panic attack

when the car stopped, i woke up due to inertia.feeling nauseated, i quickly fix my hijab and got down from the car.

my journey to the toilet was fine, it seems that the problem is to find the toilet rather than walking to the toilet.

then its time to perform the ablution.sitting down in front of the pipe, i sensed something was wrong.was it my head, or was it my stomach?i really don't know.

as i walked to the toilet again, my vision became blurred.all i can see was tiny dots of black and white, i could not even see where am i heading.i almost fainted, i couldn't feel my legs.thank god the walls helped me.i was scared, scared that something bad would happen to me.i lost all sense of time.

i was covered in sweat and my stomach was grumbling profusely.i could not fathom what was happening to myself.all i could do is just sit, and wait.i waited, and waited for my vision to return back to normal, it took a while, but eventually it became normal again.thank you Allah.

a tiny thought came to mind, maybe its because of my low blood pressure?i cant deny, yes i did stand up a little too quickly just now.but a second ago, everything was fine i presume, why now?why, all of a sudden?

suddenly i was back to the ablution room.i felt okay, but my adrenaline was still pumping, causing the sweat to stream down all over my body.i sensed an eerie feeling all over me.

i completed my ablution, and walked into the prayer room, feeling sick.the headache was killing me.but obviously, after i perform my prayers, i felt okay(:

and eating nasi tupe and pau mushroom after that, wow.i was completely famished, not bloated of course(: aha.

i didnt tell my parents, and we headed home safely after that, with me sleeping all the way home(:

but the question is, is this story true?or not?aha.

dont say goodbye; maxime

life's like that

jakarta, i must say?

but actually, its not.hahaha.bandung again, this time one solid week.gosh, i wonder how i made thru it this time, haha just kidding(:

that was yesterday, i hate to babble abt that holiday, well you know the subjects.shopping - mostly pants, eating - those delicious mie pedas special :D and and lumpia basah ;P oh yea, swimming - 1.3 deep pool? and yea, movies! ninja assasain, new moon and avatar 3D, superbbbbb ! bla bla bla.aha :D


and as for today, i finished 3 movies.hahahaha *satisfied* so 3+3=6 movies altogether!.haha.

12 rounds
all hail for john cena! (: love the rounds, and the smarty pants miles johnson behind it.
love the action, and its a mixture of die hard and speed as my dad said, so its not original.hahah
err 2.8 stars?

tropic thunder
gosh, stupid story.haha, but.okay la kot.cus its funny, and illogical lah.dang that lil kid is the boss?and that kid is kinda cute too ;P
and ben stiller actually directs his own movie, oh wow im impressed ;P
2stars

monsters vs aliens
another stupid, yet enchantingly funny movie.haha, but its cool, i can say.cartoons(: haha, oops.sorry, if anyone of you is a cartoon lover out there.i dont mean to, em em, u know.i dont hate cartoons, but its em em to childish?god as if im 40, hahaha.im not too old for cartoons, yet xD
2,5 stars?

gosh, i really could stop giving those stars now, i cant really judge.HAHA(:

nothing interesting happened to me today, or tomorrow, i doubt the day after also.haha.but by that time i'll be at kelantan watching astro, ooh i like(:

or maybe this few words will cheer you up, or just make some question marks pop up, aha ;P

i dont want to be Serena Van der Woodsen if you are Daniel Humphrey, because we cannot be together.and we want to, thats obvious, maybe?but that doesnt mean that our parents are together in any way, alryte? aha

remember Aaron?and what happened to him?

think think

think fast,

oh yes one more

may be i love you, maybe i love you so much until i cant afford to lose you, until i am willing to be ur bride and' till death do us part' and say this few words ' i do ' but i just dont know it yet.who knows? maybe ;P

think again people

ahah,

oh yea, once ure in, i'll never forget you.

do understand that, or whatever that means(:

xoxoalmaxime.

p/s: i really adore avatar, i think its really really unique.seriously.
i'll give it 4 stars, i cant give it 5, cuz imma professional ;P

and hey you ! glad that we're okay.dont let him-or anyone else gets into our way, again ayte ;P LOVE you(:

things will change, but only some will remain.lets see if we'll make it thru this year.have faith(:

i will take a break from this mess, i will

wait, i almost forgot, yea i hadnt realised until just now that the others were meant for me too

whatever

liar liar pants on fire

look, i wont be onlining for some while, so i guess i will write more than i type.
HAHA, theres some joke inside that line.

whatever pun, i will be enjoying myself with my movies, and no one can ever destroy that.

wanna reach me, you have my number
*im going back to my kampung pun so there is more than one reason NOT to online


and as for you, i wont do anything, i will follow your orders.haha.but if you miss me, you know just what to do. ;P

im having 2nd thoughts here, wait.

such a waste

oh yeah, when you're finally alive for real.buzz me.

my middle name; alhana.

aku, again

aku mcm nak nangis baca benda alah tu tapi aku pun wonder kenapa?

aku pun macam nak bengang, tapi aku pun wonder kenapa?

aku pun macam nak sedih, but again, kenapa?

aku nk ckp thank you lah.
just nak ckp.

fine fine

aku tak admit lah kot

kau takyah la buat benda for aku if kau nak ckp macam tu

sincere?maybe.i think so.yea, i guess.

pictures?whatever i couldnt care less.but my parents were interested.

kau.

bukan aku tak kesah

aku mmg macam ni

kau tak tahu ke?again, bukan aku tak kesah.

surroundings kau, ade je yang aku benci

fine, tak suka - hate is a bad word

ade aku halang ke?bad mood?fine

aku nk ckp ni, and kau pon tau kot.kau mmg ada mood swing, and aku mmg takkan kesah pasal org yang nak merajuk2 ni

aku try try try try try pujuk

words are my specialty, kot

but aha, you are immune to it, thats for sure.
so mmg la aku pujuk pun xkn menjadi.

kau nak ape?
i wont be coming, yup.on that date, and eventho i didnt cry, my heart bleeds.

i crave to be there, just as you have been there for me
all this while
but i cant disobey my mum

but i will come
same date
remember.

jangan benci aku sebab org lain

oh ryte, bukan benci - tak suka

jangan tak suka aku sebab org lain

these words are precious and i highly value it, but i will say it to you

i love you.

takpercaya, sudah?

aku mmg tak reti tunjuk ape ape; alhana.

have fun without me, and with your two A's.
obviously ;P

*mood: missing, dont mind me.

new moon vs ninja assasin?

well, obviously i cant compare between both of them.but, both have their own pros and cons - obviously ! haha.


new moon.
i love it, well cuz of edward obv, and i didnt even drool when i saw jacob black.aha, im on edward's team(:

its kinda, kinda boring, but its much much more better than twilight cuz it has much more action scenes.the werewolves were huge ! and some of jacob's other colleagues were cute ;) namely embry and quil.they are so skinny when they're not in the form of wolves.haha.

alice, on the other hand, plays a good role in the movie - and also in making jokes :D i remembered when i laugh twice as hard when alice spoke this line

'whats that smell of a wet dog?'

or something like that, i have to watch it twice to actually remember.aha.

and jacob, teasing mike during the scene where bella jacob and mike watch a movie together

'such a marshmellow'

overall, sweet. :D jacob looks surprisingly desperate, and well.im sorry for that ! hahahaha.edward's still the man.sorry jacob, too bad ;P

but the part where the volturi smashed edward's head to the ground, it actually cracked - could you believe it? gosh.i could feel the pain.ouch ! haha.

3 stars.


ninja assasin
rain, superbly hot body, i must say.

the name thats given to me is raizo.

but the pain, its excruciating.

i jumped in my seats several times, the killing is so brutal - no wonder its 18.haha

its just a story about ninjas, but a very cool one, i can say.

not too much of the plot, but the action, 5 stars(:

overall, 2.5 stars.hee.

p/s: sorry amir, i watched new moon without you.please, forgive me?sorry gell.

and and i bought like 20 cds to watch back home (:

plus, theres like 5 more at home that i havent watch yet

plus the gossip girls series

and the cds include the japanese's crows zero,

looking forward to watch it(;

you know i love movies; maxime<3

you really like the number 4, dont you?

7 months and 10 days, thats not a very long time, i guess


its safe to say that, i errr, i, erm erm, ape eh?haha.

4.44 pm.

nothing happened, don't worry ;)

'saye xpernah ckp bahasa inggeris dpn awk sebelum ni kan?'

and yupp, thats the first time, and im gladd(:


you know you love me,
alhana.



WAIT, it's better to say no than to hurt a friend right?
im so sorry,

dont be mad at me, you shouted at me once, and i was damn scared.

if youre gna be mad at me, trust me, im going to cry.

these are unfinished words

que haidar is absolutely, a wonder kid.aha, except that he's not a kid anymore, oh i adore him.

papadom?

watch it urself, you obv know, that movie grabbed a lot of awards, so its sure to be fun.

gelak guling guling weyh tgk crite tuhh :D

wtv it is, i have several things in mind,

1. i love love loveeee my braces, so i hate to take it off, which it will be done sooner than you think (gosh, really sad )': )
   
2. what course? what course? what course? what U? what scholar? gosh, seriously, i have no idea.and its really something to worry about.
   
3. i love you is a very very very serious word.decipher it yourself, ure big enuff kan?use it well.
   
4. i cant believe it, im growing up so fast.minutes passed like acid rain falling down on earth, and nxt thing i know, i'll be 30 and married.haha ! its a joke so please laugh, thank you.
   
5. YOU, yes you.
   

in my mind now, there are plenty of files that are not sorted out yet, so please.please, be patient.one thing for sure, i will not delete you or drag you to the recycle bin, even if you ask me to do so.everything will be done in my own will.aha.

and now, aha is my favourite word(: gossip girl awaits, oh my humphrey, iloveyouu(;

AL.

about

karaoke is really not my thing.but after today, i can really change my mind bout that, except that it takes a hell lot of money.aha, not that much, really.

when i woke up, half of the day was gone.its goddamn 12 in the afternoon.gosh, then i text-ed naa, asking her when are the others coming.later i went out to wangsa walk to join rawk, darte and herself.

we spent 2 hours of karaoke, but then, i didnt spend anything since i didnt bring my purse along, gosh.silly me.aha.it was fun.darte and i started it with taylor swift's you belong with me and naa and rawk ended it with kaer's izinkan ku pergi.it was indeed, a blast :D

later we went back to my house to eat and pray.spaghetti, yumm :D

after that we went back to wangsa walk mall to do some manicures and pedicures.ahha, i got my nails done! i was so excited.aha, typical nique lah kann. ((: then i followed rawk to buy her topup and those yummy cud-bon drinks that she was so interested in, aha, me too actually(: after that we went to eat those super hot but delicious asam laksa, wich nana highly recommend.aha, thank you lahh.then we were stuck at elianto's sale.and yes, it was affordable lah.darte was torned between coloured lip gloss and non coloured, as for me, aha.i still love my money, hehs.but can you imagine, they sell the black cutex for only rm 1? goshh.

this time, i didnt bring my phone along, but then, i was like, whatthehell, ive got my friends with me.altho yes i will admit that im quite worried bout if my mum was looking for me.aha.but then i came back at 715, and they were not home yet, i was safe afterall, hee. (:

then i called am to update her bout my self, and she told me that she's already in taylor bla blabla, going to fly nxt yr i guess, bla bla bla, gosh.

i hate to grow up so fast.please realise that, okay?

wtv; alhana.

home - the lizard on his jeans

this was yesterday's occasion.
date: 121209
theme: pink

i woke up in the morning, feeling yucky with mardieq and am by my side.

off to the showers, so in a blink of an eye, i became myself again, fresh(: ahha

then we picked the clothes for me to wear during the so called birthday party and we went downstairs to help.

the first person that came was amir.ahha.i freaked out since i had not yet change my clothes since it was only err, 12 or smthng?

a funny thing happened, haha.he took one cupcake, then he wanted to shake hands with my mum, then the cupcake fell, into my mum's roses.thank god it was fake roses.hahahhaa, god he was shy! ;P

the he hung around for awhile, while am and mardieq took some pictures of him and myself with am's nikon D90, and plus.he gave me another birthday present, which i highly objected, but he strongly insist.gosh, this guy, i cud not thank him enuff for all that he had done.heh, but anyway thank youuu(: you have made my life more, delighted :D

anywayss, we continued to decorate the house and make it ready.there were some pink balloons, and gosh.we were in hell while blowing up the balloons yesterday as it was so hard to tie up.idk why, but atleast we manage to tie up umm, lets say 20 i guess?haha.

the first batch came, which was collegians, and they made hell of a noise.haha, typical us(: they went to pray at my room, and then the second batch arrived.again, the collegians(: *smiles* there were so many of them.gosh i missthemsoooeffinmuch! and and, theres this story, abt bean, mummy and carrot, wanted to bring a very big and alive birthday present for me, but he didnt came, cuz he was shy! *aww* but but but, he send his regards to me! *wide huge grin* :DDD

okay okay, after we sang the birthday song and all, its bon apetite time! the girls, as usual lah kan, serang the food, like college((: then,

spotted, A with H playing at the swing beside S's house.

hahaha. kantoi! but they were waiting for the others to come, so like, nvm.em em, then the first batc of the guys came, along with the sspians, aha.first time weyh jumpa :D bey was nice.ayzie was like, sweet.and nara too.heh.then i walked pass razzan and ghandi, and they were like, 'haziq haziq?' haha.i was speechless, and nervous?blaaah.pfft.


okay okay, then eat eat eat.then, the collegians have to leave.aww, so sad! :(

then iya came, along with eng.qeesh came, along with his super funny and funny petbro, fazlan.and and not to forget, a photographer.hehs.we were playing at the playground, and razzan signalled me that he too, wanted to leave.and then, and then,

spotted 3 guys, one was wearing pink, and the others were in stripes, walking towards S's house

i freaked out.and ran away, hiding myself in the crowd.it was haziq, lucas and hafiq.godd.then i escorted then in, with my head buried behind am's.haha.

he was cute.
he was cute.
he was cute.
he was super cute.
he was super cute.
he was super cute, wearing pink :D

enuff said.
pity my friends, cuz they were still at the bus stop beside my house, waiting for a taxi.
then i have to bring them to carrefour for a taxi, its 6 by that time.then, it was only me, mardieq and those three musketeers.haha.

wangsa walk.
such a boring mall.pardon me lah, without the bowling and the tgv and the fos, think, its super boring.

he wanted to buy me TL's flipflop, but im running out of time.sorry):
one time where he pulled my hand out of nowhere, cuz we were both on the phone, ahha.so cute! haha.i kept on repeating that sentence, didnt you notice?

he's cute, but he had to leave.as for mardieq, kesiaaaaan sgt kat die, cuz kena buli dgn hafiq and lucas.grr, hafiq was so damn annoying lah.but they were nice cuz they spend mardieq rotiboy yg saaaangat sedap! hehs.i had to go back home early cuz my cousins were home.

so thats the end of the day.presents, wow.thank you thank you thank you ((:

my friends, nothing compares to the joy that u bring to my heart, and whenever i think abt you, no doubt that i will always, and will keep on, smiling (:

fida.wanorq.alyn.mummy.dybb2 dan adik.bean.carrot.ny.iya.ryla.lisa.buje'.mummy.pupu.kechik.belle.laily.mardieq.am.pya.anisah.qeesh. ameyl.nara.ayzie.bey. amir.fazlan.the photographer.razzan.ris.abboy.hisyam dan adik.adib.haziq.hafiq.lucas.

any other leftouts?tell me eh.hehs.

with much love and care, xoxo, alhana(:

one utama - the one year older, the driver(;

date, 101209

okay, this one.not expected.i got a call from my friend at 10, and at that time, i was still in bed.ahaha, god he screamed at me, woi baru bangun ke? ahahaha.he owe me a ride pusing2 wangsa maju, so he came and fetch me at my house.i was looking so selekeh, just sarung baju man united and army pants, plus am's cardigan, as i did not expect to go to OU.money, hmph.all i brought with me was a bunch of folded one ringgit.godd, first stop, wangsa walk.i thot i was just going to check whether the tgv at wangsa walk is open or not.oh and did i mentioned, it was the first time that i met that guy.hehs.he's one yr older, so he's qualified to drive.then, we found out that tgv's not yet open, and wangsa walk was dead boring, so i told him to drive me anywhere.but me, gosh.selekeh gilaaaa!but anywayy, i went to ou, and its friggin far from my house.ahaha, nvm that.we were going by car pun.heh.then when we reached ou, he brought me around and all we did was walk.from the new wing all the way to old wing.then we spend most of our time at starbucks, he spend me, haha.as my birthday trip laa.vanilla cream, yummy((: we talked about good stuffs la, driving liscence laa, education and courses and all.hahaha.then, off to my house, lame ah gak kuar.on the way back to xley blaa.both of us were not wearing our seatbelts, and all of a sudden ad plak la roadblock, lucky me that i spotted then from far.hahaha, hilarious.thank you for the treat.heh(: you know who you are.

klcc - the sweetest place ever

date, 091209

i was late, and somebody's mad.ahha, while i was waiting at the bench in front of room, my favourite place to wait, all of he sudden, he appeared.and smiling.hahaha, oh how was i relieved. but then, he's being a dear by being a company for me. he was so patient, but indeed degil betul! haha, pdn muka dy sbb kena sepak2 dgn i.the worst part was, i even have to suap him the prosperity burger, ahha.but i thot i was just being sweet. but i, glad i got to meet him. ahaha.eventho x tgk new moon pun, quite a bummer for that laa, my bad.eheh.one time ni, i was mad at him, cuz when we're like walking, he suddenly turned and walked away.i was left alone, and feeling awkward.gosh, then he told me that it was because of his friends and his sentence that made me snapped was 'and u're not supposed to be here'. damn i was so mad, but his continuous words of sorry, made me forgive him.ala, small matter pun kan.haha.his outfit was cool, kudos for that.ahha. but u know, lastly he bought me the cover ipod anywayy, thanks a bunch, really really appreciate that((: you know who you are.