Finals fever ey?

Assalamualaikum lovely readers :)

Well, i guess you guys know what am I going to write since i made it so clear in the title. Really, why is everybody having their finals coming? Ahh its not a bad thing cause later we shall have holidays togethaaaaa! Weee. Ah well okay. This is my schedule. Alhamdulillah it's not so packed but one of em is a killer subject sooo, i still have to constantly study starting from now.

2712 0900-1200 Chemical Engineering Thermodynamics (killer!) *dies*
2812 0900-1200 Separation Process
3112 0900-1200 Probability and Statistics
0301 0900-1200 Analytical Chemistry


AND I'M FREEEEEE FOR 4 MONTHS! Yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

Please dearest, include me in your duas, thanks ;)

alhanasabrina

Poetry is as beautiful as the different meaning it brings to different people who reads it

It's raining and i'm listening to Dear God by Avenged Sevenfold, what could be better for the poetic side of me? :)

Days become weeks,
Weeks become months,
and months become years...
All in a short span of time

Memories are held between those times,
Both happy and sad,
Some unsure on where to be kept.
As the saying goes
You die when you keep it in,
You die as well when it is spoken.

As the synchronized rain falls
Two souls faced away from each other
Because one wanted to change
And the other doesn't

Aren't we all the same at one point or another?
Whether it's the same problems
Or the same differences
Same intentions, different ways
Same ways, different intentions

Oh honey why do you seemed so surprised?
It's all because
We came from one source
One creator

Above all
truer words have never been said
except one

surely but slowly, death is approaching



i'm getting rustier by day, forgive me

alhanasabrina

Talking Makes Everything Clearer :)

I KNOW I'M SUPER LATE BUT I'VE JUST WATCHED STEP UP REVOLUTION (-.-' yea i know) but who cares the movie is freaking awesomeeeeeee. But Moose came out for only one minute or so, le sigh. The dance mob where they wore suits were definitely my favourite. And not to forget the arts gallery mob. Teehee. Must be awesome to be professional dancers like them, gaah I can just ramble all day on my love towards dancing but it just makes me super excited and then sad. Cause i can't dance no more. Well not in front of you guys. In front of my husband yes :p Maybe we'll take dancing classes, who knows. Ehehe.

And see my title up there, that is most certainly true. But well, to whom that you can really REALLY talk to anyway? Well those are the ones that you can most clarify things and please please don't take it for granted. It's not bothering them, (atleast not for me), cause atleast you can clear things out with them. Because as I said earlier, to how many people that you can actually really really talk to anyway? Not many I presume. So treasure them, let them know they matter. I know I'm trying :) Cause I don't wanna lose those who are dearly to me just because of some unresolved inner conflicts, or simply my ignorance.

Of course, everything doesn't always applies to everything*. Get what I mean? No? Google it :p

alhanasabrina

*but in most cases, they do. But who knows you can be the 'other' part of it?

Words, they satisfy

Wrote on 110209

Fate
Not to change, not to wait
And you know your life is at stake

Fate
It's like a play
Of Romeo and Juliet
You may expect him to stay
But instead she was the one to go astray

Fate
There is a but
Cause happy endings do exist
If you know where to find it

Fate
Familliar? True
But it always
Always ends with a date.

alhanasabrina

Heart-clenching Moment

Guess what? The first draft of the final exam's timetable is ouuuuuut! And i'm freaking scaaaaared. It's only less than a month! Phew. Time do flies, faster then superman. Even faster than flash. Hahah.

I really really hope that the timetable stays that way because for me, it's puuuuurfect. Hee. I guess the gaps are enough for me so that I can still have time to study. I have to start preparing from now! Here's a sneek peak of my timetable:

Oh yes, apart from the finals, it's the last 10 days of Ramadan! Don't let your studies get in the way. But it is still as important! Make sure you divide your time wisely yea. Sleep early and then rise early to do some qiam, study, sahur and Subuh prayer. InsyaAllah if you work hard enough, both lailatul qadr and the As will be yours :)

Okay enough rambling, guess I just miss writing. I miss both writing and reading but i've no time to do both :( Sobs. Well, my fault. Hee. Guess I've to find more time to read and write rather than indulging myself in episodes of TVD of Suits whenever I have some free time :p Hee.

Computational Methods test tomorrow! Wish me luck.

alhanasabrina

Tazkirah Subuh :)

3 jenis orang:

1) Sesiapa yang dosanya tidak diampunkan apabila telah sampai akhir pd bulan Ramadan

2) Mempunyai ibu bapa atau salah satu tetapi tk menjaga dan berbakti kepada mereka

3) Tidak berselawat apabila mendengar nama Nabi Muhammad s.a.w.

Allah akan masukkan ke dlm neraka dan dijauhkan dari rahmatnya.

After a while :) Ramadan is halfway through. I hope you ppl won't slow down. Remember, the last 10 nights are what we really want, lailatulqadr :)

alhanasabrina

Natch

 The whole passage starting from " to " is copied from here, leloveimage :).


"Your E.E. Cummings for the day:

it may not always be so; and i say
that if your lips,which i have loved,should touch
another's,and your dear strong fingers clutch
his heart,as mine in time not far away;
if on another's face your sweet hair lay
in such a silence as i know,or such
great writhing words as,uttering overmuch,
stand helplessly before the spirit at bay;

if this should be,i say if this should be-
you of my heart, send me a little word;
that i may go unto him, and take his hands,
saying, Accept all happiness from me.
Then shall i turn my face, and hear one bird
sing terribly afar in the lost lands.

I guess sometimes the thing you want most is the one thing you cannot have. Know that I have never been kidding when I said I would (and in some ways I have) sacrifice anything - everything - for you, because you and me and us and we, and our always, mean that much to me. Desire, I guess, wears us out, leaves us broken. Desire, I guess, can wreck a life. But you know, as tough as wanting something can be, I think the people who suffer the most, are those who don’t know what they want or worse don’t do what is necessary to get what they want. In the best possible way, you have absolutely wrecked me, because you see, I fell in love with you, always with a feeling, deep down, that there was very little chance of my ever being with you for that always. Definition of insanity, I guess, but holding true the adage that to love and win is the best thing; to love and lose, the next best – because at least I loved you with a love unsurpassed and never to be duplicated, completely and totally and unconditionally and without limits and with a depth that not even poets have been able to capture or even describe.

I wish you happiness. I wish you joy. I wish you grace. I hope that your life leaves you filled to overflowing with all that you had hoped - surpassing your every expectation. There is a wonderful benediction that goes something like “my wish for you: Comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, sunsets to warm your heart, hugs when spirits sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendships to brighten your being, a hearth constantly warmed by family and friends, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth, Love to complete your life.” I do wish all those things for you.

I will miss telling you what you mean to me, which is nothing less than what you mean to the world. I will miss finding new and wonderful ways to express my every feeling, which are numerous and deep and consuming. I will miss telling you how beautiful and amazing and intelligent and bright and gorgeous and lovely and sensual you are. I will miss describing the wonderment that is every one of your special places – and experiencing each of them inch by inch, touch by touch, kiss by kiss, for a lifetime.

You will always find ways to my heart, but I pray that one day the taste of your name, which sounds of beauty and sunshine and smiles and bliss and the warmth of a blessed day, will sound so, though I am not hopeful. Know that any time I need to see your face I will just close my eyes – you will always be there.

And no matter what, I will always love you. And while I will always hope, and pray and wish for the day when you come to me and say “I am yours, all yours, for always,” I will also just pray for a day when I won’t need you so badly every minute of every day and every second in between. You are a love, beyond love, and you will always have my whole entire heart."


Beautiful isn't it? Oh how I long to write like this. Someday.

alhanasabrina

Oh hi

Hey there
Sorry I took away your smile
I put you through so much
Guess the line once curved
Won't ever be that way again

And now the distance that separate us
The crater I created
Was once my source of happiness
Now my source of longing
That you be okay, as you once were

If it were me
I'd die the instant I knew
But you, being the strong one
Kept on walking
Tougher than the earth,
Although stepped by millions

Sorry I'm not able to return
The atmosphere that you gave to me
The best that I could do
Is tell you
And to be honest
I don't feel the slightest happy by doing so

I can't be selfish forever
Can't tie you to me if I'm not on the same page
And now all the time in the world are yours
Forgive me

I want nothing else
Than to see you happy
With or without me
If it what it takes
To see that curve again

You'll be fine, insyaAllah

alhanasabrina

The Minor Side Of Me

Have at it. C'mon, it won't kill you :)

and also, this

Only this band. They're the Big Bang :) Hehe. And they're coming to Malaysiaaaaaa! But of course I can't go. Sokay. Heh.

alhanasabrina

The Door

Yes, see that door? It opens up to a whole new world. There lies your future. Not exactly, it's the road to your future. It's up to you to go thru it or not. I can't promise it will be easy, but i can promise that it'll be worth it. You can stay here, in the present, being cool and calm all you want, cause that's all you will ever do. In order to go thru that door, you must leave all your fears behind. Leave all the procrastinations and the bad habits. Some might creep in, but we'll deal with them along the way. In there, you'll go thru hardships, pain, anxiety, anxiousness and even heartbreak. (maybe) But after all that, one thing I can promise you, you'll be able to smile. You know why? Because then you can finally tell yourself that you had worked hard for something and that something is finally yours. You can brag about it because you totally deserve it, but don't forget to thank Allah. For He is the one who created us to be this way, and we owe it to Him to be thankful for what we have.

Scared? Don't worry. *helds out hand* I'll help you. I'm scared too. We'll guide each other. Lets go thru it together :)


Hello, 2nd year 1st semester :) alhanasabrina

Lets

Lets have ice cream. Lets have a break.

A break from all the sorrows, all the joy that has been taken away from you, all the melancholy of life. A break from the unfolded clothes, piles of jeans and towels, scattered undies and all the necessities for one to continue one's day. A break from the warm smell of the morning coffee, greeting you to the day, freshly toasted bread, ready to be spread with butter, and the enticing smell of home cooked food. A break from the sound of your fingers gently tapping onto the keyboard of your laptop, or the sound of your fingers swiftly swiping the screen of your iPhone, or the sound of you chatting away with your best friend on the phone.

Lets not make other things matter than the two of us, just for the day. Lets stare at the sun, laugh at the wind, dance in the rain and jump in the snow.

Lets break the norm. Lets have coffee at night, warm milk in the morning. Lets have nasi lemak for breakfast, and roti canai for dinner. Lets ride the motorcycle when it's raining, and drive when it's all sunny. Lets sleep all day and talk all night. And most importantly, lets eat ice cream when it's cold and drink tea when it's hot.

Lets, before I have to fly back to one of my favourite place ever, where time will envy the sight of us together.

Lets; alhanasabrina :)

Heroin

:) alhanasabrina

Hero

Hello sun
It's been a while
With your rays penetrating through my skin
I felt at ease
Even with three hours of sleep
I've never been more myself
Like I am now

"I need a hero, just in time. Save me just in time"

Counting days before Im going back to UTP. It's just like the old days. Where holidays are spent without guilt, and each day, without knowing, the day of fear itself is is approaching. And this ecstatic feeling, can't seem to put my finger on it. I'm nervous on starting a whole new chapter, but anxious on what lies ahead. While we are busy preparing stuffs and timetables, life is busy formulating hardships to be thrown upon us. Brace yourself, it ain't gonna be easy, said life.

I don't know what's gotten into my emotions lately. It's like it has a feelings on its own. One second im on cloud nine, hanging w the angels and them titans, then a second later im on mount everest, screaming my lungs out. Suddenly im in a dark corner, feeding the cats and talking to myself, and always im in this room full with scribbled words with unknown meanings. It's like my heart is being a jumper without me knowing it. And it seems like a cat has really got my tongue cause lately i cant seem to put my thoughts into words properly.

What am I talking about again? Lol

alhanasabrina

Random Post Number 282394

Life's profoundly generous
It gave me you
And its up to me to
Be there for you

alhanasabrina

I Believe (queued, for almost 2 months now)

The biggest lie is when you say that you will remember it without having to write it down. 

Found it somewhere, and I think it's true ;)

Memories, or maybe just things, when first known it will be stored in our conscious mind. After a period of time, after we recite it plenty of times, then only it goes to our subconscious mind. The things inside our conscious mind can consist of a name of a new friend, the road to a someplace new, or the lyrics to a new song. The subconscious mind ? Simple, your name, your age, your telephone number, the surah Al-Fatihah etc. These are the things that you can recall without having to put any effort onto it. And these memories will never be lost. (insyaAllah) This is one way to define conscious and subconscious mind. Usually people will say the conscious mind are the things that you do voluntarily, vice versa for the subconscious mind. You can learn more about it here.

So that's why we must write things down. Because we tend to forget it cause it's not in our subconscious mind.

I just wanna share a few things here. (mostly what i wanna improve on doing in UTP, but it's no harm to start from now)

7 Keys to Success (7 Sunnah Rasulullah s.a.w)

1) Tahajjud. This, honestly, I rarely do cause of, yknow sleep and all that. If I can stay up to study, why can't I do the same to do Tahajjud ? But I have to sleep first, and then wake up during the last 1/3 of the night to perform tahajjud. I'll admit it, it's hard. But I shall try.

2) Recite Quran before sunrise. Well, here's another problem. Why ? Cause one, I was trained in TKC to recite the Quran after Maghrib prayers (cause that's the only time that we have) but then I really have to change that. Maybe change to reciting after Subuh only. Or both, If I can. InsyaAllah. Two, usually after Subuh I will straight away go back to sleep. (bad, I know) As for UTP, missing the 8 am class is normal (familliar much?) but this must change. One of the reasons why my grades are not that good is because of missing those 8 am classes. It's super hard I know because sleep is a vital aspect for me, but I must plant it in me to sleep less and do more awake time.

3) Pray at the mosque for Fajr. Guys especially. My mum once said girls are not likable to go to masjid alone, it could cause fitnah. So I shall wait till I get married then I can go w my husband ehehe gedik much :p

4) Dhuha Prayer. Another one. Oh Allah, there's so many weakness in me, help me to overcome them as I don't one to be one of your ignorant slaves :(

5) Sedeqah daily. Smiling is also a sedekah ey :) So don't be shy to smile. Ehehe. And i'm no saint, sometimes I see people at the pasar malam and I just walked by them. :( I hope Allah understands cause we are still students, not being able to have our own income so sedekah as you may :) Don't let it be a burden to you !

6) Always have wudhu'. There's this hadith or Quranic verse I can't quite remember it always appear on TV states that if that someone already has wudhuk from his/her last prayer, but he/she took another to perform the next solat, his/her sins will be forgiven. Or something like that. I am not sure about this so don't trust me on this. I'll try to find it kay ;)

7) Istighfar every chance you got. This i must must must remind myself. Because when m w my friends I tend to laugh excessively and it's so not good. And it also will protect us from doing any harm. Astaghfirullah.


That's that. It's more on the big stuffs. Some of the small small stuffs are

1) Tidying up the bed before class. Aha. This. Im trying to convince myself nowadays that im not quite a lady im im messy and if im messy no one wants to marry me :p ehehe

2) Calling my parents. This is specifically for utp. It's important to keep track on your family, esp your parents. Just imagine... I don't want to say anything bad here but you know what I mean right ? Just like my mum said, she has not been worrying about me at all since i started my long holidays, cause im like here all the time and it's good. But once i get back to utp, she'll start to worry again. And it's my job to make her stop worrying, by calling her everyday (or once every two days).

Well i've got some other stuffs in mind but i shall keep it to myself. We all have our personal daily reminders right? :)

alhanasabrina

Just things

#1 I hate it when people cut my queue (so sorry to all my tkc juniors, i know i did this to you girls), when people text and drive, and when people are being honk-prone. It just ticks me off.

#2 No matter how old you are, do watch your weight. Never ever let it creep. Before you know it, you'll reach an undesirable weight and it's tough as hell to tone down. Trust me.

#3 I am thankful that my parents forced me (or should i say, i willingly did it?) to eat my veggies since i was small. Really.

#4 Do not ever underestimate yourself. No matter what people say, you are not ordinary. You are born to do extraordinary stuffs. You have it in you. It just takes the extra push and self-believe to really convince yourself that you have it.

#5 I know you're all busy doing grownup things, but don't forget that your parents are growing too. They are growing old. Remember that.


Can't seem to put my full thoughts into words tonight. Guess my converter went down. Well, I better call someone to fix it then.

Till then; alhanasabrina

What A Day

It started of like any other day. But it turns out the to one of the best-est day ever. Period :)

*rubbing eyes* i'm an old girl now? Whaaaat? Haha

 

(Syadia: Oh my I didn't recognize you. You don't look 20!)

Mr Tan! The seniors gave him a present: trip to Turkey w his family :) One of the most incredible teacher indeed.

Me, looking at the prestigious block B :D And seeee, that's my name :B

Oh yes. Dat pole. Lol. My favourite spot to play :DD I feel like a gymnast when m on this thing. Lol.

Nothing can beat the dining hall food. And yes, that dish. The salty fish (ikan masin? :p) w onions :D

"Di sini lahirnya pemimpin harapan agama, bangsa dan negara" PROUD! 

The memorable surau An-Nur :)

Beloved block B. Looking radiant than evahhh ;)

The tee that Huda gave me. Im sooo loving it ;) Thanks adik <3

And it ended w some family time. Guess which's my score? Ehehehe. Highest score evah.

And also, not to forget, char kuey teow from Mali's and Chatimeeee :D My day is complete. Alhamdulillah :)

Less words needed: alhanasabrina

Whew

Looking back at several of my recent posts, I thought, 'oh my so serious'. Hahahaha. Well let's steam off, shall we?

Remember my old post where I talked about choosing squash over tennis? Well that has certainly changed now. I'm a tennis player now. Muahahaha. And i'm loving it. Maybe if i spend my time playing squash more than i do with tennis, i'll love it more. But as for now, tennis excites me.And i think im getting pretty good at it too ;) Except well, my low blood pressure. Ah, I could work on that. Hehe.

And that proves a human can change their minds, and continue to be that way.

Yeah, whatever the picture says :)

alhanasabrina

Hey you. Yeah you. You might think that I got it all sorted out in life don't you? Have all the riches in the world, w my sweet nurturing words i portray in this blog, gazillion boys worship me by the feet. Well sorry to disappoint you, but I don't.

And putting up a barrier and act like I have it all under control is all I have to be okay. Well, most of the time i am really okay so don't go and throw some sorrows or pointless drama in my life.


Just to be clear, I am currently contented with my life, and I'm happy with it. And I thank Allah for giving me all that :)

Flashback

PRESS PLAY

 
She loves her momma's lemonade
Hates the sounds that goodbyes make
She prays one day she'll find someone to need her
She swears that there's no difference between the lies and compliments
It's all the same if everybody leaves her

And every magazine tells her she's not good enough
The pictures that she sees makes her cry

She would change everything, everything, just ask her
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster
She just needs someone to take her home

She's giving boys what they want
Tries to act so nonchalant
Afraid to see that she's lost her direction
She never stays the same for long
Assuming that she'll get it wrong
Perfect only in her imperfection

She's not a drama queen
She doesn't wanna feel this way
Only 17 and tired, yeah

She would change everything for happy ever after
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster
She just needs someone to take her home

She's just the way she is
But no one's told her that's OK

She would change everything, everything, just ask her
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster

She would change everything for happy ever after
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster
She just needs someone to take her home
She just needs someone to take her home

I was in love with this song back in the myspace era. I meant every word of it back then. I was so broken back then that this song describes me perfectly. Well, not really, but you got my point right? Came across this song just now while listening to my iPod, and decided to make a post out of it.

Here's to them broken girls that think that they are not good enough, tired of trying to get the attention from those who doesn't care. You can be broken, but don't let it ruin you. It almost ruined me, but thank God i have friends and family who loves me at that time. Reach out, don't let it all fall on you.

There's always a person who is going thru the same thing as you are now that you can talk to. If you think that you have nobody else, you're absolutely wrong. Try and think of all those people you hurt just by saying that you have nobody else. They're insulted, cause they are there for you, and you're just being arrogant, wanting the attention from some stranger. What's the point? Life, you have to see what's in front of you. that may seem easier said than done, but it's true. People always, always take things for granted. But yeah, it's just the way it is. We just have to constantly remind ourselves that there are somebody out there who loves you. Who will care for you even if you hit rock bottom. Allah is always there, even if all human beings turned their backs on you. Remember that. #notetoself ehehe :)


Ahh. This song just brings back a whole load of memories I don't even want to remember. But it's okay, i'm much much more better now. Alhamdulillah :)


alhanasabrina

Mind

Your words, they made it thru. 

But they'll stay as long as i want it to

Maybe you just say things I wanna hear

But I really want you here

In another completely different topic, I feel like I shouldn't give in too much to sleep.

I remember during my high school, a teacher of mine, he taught me Modern Maths, I adored his geeky-ness. Lol. And in this one class, he pointed out that if we listen to a music that has the same wavelength as your brain while studying, it'll help you to digest better. So, you know what he did? He attached a speaker to his laptop and turned on this soft music while teaching us. Hahaha. True story. Oh funny moments.

And my current hobby is blog walking. I simply love it. Not only I get to read other people's stories (me being a busy body at its best) I get to absorb other people's way of writing and pickup some new words that I can use. Happy happy hobby :)

alhanasabrina

Just Another Rant

Your beauty is like, stunning. No, it's more than that. It's bedazzling, catching stares from everyone who looked. Short glances turned to infinities of longing. Thousands and thousands of eyes are glued to you, and your face is still. Like the liquid from the morning coffee, untouched and hot. No words can actually come close to describing your profound beauty, even perfect seems inadequate. Calling you beautiful seems underrated. Even the angels envy your radiance, and the fact that you made all heads turn, it's no surprise for me as you lift my heart up high beyond the skies every time you look at me with those God-made eyes. Your body language is alluring, attracting even the superior few to envy you, those who that I thought was beautiful, before I met you. Those with anger will immediately cease with it once they have a sight of you.

And the fact that you are only wearing a black abaya with niqab, speaking in the most humble way a person can be, makes you look ravishing than ever without even showing off.

Imagine, being able to love someone and think highly of that someone until you really can't describe the beauty of him/her, cause it's too blinding to be described.

And even with all those parts beyond perfection that Allah has made you, you still walk on this earth like you are the most grotesque creature ever, humiliated with yourself, thinking that you'll never be with those who have your promise. Promise of Heaven.

And what do you think I feel, having you as my own? To have and to hold, to love and to cherish. I promise, I'll bring you to Jannah. I'll guide you, and you'll guide me with your never ending perfect flaws and beauty. Together, insyaAllah.


Just another story: alhanasabrina

Breaking The Habit

Breaking a habit is one of the toughest thing to do, I think. Just imagine, you have been doing something for so long, and all of a sudden you are forced to change it. Cause it's bad for you. The same also goes to your sleeping and eating habits. How would you react to it? And no, you are not expected to change abruptly, but the change must exist. Some will say, 'I'll start tomorrow' and they never do. Some will say 'Oh I can do that' and still haven't change a bit. Some will say 'InsyaAllah, i'll get to it' (or in my case 'okay Ma' :p) and will start taking tiny teeny baby steps towards the change.

It's safe to say that I did change some of my habits, those un ladylike habits hahaha (Alhamdulillah) but you have to keep an eye in it, the old habit could be slowly creeping in yknow! Like the famous saying goes: Old habits die hard. Yeah, they certainly do. All it takes is some perseverance and istiqamah :)

and my current habit to change is: taking of my socks and just let it lay on my bedroom floor like two distorted snakes. My mum just hates it. Haha. It's been a while so I think it's time to actually get to it. But i dunno whether I am to succeed or not cause I'll be going back to UTP soon and its not like UTP have a 'downstairs' that I can leave my dirty socks at. I'll just be putting them somewhere safe. Like... on the floor. Hahahaha. Okay no.

It's hot like summer: alhanasabrina

p/s: I'm wondering... am I being too easy, or this is just how it works?

Ikan Emas, jangan diambil serius

Hinakah aku di mata engkau? Sampaikan kau sanggup pergi, meninggalkan ku, setelah kau robek kesemuanya milikku. Ya, kau pergi, meninggalkan aku dengan tiada kredit di telefon, tiada bunga di hatiku, tiada senyuman di bibirku. Engkau tahu bukan, aku tiada nyawa andai telefonku tiada isinya? Alangkah pahitnya hatimu, sepahit kopi kaw kaw yang engkau selalu minum. Padah minum setiap hari agaknya, perlaku kopi itu telah menjadi sebati dengan dirimu.

Kisah ini mungkin dibuat buat, malah mungkin ia benar. Di celah jari jari gemukku menaip perkataan demi perkataan bahasa melayu mudah ini, pasti tampil sedikit kebenaran walaupun ia mengarut.

Punggungku dilabuhkan ke atas kerusi, berdoa agar ia tidak rebah menyembah bumi. Perutku berkeroncong. Hatiku degil, masih belum mahu menerima kenyataan yang engkau telah pergi selamanya. Itulah mesej yang otakku berkali kali cuba sampaikan, tetapi hati ku ini tetap tidak mahu mendengar. Aku biarkan sahaja kedua dua mereka itu bertelagah kerana perutku menjerit meminta diisi.

Tanganku pantas menyelak buku terbaru hasil Fixi, aku mengeluh sebentar. Ah, terlampau tinggi bahasa melayu yg mereka guna. Aku melirik ke arah buku tersebut berkali kali namun tidakku faham maksud penulis penulis cerpen itu, terutamanya Ridhwan Saidi. Apa jenis anak melayu aku ni? Sedangkan maksud borjuis pun tidak ku tahu, jauh sekali menggunakannya dalam ucapan seharian. Terlampau biasa dengan drama drama fiksyen inggeris agaknya.

Detikan jam Swatch pemberianmu mengejutkan aku dari khayalku. Sudah dibuai mimpi aku rupanya. Mana tidak nya, tidurku setiap hari hanya maksima 4 jam sahaja. Itu pun jika tidak disuruh membuat kerja kerja remeh yang lain. Mujur aku dibayar extra time, kalau tak, ah, jangan harap aku nak jadi kuli kau.

Mataku meliar mencari rupa parasmu. Mana engkau menghilang? Dari sedih, bertukar risau, bertukar marah. Hanya mesej pemberianmu menjadi penemanku ketika ini. 'Sekejap tau'. Kepala hotak kau sekejap. 3 jam aku sudah menunggu. Malah telah habis satu buku aku baca, walau tidak ku faham seluruhnya. Boleh pergi dari Ipoh ke KL dah ni. Ok, mungkin aku sengaja menghiperbolakan pemergianmu pada awal penulisanku ini, tapi itulah wanita. Risau tak terkira, cemburu tak bertempat. Tapi aku bukan cemburu, aku hanya risau. Positif yang engkau takkan curang denganku bersama perempuan lain. Jika ya, engkau pasti tidak akan memilih aku dari awalnya, ya bukan?

Sudahlah. Lebih lama aku menulis, lebih banyak merepek aku salurkan kedalam otak pembaca. Maaf ya. Aku bosan, dan juga kemaruk kopi. Bukan air kopi itu ya, Kopi cerpen dari Fixi itu. Jaga kau Ridhwan Saidi, tulisan kau dah menular ke dalam otakku, tapi kau terlampau hebat untukku tewaskan. Minta tunjuk ajar, sifu.

Sekian: alhanasabrina

Good good

What a good day today, I think. Alhamdulillah. Despite having non stop headache since... err 4 pm?, I just had a good day today :)

My day started of with my tennis lesson at 11. And the low blood just won't shut down, so I had to play still altho my visions were black and white towards the end of the game. It's just very inconvenient. Shoot me.

I had these for the first time! And I thought it was a little bit too sweet, but overall I just loved it. But I am going to take a break from McD for a while. Uhmm, just because :)

Drove to somewhere for the first time, and it was fun. Had a wonderful rendezvous and lunch :) Altho idk why i was being a tad quiet all the way thru, I guess I'm just shy. Hahahahahaha. No. I'm tired, I guess.

Came home, argued sisterly w my sister, slept a little. Tried the new body wash and lip scrub that my bestfriend posted to me (love you! hihi) and felt all bubbly inside. *insert blissfull emoticon here* Read Room a little bit (wondering why i am taking so long to finish it) and just lied down on my bed, half awake. Turned on the aircond cause I wanted to (gosh I love airconds!) and rushed to send off ayah somewhere. Hang in my sister's room, laugh excitedly to the minions, they are just too cute and funny! Watched a little bit of Sungha, K-Pop and Glee.

And then here I am, in my room, colder than ever with the lullaby on. I love it. Cause sometimes my room tend to be hotter than the living room (I wonder why).

Bye! Im gonna finish Room tonight, by hook or by crook. Hihi I hope I got that right.

alhanasabrina

VAGUE

Feeling like writing something cheesy

Ask me questions, I'll answer
Not the correct answer, but I'll answer truthfully
It's the matter of do you get it, or not

Some things are better left unsaid,
Or said, while you were fast asleep
Cause those were the exact words that I wanted to say

I'm lucky
Lucky enough to ever feel this way -  again
But this time, it's with you
Couldn't say it, on how lucky I feel
I fear that it might hurt you
But if it's the truth, it'll come out someday
Just you wait

I cry in awe, on how other people write their blogs
I wanna be at par with em
And, a girl can only try :)

Current read: ROOM by Emma Donoghue

I'll keep the sweets for later; alhanasabrina ;)

Comparison

Cool Blog, Chatime and Gong Cha.

Just a simple post, tribute to my love for the pearls. Lol.

Coolblog? Used to be my addiction, cause it's the only ice blended drink that is available near to UTP that has pearls innit. I used to drink cup-bon from wangsa walk behind my house. I always have vanilla, cause it's my favourite.

But now I tried Chatime's Pearl Milk Tea and just recently Gong Cha's Milk Tea with Pearl. And I liked Chatime's pearl better cause it's bigger I think. But Gong Cha has this preference for your sugar and ice content which is good, I think? And Gong Cha's tea have this more herb taste innit. Or maybe the taste came up cause I asked for less sugar? Dunno.

Anyhoo, I think I'll stick to Chatime. Hehehehe. Except if im stuck in KLCC and im dying to have the pearl. Or the milk tea. Or else I just can go to mamak Pelita and order, 'ane, teh susu ais satu!' (altho I never liked it anyway) Lol you may say im a trend follower but it's actually nice, the drinks. Just don't drink so often cause i think it's a lil bit pricey for just iced milk tea. With pearls. Lol.

alhanasabrina

FIXI

Pheww. Just finished reading Pecah by Khairulnizam Bakeri. I took quite some time to finish this, cause usually I will take like 2 or 3 hours to finish one book. This one? Several days. Haha. Don't even ask why. I guess I got caught up with other things instead of reading cause I've been stuck w two of those before. It's called Cekik and Zombijaya. Also from Fixi.

Oh wait, do you now what Fixi is actually? Haaa. I'm a newb myself. I just learned about them when a friend of mine lend me his book, Cekik. So that's my first fixi book. (if you want to start reading Fixi, please don't start with that. When you read it you'll know why) After that i'm hooked. You can know more about Fixi by clicking here. It's a novel publisher, and I think anyone can hand in their masterpiece with certain rules. First, the title of the book must be only one word. And the number of words must be around 60,000. I really salute those who can write this malay novels. Totally. If you read some of the Fixi books, you'll be astonished on how the writer even thought about the plot or words that he/she wrote innit. (or maybe it's just me, cause im such a noob on powerful malay words. sigh)

Another reason why i'm hooked on this Fixi collections is Kopi. It's a book too, but it's actually compilations of short stories from random writers. One of em is Redza Minhat. Now you know why ;)

I went to UIA Gombak the other day to buy it cause it's sold out online. God know how happy I felt when I got my hands on that book. Ahhh. Bought Kelabu and Bisik too! There are others that I didn't buy like Tabu, Invasi, Jerat, Kougar, Kasino and Dendam cause I thought the titles are too negative. Lol. Truth is all of their books mostly gonna portray a slightly bad example to kids but in the end their message is clear. Ey, better some good than nothing right? Plus, their covers are awesome. Just look at Pecah. Wait till you see Jerat's or Zombijaya's cover. Oh Bisik's cover is the face of a cat. Cool ey?

Well this is the full list of Fixi books right now. There will be more to come, and i'll be more than glad to read all of em. OH ANOTHER IMPORTANT THING you should really know, it's cheapppppp :D Like, the usual english novel will cost you how much, 30? 40? Even one hunger games book costs Rm 42.90. Well this Fixi books, the price starts from RM 15! Cool right?

Hee. I'm getting excited talking and writing that I didn't look at the time. It's 3.26 am. Thank god tomorrow's a Sunday. But I have a wedding to attend to. Better get to bed.

Oh another thing, they're gonna make a movie out of Zombijaya and Pecah. Zombijaya will be called KL Zombie and it'll star Izara Aishah. I think they're filming it right now. Pecah, i guess the movie would be awesome if they did it right. The plot's just amahh-zinggg. Haha.

alhanasabrina

Risk

Everything you do in life is a risk. Like entering a new school. Picking a course that you don't actually know anything about. Moving to a new town. Meeting new people. Saying things about yourself in your interview. Making jokes. Sitting for an exam. Buying clothes. Trying a new flavour from your usual bubble tea shop. Entering a competition eventho you know that you are already good enough innit. Even that, it's a risk. Trying bungee jumping. Eating a new type of food. Going someplace new. And falling in love.

You may say you're scared to do them. What if you fail? What if you chicken out the last minute? What if people laugh at you? What if it's temporary? What if you don't like it? What if you can't fit in? What if you don't look good innit? What if he's not the one for me? All of these nerve wrecking questions (and more) starts to enter your mind once you start to take a risk. And those thoughts lead you to uncertainty and second thoughts. Which is, at certain times, badddddddd.

The part were people missed out are the thoughts that are actually positive. People nowadays spend so much time worrying about things that they don't notice the positive thoughts that flooded their mind at the same time the negative does. What if you succeed? What if you act brave? What if people support you? What if it's there to stay? What if you love it? What if the people likes you? What if you look your best innit? What if he's the one for you? 

And all of those questions (and more) won't be answered if you don't take risks. Even the tiniest things, like trying a new cookie. Or wearing a green pants. It's new, it's weird to you, but what if you might actually like it? What if it brings more good than bad? Then you could go on in life regret-free and be happy with it. And OF COURSE, this only applies to things that are not against your religion, your belief, or your parents' orders. And for those who are married, you husbands' orders too. Haha. Try stuffs, but there are limits to it, of course.

I'm saying this to all of you to comfort myself actually. Cause I am scared. And right now I need to focus more on my positive thoughts more, but still, considering my negative ones. Fear is not a bad thing, it's just your nervous system looking out for you :)

Just read Arre's blog right here, and decided that I wanna share my current lullaby too! Hihi. Here it is :)

alhanasabrina

p.s: Oooouh talking about RISK, i wanna play the board game. anyone wanna teach me? Hihi

Shortcut

Strictly my opinion, if you wish to not like it, then we shall agree to disagree.

I think two people must go thru a long journey before they can become truly friends. It's like typical life, we were born, grow old and die. But then this is not a story until death. I can say that it's more like a story until you have become what you want to be in life. Whatever it is. This is a story much more like that. Before being someone you always wanted to be, of course you have obstacles to overcome. Sometimes you'll be raised up so high that you forgot that the ground even existed. Next thing you know, you're back on the ground. Maybe you'll die. Or maybe, a friend comes along and helps you to remember your feet. And the list goes on and on and on.

The same thing goes with two friends. They will face a lot of stages until they can settle between each other to reach that friendship level. Some just get there so easily. Then only the hardships will come. Some will face a wall of anger, jealousy, envy, or even love before they could come to that stage. Some might even not continue once they've reached certain states. Oh well. That's just sad.

For example. You two got on with a very rough patch. Either you two just hate each other or really, there's this devil between you guys. Both of you try as hard as you can to make amends but the feeling won't just go away. Well if it does, it'll be awkward so you guys think it's better to stay that way. you are not in each other's circle of friends anyway. So there's that. You're not friends nor you are enemies.

And there's this two. Clicked since day one. Did everything together. Felt glad cause you have each other because everybodyelse's just adapting but you already have a close friend. Later on, you found a flaw in him/her. Both of you quarreled about it. (Most common in my kiddy sense is the other person has another close friend) Pfft. Then, you guys realised that it's silly to have only one friend and make peace w each other. And you friendship grew closer than ever.

Or maybe this. Seldom talked. Just that one time cause you have something in common, maybe you're in the same house as him/her. Later on you realise that she/he actually exists and has soo many things in common. Or you prolly don't have that much but the chemistry is flaring. You can talk about whatever and whenever without the fear that feelings will jump into it. You call each other names and still hug each other when you're leaving. 

And there's also the typical one. Starts of w a stranger. Than an acquaintance. Later on became friends. Next, you guys are bestfriends. Then the guy confesses his love to the girl. (or vice versa, you know how men these days could be, they are extremely shy :p or girls are becoming extremely brave. Lol) They became a couple. Not more than a year, they couldn't work it out so they broke up. And that's the end.

This one. It's just the same as the above, but the diff is, after they broke up, they remain as bestfriends. And sometimes the topic came up where both of you tried to date each other. You laugh. Aww. No hard feelings ey.

And final one I think, it's like the above but they end up together, got married and have plenty of wonderful and healthy babies <3


Many to pick from ey? Just a thought that crossed my mind because I know I am experiencing one of these few (im sure there are others, im just too sleepy to think of it right now. I MUST write this down cause i know i'll forget it tmrw. Haha) and i'm trying to pick the best ending for it. all in all, we are all trying to search for the best ending. In everything. Im not sure which ending is the best, I wanna pick the last one where they get married and all but we are talking bout the journey of two strangers until they become FRIENDS right? Sooooooo it's becoming all messed up already. Haha. Hope you get my point, dear readers.

Just remember, above all, there is Allah :) So seek for his help whenever there's doubt, or fear, or uncertainty or uneasiness. (and the list goes on and on and on and onnnnn...)


alhanasabrina is super tired. *yawns

p/s: I have two new books to read, yay! Still didn't get a copy of Kopi :( Sobs.

For The Sake Of

Random things I notice/wonder/feel today

The surau at the LRT stations are super convenient. And comfy, too! Just that it lacks the ablution place.

Other people stare at other people too, I thought it's just me who likes to stare. Hahahaha perasan much

IPhone battery does last longer than BB's. Proved just now! Wanna bet? Hahaha

What happens to the F1 place when it's not in use?

I wish to go and watch F1 at other countries alteast once! It'll be awesome cause in Singapore the race in at night.

Who's going to Sepang this weekend ? Raise your hand up like this o/

Well long story short went for the volunteer thingy, they sent us to kota warisan god knows where's that and stuck in a kontena beside an unfinished shop lot w no toilet or surau or food. How do you think I feel?

Just psyched for the F1 this Sunday. Alhamdulillah for the tickets. THANK YOU!

I'm speechless actually. And I suck at drawing. Bye.

alhanasabrina

Superstar

It's hard, to be able to love someone with all your might but not being able to tell them what's craving to get out. Cause really, she's lost for words. But that's not love. Love won't do such things. If she really love, the words would come out like blood running thru her veins. She's afraid to ruin it. And he's waiting for her to take a chance. She's broken her promise once, and he's dying to see what's her reaction towards it. But the truth is, she had ruined it. Ruined. With an ed. And she has absolutely no idea on how to fix it. Stumbling upon lost messages, hidden pictures and she found her greatest treasure. Memories. And a portrait with both of them together. She never knew it existed. Well, she did. And now, it'll never leave her sight. Lost in her own world, she crouches in the light, seeking for help. But he won't help her. He wants to, but he wants her to be independent. And once she has that, he wants her for his own. Only for him. And secretly she wants that too, but she's afraid. Afraid that after she gave away all of her to him, he'll flee, like the others. But how could one take her seriously if she's not willing to give it back in return? She has to think. Fast. Before he fades away like he starts to be. She tried, but clearly words ain't enuff. But he's so far away, and she's outta gas. Help, where's the nearest gas station? She search for money. She yearns for guidance. She raised up both of her hands and ask for His help.

And then, she fell asleep with a smile. Wishing that her fight will end soon, she lied to herself thinking that everything will be okay tomorrow.

Something that I think suits the moment. Good song tho ;)

Just another love story: alhanasabrina

Chivalry

I just wanted to say, be thankful for our family. Be thankful of our parents. Some doesn't even have one to begin with. And you want to argue/fight with the ones you have? Come on. Look at them and smile. You'll get pahala by just looking at your parents' faces yknow :)

Be thankful cause Allah made us perfect and functioning with one pair of seeing eyes, one working nose, a talking mouth, two strong hands, a healthy body and two walking feet. Some were born perfect, then later, Allah gives them hardship with reasons by taking some of it away. Remember, Allah won't give hardships that we can't overcome. For those who still have all of em, be thankful as Allah can take it all away just like that. Instead of looking at someones skinny leg of body and say 'I wanna be skinny like her!', let's remember those who has none and say Alhamdulillah. My mum always always say that. I admit, I always want those skinny legs and all, but my mum really does have a point. Lets.

#notetoself

And, I found my word. It's right up there at the title ;)

alhanasabrina

BV

Today I went to Bangsar Village for the first time. I wan Chatime.

Saw Fathi's workplace, the old and new. Kinda funny cause it's soooo close to each other. Haha. I wan Chatimee.

Had breakfast at The Loaf, you can see pictures if you have my Instagram ehehe. I wan Chatimeee.

Wanted to go to Delicious but sadly just walked passed it cause I'm watching my weight now :( I wan Chatimeeee.

Wore the awesome new top I bought from H&M and it's so cheap compared to the other similar tops here im Malaysia. I wan Chatimeeeeee.

Made crepes, but it didn't look like the one at Hot and Roll, but sokay cause I had it w Nutella and Hot and Roll no got crepes w Nutella yeh! I wan Chatimeeeeee.

And lastly, passed by Chatime but didn't buy :( I WAN CHATIME!

Here goes, a photo of me. Vain much, sorry. Ehehe :p

and i still haven't found the word that im looking for. It maybe starts w a P. It's meaning is somewhat like a noble man, a gentleman. It has a quote containing the word, but I forgot it. Aaaaa. Help ?

alhanasabrina wants Chatime

Trois

Let me tell you three things about two diff subjects

1) Movies (yep, we're back to that topic, haha)

Remember that kid from Charlie and the Chocolate Factory ? Well, he's all grown up now. And he's even cuter. Watched this already, and yeah it's a romantic movie, so expect no drama at all. Or maybe a little. Haha. Also starring Emma Roberts. And watching this, Im starting to wonder is there such a person like him? Weird, but very smart indeed. I like his dimple.

Who does not love the charming Ryan Gosling ? Im only halfway thru this one, so can't say much but it's def a love movie (my type of movie hihi). Also Starring Michelle Williams. (I love her current hair btw)

*Okay I just finished watching it. Just editing this post a lil bit. Super sad ending :'( I just wished that it could be different, and hope that it doesn't happen to me. Nauzubillah.*

It's everything you look for in a movie, thus deserving it's Oscar on Best Motion Picture. (claps) Shows the growth of the movies starting from the silent movie until what we see in cinemas today. I think it's a great reminder to the people nowadays about the origination of the film industry. And it's heartbreakingly beautiful at the same time. And a surprise at the end ;)

2) Weddings (love mode: ON :p)

I went to three weddings today. And all three of them had different colours, settings, food, and also gifts.

Colours - First one was red, (my mum was furious cause she wore the same colour, i thought it was a tad decent as you get to fit it just like i did at K.Yu's wedding hehe), 2nd one's my favourite, baby blue and pink ! Hihi. Altho the deco looks a bit kiddy, but the dais looks so pretty. The lights, the chairs, the flowers and all. Not to mention the bride and groom themselves. Awww. The 3rd one, it's grey. I didn't manage to look at the bride and groom, what more the dais, but the wedding is huge. They had like 7 canopies up for the event. I can't imagine why not, it's the first daughter who's getting married !

Settings - The first one, they did it in an open space, so there's ample of place for the guests to sit. But parking's always been a problem, for any event. Unless you do it in a hall or a hotel.  The 2nd one, they did it at their house, but they were smart to use up the space beside their house. What they did was they have a gate at the side of their house, and they open it up to make some extra space, taking up the side alley. Nice move. That way they don't have to put up the canopies up front. The third, it's actually my neighbour, so they took up all the space, but there's actually quite a lot since their house is a corner lot but yep, the parking problem again. Some even parked in front of our house. They did it at night so i guess it's okay to park in front of somebody's house. They all have one thing in common, the chair deco. Every single one of them had a piece of cloth tied to the chairs, according to the theme. I say, is that the only way to deco a chair during a wedding ? Hmm

Food - Two out of three served Nasi Hujan Panas - my favourite ! Hehe. Two out of three also served oranges. But the third's food was incredibly goooooood. The other two was okay :)

Gifts - Of course they will be different ! Haha. God knows what people nowadays have in mind. The first one gave sweets, cupcake and a porcelain cup. The second one gave a glass container filled with this sweet crunchy thing, i dunno what's it called, but it's good. Hehe. The third gave a cute trinket - as my mum said it. Go google it. And the sad part is, nobody actually give away eggs anymore. Sobs.

alhanasabrina

E=mc^2

I'm currently watching E=mc2 - Einstein And The Worlds Most Famous Equation. It's a one hour and 42 mins movie, and I'm currently in the 50th minute of it. Not that it's boring or anything, I just paused to get something to eat. Just recommending it to those who wants to know the real story behind this equation that Mariah Carey used in one of her albums or some of you had learned it just for the sake of exams.

You can search it at youtube, its divided into several parts. Or maybe you can download it. But i dunno where, cause I myself forgot where did I get this movie anyway. Haha.

alhanasabrina

Better

I guess I'm unstable
Cause you made me vulnerable
This love wasn't made to be bearable
So help me escape this viral

I won't lie
Being with you made me try
To be the best the I can be
But can't you see, I'm unhappy

Why does love makes me feel like this
When actually it's a bliss
Falling fast, like gravity
But now only the ground can save me

Months passed, I found better
Alhamdulillah it gets better
Not perfect if I may say
But he keeps me smiling till this very day :)

1259 pm

#random much; alhanasabrina

Skins

Name one day that i don't disappoint other people except for myself, cause i do it all the time. But its all gonna change now cause i can't live with the guilt. Because everyday there's always something that''ll keep me up at night, thinking is there anything i could do to replace it, or to go back in time to change it, but i can't. And that's the consequences that i have to live with for the rest of my life.

Yes people make amends, and they are forgiven, but the act of forgiveness already resembles that you made a mistake once and that's not gonna be gone for a while. It stays with you until you are able to forgive yourself for doing it, even if you have the brightest excuse.

And here's three versions of the same song. Enjoy.

This is the girls version

The Angus Thongs and Perfect Snogging's version

And the old school version.

Enjoy ! 

alhanasabrina xx

p/s: #stopkony

Hi

This is for you.

I think I love you better now.

Bye.

p/s: I'm sorry

Once In Four Years

So I shall make it special :)

Lemme ask you something. Who's your Serena if you are Blair ? Who's your Bonnie if you are Elena ? Who's your Ron if you are Harry ? Who's your Tuck if you are FDR ? Who's your Morgan if you are Chuck ?

You do get my point, do you ? Heh. Well, my answer is, this girl.

Words can't even come close to describing how much I treasure this girl, but I shall try. Hihi.

She is the one who has been putting up my crazy annoying nonsense behavior since... err wait. Let me recall. Haha. 2006 I think. Of course, we met way before then, in 2005 when we went to school together in TKC, but we only start to really get close when we were in form 2. Nope, we were not classmates. Well, we did have other friends, yeah, we weren't just living our own world back then. And as usual, friends fight. We had our ups and downs, and yeah, some of them are stupid, but that's the reason we're closer now more than ever. And plus, we get to laugh it off sometimes, remembering the stupid things that we do, or when we come across our old pictures when we were in high school.

(not to embarrass you or something, but trust me, there are waay more embarrassing pictures of you but then we were free hair soooo, cant show it here :p but you were cute in these pictures hehehe)

But now, everything's changed. We grew older. We grew apart because of the lack-ness of each others company. We made new friends, we go to different universities. But still, we stay as best friends. Honestly, I never thought we could last this long. (you said that too, remember) but somehow we did. And that's something priceless, not even money could buy. I should have written this post about you earlier, but I was just too busy paying attention to other stuffs that I wasn't supposed to (and we fought because of that) and I'm sorry.

Although now we rarely meet, but we always find time for each other. And as you say, no matter where we are in our lives, we will always find time for each other <3

And, (ain't that obvious now) this post is dedicated especially for you, Nur Amalina Izyan Ibrahim. Thanks for existing in my life. InsyaAllah I'll always be here for you and I'll always be praying for your happiness. May our friendship last (forever) insyaAllah.

And you are absolutely the greatest. (The Greatest - Michelle Williams) ;) And also remember, when you're out there, Im sure you'll shine brighter than anyone else does (Brighter - Paramore)

I love you xx

alhanasabrina

p/s: want another post ? wait another four years :p (you know im kidding)

Deffo

Sitting here, listening to the same songs, doing the same things, makes me think of you. Not that you never crossed my mind, (well, you're innit most of the time) but this makes it clearer.

2 years ey ? We really could have it all. Im sorry, i'll make it up to you one day. I'll explain everything to you one day.

Who would ever thought that after two years, im exactly where I was before, but with more of myself.

Feeling psyched for today.

alhanasabrina

Celebration Of Love

Congratulations K. Yu and Hanan :)

I love weddings. Because it's a celebration of love, made halal in Allah's eyes. And plus, everyone looks so happy :)

The utmost fun thing about this wedding is that, they have a candy table :D 

And these are my lovelies, part of Transcenders that came. Miss them sooo much <3


When's my time ? :p
alhanasabrina

Why thank you, Barney.

Apart from being the tenth out of twelve people in the first mission, (i realise that i am noob, playing amongst the noob) I really did enjoy myself. The greatest acheivement was that my accuracy is 30 percent in my last mission. (you may think it's low but believe me, it's surprisingly high for noobs, or normal people)

And all that thanks to Barney Stinson. And please, don't underestimate the 10 minutes allocated for each of the game. Because by the end of the first mission all of us were already out of breath. (talk about low stamina ey). We even have our own version of Barney Stinson playing w us just now. That's Ian. He always shows up in shirts and slacks. Not nearly suited up like Barney. Haha.

And as usual, a game of bowling. I can't say much, but every single time, my aim is to get atleast one strike, and reach 100 for the marks. Well, i only got 99 just now. And a strike. Lol. Towards the end of the game i lost all of my energy from recovering from the laser tag tiredness and laughing too much. I had fun. Esp in criticizing this friend of mine, if i may say it in Malay, 'padan muka tak ada strike'. That's your payment for being mean to me. (well he's mean to everybody except for his girlfriend).

All in all, i would love to do this again. Prolly w diff people, but i would love it as much if i did it with you guys. Just... Not in the near future okay ? I know most of us are sick and tired of Mid Valley so we shall try another place next time. Haha. And yes, our wallets also need time to recover.

Bought two books today ! Thank you, Prime Minister :)

alhanasabrina

Speech vs Essay

I've had this thought just now. And I just want to write it down.

What's with words ? Yes. As we all know words are the only form of expression that people use everyday. Even the mute and deaf, they still write using words. Even the blind, they can still talk using words.

But what's the difference between an essay and a speech ?

An essay, is the writing from of words. It's sometimes limited to the subjected matter or sometimes boundless as you can write about almost anything you want. And it does not necessarily have to be true, that's why we have two types of writing. Fiction, and non-fiction. Fiction, is make up stories, it is not true. While non-fiction is vice versa. Most people communicate with this. We have Twitter, Facebook, iMessage, BBM, Whatsapp and even the usual text messaging to help us with that. Some may choose this as a main form of communication, cause it... free ? easy ? You name it. Yes, it is easy. Very easy. But it's also controversial. People may not know the real tone that you are using or the real message that you want to convey. And these things leave proof, so it's easy for them stalkers to feast their eyes and collect things to judge you or just make up a file of you. But it is also important, as proofs can lead to justice, in some cases.

But that's not what i was going to talk about today. I was going for more of the speech part, actually.

Okay. Speech. It's the exact form of an essay, but instead of writing it down, you have to say it out loud. It doesn't need a script, but sometime it does, it you're an actor, or a TV reporter. That's more on the formal speech. The informal part is our everyday life dialogue. Your simple conversations. When you wake up, during breakfast, in school, during break time, and so on and so forth. They may not leave proof, or anything readable for anyone else to snoop, but it delivers a more powerful message to the minds and to the hearts of the audience you are talking to. You may say, these speeches will be forgotten one day, I agree. Yes, it is super easy to forget what one did say to you. But if it's an important part of your life, and the person saying it is the utmost important person in your life, will you ever forget it ? I don't think so. What's different about speeches is that, you can't take it back. Not ever. Once you let it out. It's out. It's done. Unlike your Twitter or Facebook status, you can easily delete some of them if you dislike it (which i have done for oh so many times) but with speeches, you can't. Kids, maybe they will be forgiven. Oh no wait, not maybe. They WILL be forgiven. But not us. We are not considered teens anymore. We're adults now. (I'm referring to the 1992 clan cause that's when I was born). So let's behave like one, shall we ? (I'm trying my best to kick the kiddy part of me away but it's so hard haha nevermind, i'll just suppress it for now)

So what I really want to say after writing down this long post, (you should really skipped the upper part and jump right down here just to not waste your time lol) choose your words that you want to say wisely. Each of them. Because I know I may not be the person with the most decent mouth (anger does us a lot of bad things) so remember to istighfar every time you are angry. If it gets worse, go take your wudhuk. But that doesnt make it right to go and curse people in the form of writing. I just thought that by speech it's easier for people to get hurt rather than by essay. It's just an opinion.

“Anger comes from the devil, the devil was created of fire, and fire is extinguished only with water; so when one of you becomes angry, he should perform ablution.” [Abu Daud; Book 41, No. 4766]

Let us pray to become better Muslims. InsyaAllah.

Abu Dharr narrated: The Apostle of Allah, sallallahu ‘alayhi wasallam, said to us: "When one of you becomes angry while standing, he should sit down. If the anger leaves him, well and good; otherwise he should lie down." [Abu Daud; Book 41, No. 4764]

Im just writing down how I feel about this, so feel free to drop any comments you have okay ? And yes, I would like to say sorry, because of what I might have said or write done that any of you might have your hearts hurt by it.


alhanasabrina

After Some Away Time

Hello I'm back ! Well, not really back but here I am, blogging again. Heh. Won't ramble much, but I just want to say I am so very very thankful of what I have, and who I am today. Everything, including being the owner of this blog. Because remember, not everyone have the opportunities that we have and we should be very grateful for that. Syukur.

Well on top of it all, I'm thankful that I am a Muslim, alhamdulillah.

Lots of money were spent, but plenty of hearts were satisfied too. But I dare say that other people shop more than I do. Haha.

One very important thing, I have not been controlling my food intake for the last 2 weeks, so I have to go back to my diet. Haha. And that starts, well I think about Wednesday. Heh. Cause yknow, jet lag and all that. Pictures ? Well I don't have it here so maybe I shall post some of them later.

Shall continue on my food, so talk to you people later ! I miss Malaysia, but I'm pretty sure I'm gonna miss London too. Bye :)

Assalamualaikum ;)

Long post. Hoho. It's gonna be legend...

WAIT FOR IT.

Okay people. Long break. Haha. Whadduuuuppp ? Come on update me ! Lol. Okay as for me, if you ppl followed my twitter, you should know that I lost a fight w my blood earlier today. So sad. Because of it i had to stop my jog 5 mins earlier because I am really this (picture me doing the pinching sign) close to fainting ! Haha. So here's some lesson on what is low blood pressure all about

It's call hypotension actually.

Chronic low blood pressure with no symptoms is almost never serious. But health problems can occur when blood pressure drops suddenly, and the brain is deprived of an adequate blood supply. This can lead to dizziness or lightheadedness. Sudden drops in blood pressure most commonly occur in someone who's rising from a prone or sitting position to standing. This kind of low blood pressure is known as postural hypotension, orthostatic hypotension, or neurally mediated orthostatic hypotension.

Postural hypotension is considered a failure of the autonomic nervous system -- the part of the nervous system that controls involuntary vital actions, such as the heartbeat -- to react appropriately to sudden changes. Normally, when you stand up, some blood pools in your lower extremities. Uncorrected, this would cause your blood pressure to fall. But your body normally compensates by sending messages to your heart to beat faster and to your blood vessels to constrict. This offsets the drop in blood pressure. If this does not happen, or happens too slowly, postural hypotension results.

Okay, I wont write all of it here. If you wanna know more, you can read it HERE or HERE. Just that I know of, after reading some articles, my low blood pressure ain't that serious. But then, it's there. And it's most frequent when m doing sports, something that needs high blood pumping. My blood's not that tough sooo it happens. Lol. Not to worry. But then it does say that it increases w age. Gaaah. Need to chill out w my sports then. Sadd.
 
Oh, as i'm writing this, i'm listening to Ed Sheeran's Lego House. Truly calming, I shall say. And when I first listened to this, I knew immediately that he's British. Lol. You should go and listen to his whole album entitled + (plus). It's just great. Check him out at this website. There's his new official video, Drunk starring him and a talking cat. Cute ! :B

Okay. Bored yet ? Lol. This is the last paragraph I promise. Few weeks ago, my sister posted this video on my fb profile. It's an eye opener, truly. But then , my friend here, Aina Alias (Ged), posted this link on her twitter page, and it's beyond perfect. I'll show you. Enjoy.

...DARY ! Told ya it'll be worth it ;) Till then, take care. Assalamualaikum.

alhanasabrina