Long Enough

I came to realise one thing tonight.

As much as you hate it, this world is a big freaking huge cycle. Tonnes of people live and die every day, thousands repeat the same routine for days and weeks and sometimes the repetition duration can extend to years long. No matter how far you go, how low you fall, you'll always eventually arrive right back where you started. Maybe not in the same way you were, but still, you're there, again. 

This means that in life, you should know who you really are and what you stand with. Stick to it, because it will determine where you end up at the end.

And I, just arrived back to where i started.

alhana xx

3rd point. Remember? (from the last 2 posts, lol)

It's about the guilt trip actually. Just, be thankful that you actually have guilt trips. Cause if it were to mean anything, it would mean that you actually have a heart. And that heart of yours, comes with feeling in it. And that's good. In a way, those guilt trips can also mean that you still have some imaan in you. So have faith, don't ever let go. Don't lose faith in yourself. More importantly, do not lose faith in Allah, for He is closer than you think ;) As sister Yasmin Mogahed said,

And mashaAllah, how true is that? But of course, we don't want to wait until our heart is dead then only we revert back to Allah right?

And that is my short 3rd point! Hihi sorry it took so long. Been occupied with something last week so i haven't be able to visit here or even tumblr. and oh, next week back to utp. This saturday I mean. Well, ready or not. Bismillah, 3rd year here I come :)

I'm a big girl already (wow); alhanasabrina

You have to watch Dakota Skye

"Predictable doesn’t always mean boring.
Lust doesn’t always mean love.
Near doesn’t always mean close.
New doesn’t always mean exciting.
Different doesn’t always mean better.
Far doesn’t always mean distant.
Knowing everything doesn’t make you wise.
Knowing the truth doesn’t make you superior.
Knowing your problem doesn’t solve it.
Sitting between your past and your future doesn’t mean you’re in the present"

Something about this movie just gets me. Either that or I'm just loving it cause it's another love movie that I picked out from Tumblr.

And it has the famous love quote which isn't the one I posted here. Well I guess you have to watch it for yourself to know it right? 

Watch it, and tell me about it okay?

alhanasabrina xx

Natch

 The whole passage starting from " to " is copied from here, leloveimage :).


"Your E.E. Cummings for the day:

it may not always be so; and i say
that if your lips,which i have loved,should touch
another's,and your dear strong fingers clutch
his heart,as mine in time not far away;
if on another's face your sweet hair lay
in such a silence as i know,or such
great writhing words as,uttering overmuch,
stand helplessly before the spirit at bay;

if this should be,i say if this should be-
you of my heart, send me a little word;
that i may go unto him, and take his hands,
saying, Accept all happiness from me.
Then shall i turn my face, and hear one bird
sing terribly afar in the lost lands.

I guess sometimes the thing you want most is the one thing you cannot have. Know that I have never been kidding when I said I would (and in some ways I have) sacrifice anything - everything - for you, because you and me and us and we, and our always, mean that much to me. Desire, I guess, wears us out, leaves us broken. Desire, I guess, can wreck a life. But you know, as tough as wanting something can be, I think the people who suffer the most, are those who don’t know what they want or worse don’t do what is necessary to get what they want. In the best possible way, you have absolutely wrecked me, because you see, I fell in love with you, always with a feeling, deep down, that there was very little chance of my ever being with you for that always. Definition of insanity, I guess, but holding true the adage that to love and win is the best thing; to love and lose, the next best – because at least I loved you with a love unsurpassed and never to be duplicated, completely and totally and unconditionally and without limits and with a depth that not even poets have been able to capture or even describe.

I wish you happiness. I wish you joy. I wish you grace. I hope that your life leaves you filled to overflowing with all that you had hoped - surpassing your every expectation. There is a wonderful benediction that goes something like “my wish for you: Comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, sunsets to warm your heart, hugs when spirits sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendships to brighten your being, a hearth constantly warmed by family and friends, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth, Love to complete your life.” I do wish all those things for you.

I will miss telling you what you mean to me, which is nothing less than what you mean to the world. I will miss finding new and wonderful ways to express my every feeling, which are numerous and deep and consuming. I will miss telling you how beautiful and amazing and intelligent and bright and gorgeous and lovely and sensual you are. I will miss describing the wonderment that is every one of your special places – and experiencing each of them inch by inch, touch by touch, kiss by kiss, for a lifetime.

You will always find ways to my heart, but I pray that one day the taste of your name, which sounds of beauty and sunshine and smiles and bliss and the warmth of a blessed day, will sound so, though I am not hopeful. Know that any time I need to see your face I will just close my eyes – you will always be there.

And no matter what, I will always love you. And while I will always hope, and pray and wish for the day when you come to me and say “I am yours, all yours, for always,” I will also just pray for a day when I won’t need you so badly every minute of every day and every second in between. You are a love, beyond love, and you will always have my whole entire heart."


Beautiful isn't it? Oh how I long to write like this. Someday.

alhanasabrina