round. It is not raya or christmas where it's festive, applicable to certain phases of the year, I myself, dear readers, can go all year long. I'm like summer in Malaysia. Get it, get it? Lol.. Anyhoo, I just got back from a guilt trip to Swiss. Not a good one actually. This is the one where I go all cold like Spring this year in UK, all snowy and stuffs and had to sleep it off to actually get back to default. Alhamdulillah i'm all better now, thanks to Allah, I can truly say.

So, points from this blabbery post

1) React wisely. Don't flip out. Don't blurt out the first thing that comes to your mind, sometimes it could be nasty. Do good while you can. Don't be a schadenfreude. Hehe

2) Guilt trips are good. It lets you experience things and takes you to places you've never been before. But remember to come home! 

3) I'll save this for the next post. Just remembered that I hadn't put it in here.(gosh I blab too much)


Everything that is good comes from Allah, the One and only and everything that's bad comes from your truly.

alhanasabrina xx

Expectations, Hopes and Dreams

It's normal for people to have a weight or you can say responsibilities upon them, being the typical are - to study hard and get good results, to portray good manners, to be able to dress well and cover our aurahs, and so on. And it is important that they are not only given the task to do, but also the aid that will help them achieve that task. I can say that i've been living under the pressure of scoring well in my exams since i was small, and trust me, it does not stop. It has become a norm to me that i feel like it's programmed into me. Well apart from that is my parent's ultimate wishlist for me (next to becoming a good, solehah daughter), i myself too want to see myself as someone worthy, someone who is capable of achieving things. Not just becoming a living person on earth, just like some other 26 billion people.

And to do that, it is not an easy journey. You have to be able to learn new things, and absorb them fast as the world nowadays can be whizzing past you with you even noticing it. Not to mention the everyday drama, or the day-to-day routine that sometimes get our bodies numb and allows us to succumb to our #1 desire - procrastination. Being 24/7 productive is a hard task and blimey, it takes a strong person to be able to put up that mask every second too! So you need to learn how to manage your time wisely, which are translated by us, the 20s as "last minute errands" or "wait, just an episode" which later turns out to be a whole freaking season of it! Not good. And exercising takes a huge chunk in producing an all rounder student, whether you like it or not. I'm still working on that because I deffo hate going out to jog having to wear my shawls and so on thats why i exercise most when i'm home. Need to work on that. Haha.

A huge problem which I can clearly see in myself in the need for us ladies to shop. Ahh, this. A problem I can't find a cure for, yet! Maybe being in a secluded place like Tronoh (in my case) prevents me from going nuts whenever that famous brand goes on sale but having those online shops, shudders, just gets me. But i guess the cure is to be content of whatever you have and DON'T, i repeat DON'T ever try and scroll through those online blogs. It's a disease and once you got it, it takes an empty bank account to finally cure you from it. You don't want that do you?

Last but not least, the spiritual link. Everything you do, everything you own, even you yourself, won't exist if it weren't for Allah so do what you have to do, or need to do but don't ever, EVER forget Him. And your family too. They're your base so stick to it.

Actually i'm freaking out for this coming 3rd year cause i've been on a holiday for so long now i swear i wont ever want any holiday like this ever. Lol of course I do but this holiday makes me feel less smart. Lemme get that degree first before thinking of any plans of a holiday okay? insyaAllah

alhanasabrina xx

How Bizarre

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How bizarre it is that we tend to overlook the things that are important to us and then one day when it's gone, it's the one thing that we need the most. It doesn't happen to all, only to some but it is clearly bizarre.

How bizarre it is that someone that we hate so much and later on be our bestest friend and all the sour memories can be laughed off when they talk about it. It doesn't happen to all, only to some but it is clearly bizarre.

How bizarre it is that the more a person ignores you the more you want his/her attention. Maybe it's true that man only want what he can't have. It doesn't happen to all, only to some but it is clearly bizarre.

How bizarre it is when you want to use something and you can swear the thing is not in it's place but when finally you don't want it, you see it lying around. It is somewhat bizarre and also annoying.

How bizarre it is when you finally found a parking spot not too close from the entrance after 15 minutes of searching, you saw an empty spot just beside the entrance while you were walking towards the entrance. It is somewhat bizarre and also very annoying.

Okay now I can't look at the word bizarre and feel weird. That's bizarre as well. They way words tend to look weird everytime we overuse it or repeatedly use it.

alhanasabrina

Bye now

It's been on my mind for a while now that i need to surpress the provocative side of me. It's in my brain somewhere, oh more than glad to be let out but no i'm not gonna let it. Well recently i let it get the hang of me and i ended up bawling my eyes out for the rest of the day out of guilt. It's always here, in my brain lingering and forming up words that can well, provoke people. And it's not in a good way. But don't misjudge me as an evil person, always scheming and trying to ruin people's day. I can just say that i'm not like that. It's just maybe this thing is my weakness. (Gosh can't believe i told you guys that, now you guys can scheme and go against me lol)

Maybe if i could turn it into something positive i'll give the chance for it to breathe air. It could yknow, with practice and guidance. But for now i'm keeping it locked up like Melanie in Wanda's brain. Get it? It's from The Host. Haven't read it? Well go. NOW.

Promise you, it won't fail you :)

alhanasabrina xx