Life Is No Easy Mess

University life, less drama then high school ? Totally :)

With finals just 4 weeks away, my stomach starts to churn, and fats are more likely to burn as i am on a healthy, no-sugar diet ! hahaha bet on how long i would last on this one ;)

more and more plans were cancelled as classes and books are becoming more priority then fun, and the distance is increasing. that is good. alteast i think it is. but then we still managed to have our own tronoh style of fun. going round and round searcing for food, or just simply hanging out in front of the grand Chancellor Hall, playing taiti - secretly ! - or plucking the guitars. just yesterday Sarah and i were talking about sticking with each other for 5 years and how it will bother us. haha, boyfriend-searching period ? it starts now, but it will be easy for her ;) LOL kidding yaww. there doesn't seem much pressure in this sem, not until i got a bad 40 for my programming test. grrrrrrr. i really have to work hard. subjects seemed easy, but not at all actually. thank god the petty petty stuffs is all done, leaving us with only the presentation.

narnia's coming out this weekend ! i had the chance to watch it early, yeah idk how, but i decided not to. cause it will spoil all the fun. i guess maybe being the early bird to watch or discover somthing would be nice, but nahh. i'll pass. i want to watch it in 3D anyways :D

what more ? nothing much is happening in my life. just that human contact othr than UTP ians are much need right now. plus, the undergrads are on a holiday right now, leaving us the foundation kids alone here. this campus seems so lonely ! and freakishly quiet and solemn. haha. as usual, im in the programming lab, too lazy to update my blog in my room, and m currently pissed with the term 'WE'LL BE BACK SHORTLY -.-' dang you know what i mean. hahah.

gotta gooo , toodles

p/s: m missing everyone in KL

MAXIME

the boy who murdered love by diana vickers

Birthday, and after

oh yes, i would like to thank all of my friends that wished my on my birthday. much love ♥ ! and THANK YOUUU :D

i'm finally 18 now. yeah most of the people will say, LEGAL age right ? to watch those 18 rated movies, but yeah, being 18 had really made a difference. i think. i got 18 pink roses from my parents ((: thank you maa and ayah ! ♥ and and also some other presents from friends. no need to list them all here. you know who you are righttt ? heh. thank god my birthday was on a Sunday. i get to use my Free Calls efficiently ;) hahahaha i loike ! and also the cakes, strawberry and Chocolate Indulgence. andddd the celebration, eggs huh? i still smell em till today, haha. but at the end of the day, i can't be more grateful to anybody else beside Allah, who made me breathe till this very day(: Thank You.

ohkay enuff bout the birthday stories. back to Life stories. hahaha. yesterday, something very funny indeed happened. it was something about rushing to watch Rapunzel, but ended up being let down because all of the counters were closed ! so WE walked in the cinema area and in our own pace enter the first cinema. it was Unstoppable viewing. then we enter the 2nd cinema, it was Skyline, i think. haha. but we, without any feeling just continue to enter cinemas 3 and 4, which both were viewng HP7. so we decided on which movie we want to watch. it was really funny cause we could easily be detected because there are so many cctv cameras there ! luckily we did not get caught, hahaha. then we returned back to cinema 1 and watched Unstoppable. Its the last 30 minutes of the movie at that time, and we're sitting at the 2nd seat from infront. Funny, but its a new experience. HAHAHA

aaahhhh im in the middle of Programming Lab right now. cya !

higher by taio cruz feat travie mccoy

This Holiday,

It made me feel alive a little bit more. not that im saying that i feel dead when im away, but home is certainly where the heart is. your family is your home. no matter when, or where you are. they are the number one priority ♥

AND THIS IS NO LEISURE 2 WEEKS HOLIDAY ! haha but i did make it look fun. well, going out with friends. special rendezvous. checking out uniqlo and some other fun stuffs. played with others dslr, (when oh when will i get mine? hehe) shopping like craaaazy in Bandung and feeling the suspense of my special day. hahaha i won't mention it.

made some new friends, oh actually its old friends, but made closer :) made my night worth it. but every night is worth it. and also my daylight, when it is served with some specific purpose hahaha

watched several movies :DD takers megamind life as we know it hehe but unstoppable tron harry potter and the deathly hallows are waiting next on the must see list. Uuuuu can't wait ! :D

going back to Pahang tomorrow, its Eid-ul Ahda again :D I loikeeee. haha. so, Happy Eid-ul Adha everyone ! :D

oh yes. projects and reports are waiting to be finished. got to go !

ps thank youuuuu :))

my first summon is RM 20; maxime

just like a pill by pink

UNIQLO

absolutely unique :D

can i have one fleece jacket please ? pretty please :D

okayyyyyyyy. im having a sleep over with Sarah here :)

bye bye,

show me what im looking for for by carolina liar

One Kid Can Make A Difference

MEET FIKRI :)

Guy: Besar nanti nak jd apa dik ?
Fikri: Askar
Guy: Kenapa nak jadi askar ?
Fikri: Sebab nak tolong Palestin.

(:

just a line to ponder, are we that determine to fight for what is right ? this kid does.

Kids of Rumah Anak Yatin Darul Ehsan, each and everyone of you have the destiny to grow up well, and be succesful. you just have to be strong, and have that determination. today is a Kenangan Terindah for me for sure, how bout you ? (:

psst: this kid asked me for my number ! HAHA excited jap :P

don't compel me to do things i dislike; MAXIME

grenade by bruno mars

After A While ,

Nevermind, we'll stay in touch right ? (:

Shaun the sheep is killing me, damn funny, haha.

My rockstar; maxime

Don't Worry, I Miss You Too

Thinking Skills Test

Hurry up and read, Alhana. and Farah is sleeping next to you. guess you have to survive on your own. no espresso shots, no nescafe. hehe.

Tumblr, don't fail me now.

with love, maxime

fever by adam lambert

TripleTen

nope, nothing special happened today. no sweet confessions, asking me to become his girlfriend, not that i hope for it, just an inside joke with me and my friends, at 10:10:10 on 10/10/10, we will like break up with the current boyf, or just somebody decent enuff to wake up that early to confess his love to me or my friend. and at 10:10 pm, if breaking up was at 10:10 am, then finding new love will be at night. ha-ha impossible. but, yes im sure there's plenty other love stories out there that took place today, like the marriage of Dr Sheikh Muzaphar with Dr Elina, just not here. not now. haha. and yes, or wishes of happy 101010, well i did get some. thru fb hahahaha.

well utp is busy with convo fair right now, its happening this weekend. do come if you may(: utp now is so colourful, i loikeeee :D

and the day ended with me, stuck in the bonet, while the driver is enjoying himself playing with roundabouts and halting every second that he can, but yeah. i do enjoy it, although its like freaking hot in the bonet. hahahaha. nevermind that.

surprises ? they come every week. wait for it.

maxime

need you by travie mccoy

Ever fall so hard you think you can't get back up ? Well, you can.

7 hours of classes with two hour gap is really tiring because it consumes the students energy and the students are not mentally prepared for it. thats my thesis statement. HAHA

now i know about you and your daily life. 8 to 5 class eh ? first time down. i was so effing tired. maybe its because i was fasting that day. oh wait. no such excuse. haha. started of with programming at 8 in the morning. still fresh, but kinda sleepy. than off i went sending off mardieq back to uitm, but first took a detour to bayan -.- i was starving ! but i did take sahur, so its okay. haha. then 10 to 12 was islamic studies. challenging, ahha. then, walked to chancellor hall, thru hot rising sun to programming lab for two hours. then hit the surau and went to USM cafe to eat. eh i mean, to accompany my friends to eat. then 3-5pm, two hours of thinking skill, which i think i didn't pay the slightest attention to him. sorry ! well, maybe i did, at the biginning. well, there are many distractions in the class. haha atleast i didn't sleep in the class :) and if you noticed i learned all my subjects today. brain crammmmmm haha lab programming was quite fun tho :)

today, a brand new day, with only programming and islamic studies in the schedule, i look forward. and yeh, green concert tonight ! hahahaha. artist : nash lefthanded -.- hahahaha. well, i will just go and have my fun there. happy working/studying everyone !

and yes, today is the first day of PMR. i would like to wish all of the PMR candidates out there, all the best and good luck okay ! esp for my little sisters at college, HUDA HAKIM, UJIE, and my cs ADILA. my prayers will be with you to ensure that you will get that 8 shining A's. insyaAllah(:

pssst: i have domo as my desktop backgroundddd :D

bye bye, maxime wants to take a showerrrrrrr

avalanche by marie digby

Ringo Max Starr

what you said bothers me, well technically you didn't say it to my face, but i know. despite all the laughters amd smiles that i potray in all those pictures, only certain are sincere. one of them is the picture when i'm with you. priceless yes, because only i have it in my mind. this story, i can't see it ending anytime soon. don't say you're tired. don't say you're not that tough. i didn't volunteer to take a part in this. its my life, so i have to act in it. whether i like it or not. actually i don't really have a say about this, just that i find time have lots of meanings now.



life could be easier for my neighbour, my bestfriend, or even my roommate. or maybe life could be harder for them. i don't know. cause from the outer side, everyone is smiling and shaking hands while laughing because they don't want other people to know. so i should not break down and run off telling everyone bout how sucky my life is because it isn't. i still have my one priority, God, and my beloved family to supprt me. then my best friends, my friends, then only the problems.



i thought the rendezvous will resolve things, instead it just brings up all the problems we tried to ignore. i should have known better. i should have, i should have. i can ignore this, and let them settle themselves out while i live my life until i am 21. no buts.



i wanted to tell you how i feel but then i got distracted. so let me be, screaming out the words i want to say inside my head while our eyes keep staring towards each other. others may look at us like were crazy but deep down only we know whats going on in our heads and i like it to stay that way, but its killing us from the inside so come on lets find a way out. a way out from this misery and still be together.



i'm not giving up on you, life.

maxime

exit wounds by the script

Pamper Pamper

decided not to drive the Swift, go green baybeh, so i walked to Wangsa Walk. pffttt as if i hadn't done that before, so it was okay, cause my tummy's full and my pocket's also full. :)

Resident Evil : Afterlife 3D. Fuhhh. Totally worth it :D I actually docked my head when that thinggg stormed off the screen. HAHA. i was quite jumpy at times, haa don't blame me, i was frightened alrightt. :) this is the last one of the Resident Evil movies, so i've got to complete them all right ? and i LOVE the way she dresses up in that movie. just plain black baby tee and vest to put her weapons, plus the COIN gun, oh i love thaaatt one ;) and also some sort of hand sock that only goes to your elbow. super smart. and long black thights, plus high boots. and those around her waist, buckle or something. aha i don't know. just that she got the ultimate dangerous look. oh i love ! psst she has short hair ;)

Step Up 3. Fuhhh. This is way better than Afterlife. hehe sorry ! but that's true. heh. Moose was awesome in the final dance ! and yeah, the hero. He's got looks :) and their shoe collection, TO DIE FOR ! hahaha. i want oneeee. and the final dance, thats pure wicked genius. you just have to see it for yourself. AND i know cinemas are meant to be cold, but halfway thru the movie i was freezing and shivering while laughing along with the movie. i was reallllllyyyy cold. too bad for me cause thats my 2nd movie in a row, so i should have known better, like bring a sweater or something. i didn't really care actually. haha. BUT the movie was AWESOME :) i watched it like there's nobody around, but actually there is, i think like 10 people ?

this is my last day here before going back to UTP, so i pampered myself by bringing me around, buying whatever things i want with my money. so yeah, i loikeeeeeeee.

oh and i also finished watching Camp Rock 2 just now. neatttt

this is how i pamper myself, how bout you ? :)

i ♥ MAXIME

p/s: love yourself maynn, no one elso could do it better than you do.

obsessed my mariah carey

The Wait

The irritation that you feel,
i am truly sorry.

ure not even 18 yet,

patience alhana.

too scared to say the words ; maxime

secrets by one republic

That Explains Much ,

i feel like im walking like the living dead right now. and yeah, there's a reason. and im glad that i made it. sleeping for 2 hrs, or 3 ? and waking up in the middle of the night is currently my hobby. people say im weird for doing that. well, who wants to sacrifice their sleep ? just that, i want to enjoy fully the wifi in this house :D or maybe something else that is meant to be cherished during this holidays. well. for many, their holiday ends today ! but for some people like moi, its not over yet till tuesdayyyy, so i have extra days to work out my new odd habit. but im pretty sure i will not make it effective at utp. NEED SLEEP THERE. badly. HAHA. plus, the wifi and also the something else is unavailable for that matter. just have to wait for the holidays, or maybe, the twin holiday, if you get what i mean ;)

okay, i have guests to attend to. till we meet again.

psst; thanks for reading :)

maxime is surpriseddd ! ;)

wake up by hilary duff

Hari Menduga

walau dgn kehadiran tetamu yang tidak henti henti, saya masih mampu untuk kekal ayu dan kurus dari pukul 7 pagi sampai 7 petang. fuhhhh. penat tahu ? meh sini cek serita sikit kronologi dia.

TING-A-LING loceng berbunyi. oh atau bunyinya lebih sesuai ditulis seperti ini : KRINGGGG. ha, lebih sesuai. tandanya, khidmat diperlukan di bawah. dengan aura busuk masam yang tidak mandi lg nii, turun lah saya ke dapur. 7 pagi. mula lah proses memasak, meng-touch up kan apa yang ada, dan menghias rumah, untuk menyiapkan rumah bagi bakal askar tetamu yang bakal menyerang rumah. dalam pukul 10 tu, siap lah semua. pantas kan ? (3 jam JE -.-')

naiklah saya ke bilik yang biru , dan laptop terus di hadap. mandi kemudian. hehe. kemudian terdengarlah bunyi seperti TING TONG. biasanyaa, hati akan berdegup lebih kencang dan kaki akan terus berlari ke bilik air sambil mandi dgn lajunya (sah sah mandi kambing tuh :P) kerana itu tandanya mama sudah pulang, tetapi kali ini berbeza. diri ini masih lagi terduduk di atas katil yang empuk ini, melayan karenah laptop yang tak habis habis meminta attention. apa lagi, layan lah kan :P

diri ini sedar. busuk jugak sebenarnya. so, jejak juga lah kaki dalam bilik mandi tuh. okay forward sikit. okayyy dah habis mandi. dilemma, baju apa hendak pakai ? okay forward lagiii. tiba kepada scene di bawah, sedara sudah mula dtg. baju ? tudung ? ah nantilah, malas nak kisah. janji tetamu happy :) gumbira pabila berjumpa si sepupu yang sudah jumpa , dan belum dijumpai. hehehe. borak pun best. main ipad pun best XD

dalam pukul 2, sesi sedara sudah habis, sesi rakan rakan pulaaa :D tersergam indah lah baby neo di hadapan rumah ku, menandakan rakan ku yang nun jauh dari bangi sudah tiba :) syg kau ! hehe. dia bersama selipar espritnya dan juga D90 yang anggun menjejakkan kali ke rumah ku yang humble ini buat kali pertama. rakan rakan kakak ku ? malas nak cerita.

kemudian, kakiku perlu menekan pedal suzuki swift yang sexy itu untuk menjemput rakan rakan sekerja dari stesyen kereta api. habis duit agaknya, tidak boleh naik taxi kan :P haaaa gurau. rindu lah lamaaaaaa tak berjumpa. dan juga bekerja. rindu duit masuk bank. hehe. dan dtglah juga, seorang graduan utp yang bangga, dgn motornya, parking di hadapan rumahku.

kakiku perlu menekan pedal suzuki swift itu lagi sekali untuk mengambil VVIP , datin dari subang kerana dia mmg toplist lah guest untuk event nih, so tak boleh complain dia tkde duit naik cab :P hehe. setelah beberapa sesi bergossip dan stalk stalk, baby neo pun perlu pulang ke crib nya di bangi. sob sob rindu nya :(

rakan sekerja pun pulang. aku dan datin pun meneruskan sesi gossip2 di bilik ku, sementara menunggu askar2 tetamu yang lain pula dtg. kali ini, rakan seuniversiti pula yg datang. fuhh, ramai ! jejaka jejaka hensem pun ramaaaai :P 4 kereta ada. satu si datuk. satu si campur rakan baik sayaa :). satu si macho. dan satu lg ni, bukan rakan seuniversiti. ini rakan speshel. rare tuh, tak dapat di tronoh. HAHA. jadi, saya dan datin pun membandingkan mereka mereka ini dalam nada yang perlahan supaya tidak didengari oleh mereka. hahaha cis boleh pulak kutuk kawan sendiri. mmg takkkk ! semua org berborak seperti biasa, seperti manusia berumur 18 tahun biasa berborak. gelak tawa juga mestilah ada. lawak datuk tu, kelakar sungguh ! kucing saya, Tony pun ingin join juga kan ? :D

OH COMELMYA KUCING SAYAA :D

terima kasih buat datuk ye, kerana menghabiskan makanan :)



oh apa tk nk cerita lg ? haa. jam sudah menunjukkan hampir pukul tujuh. 'approaching seven' lah kita kata kan :) jadi, rakan rakan saya pun perlulah beransur. satu kelisa. satu wira KOT. satu waja. dan satu lagi Swift yang tak berapa nak sexy lah. putih tak boleh lawan yg biru ;)



tp yang pasti, kasut si muda itu, wahh, HENSEM ;))

konklusinya : PENAT. tp best :D

*maybe, ada lah yang tertinggal tidak dicerita kan,

tapi itu hanya memori dalam hati sahajaaa :)

kekal abadi, selamanyaaaa. hahaha merepek -.-'

ok bye ! nk tido -.-' esok ada seround lagi askar, tp pagi je lah :D

MAXIME love ♥

dj got us falling in love again by usher ft pitbull

Current

i really feel like blogging right now. so if ure not in the mood to read plenty of crappy words, just go away. come back when i post my short posts alriteee. heh :)

messy bed
unpacked bag
unfinished business
untrimmed self
layers of fat
stuffs here and there
clothes unfold
mind unorganized
thoughts flying
hormones raging

well let start with this quote

i love being alone, but utterly hate being lonely

technically when you're alone, you're lonely. not really tho, but technically it is. unless ure alone but ure skyping with someone, or texting someone, or there is just this someone or something that's in your brain. well just now, amongst the 8 people i am with, i feel lonely. not that i refuse to accept that fact, just that i realized how many times i've been in that exact position. do i really isolate myself to think that im lonely ? or its just that i don't tend to speak that much around certain circle of people ? i think the 2nd one works. gaaaah. i don't care. just a quote i'd ,like to elaborate tonight. HAHA.

well, raya mood is still here, and right now, and the open house syndrome is at the highest peak. well today is the highest peak. hehe. i'm just glad that i'd meet up with couple of my friends from highschool. i miss them like THIS much, maybe more. hehehe. and when i said that 'oh its been looooooooong time since i met them' to my parents, they were like WHAAAAT -.-' ? haha cause in their case, long time means 11 years. haha i can't imagine not meeting my highschool friends as long as that. but yeah, time will tell. cause right now, i don't even know where the hell is half of them. -.-' but i do believe that our path will cross again, somedayyyyy. heh. well, eng is going to fly off this monday, early in the morning, one something i think, she told me just now, so this sunday m off to her house for some doa selamat and makan makan. hehh, but i'm dieting now. back in UTP later, eating is strictly 2 times a day only ! BAHAHAHA lets see how long that rule will last.

i just got back from a friend's house. well, i'm in awe. i want a walk in wardrobe ! WANT ! :x andddd thay have plenty of fish. plenty ! like 100+ or something. gosh. must be expensive. ahaha, i can't imagine me spending loads of money to buy fish. haha. well, unless my hudband-to-be loves fish, i can't argue. HA-HA (: and then they have some sory of balcony that can look down towards the center of the house from their rooms. i so dig that. when i grow up (hehe, as if m so small right now) i wanna have a very unique kinda house, err but m so not talented or brilliat enuff to think of something weirdly beautiful as a design of a house. just hope that it'll change when i turn 21 ;)

well, loads of movies to catch up to. feeling like spending my time at wangsa walk on monday since everybody is going back to their respective study places on sunday, leaving UTPians free until tuesday. sooo, anyone would like to join me for a movie marathon on monday ? movies are most likely stepup3 and resident evil :DD piranha ? not sureee yet, but those two. confirmed ! and also, i wanna buy stuffs to bring back to UTP. sighhhh. not that sad to go back there, but not that enthusiastic either. this raya holidays had been filled will all the non-academic stuffs that you can think of. no pressure at all. hahah. thot it might be good (it is !) but some pressure would be nice. haha. emmmm maybe knowing the 1st sem's results is the nearest pressure now. apart from having to absorb the fact that my classes now starts at 8am -.-' during sem 1, i can't even make it to some of the 9am classes, what more 8am ? hahahahaha. the adventure begins ! (:

filling myself with all the movies and series that i have in this laptop is one of my current hobbies. hahah. i have little time for that during sem1, but people say that we shall have leisure time during sem 2, BUT all the cocuriculum classes are on weekends -.-' so can't go back home on weekends. bummer.

and then there's thing about my brain tends to expect more from something or someone, but yet, the respond seems to go perpendicular with my thoughts, not parallel. oh right, maybe thats what he felt before. HAHAH.

flowers seem nice(:

OH AND HAPPY MALAYSIA DAY TO ALL MALAYSIANS :D proud to be one, seriously :))

(although i have plans before, that i wanna move to singapore. hehehe.)

fuhhhh tired of rambling; maxime xD

introducing me by nick jonas

Story About A Day,

couldn't say im happy Ramadhan left. let us pray that this Ramadhan is not our last. and, i couldn't say im sad Syawal came :D

SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN TO EVERYBODY THAT KNOWS ME OKAY ? sorry , if i had done anything wrong :)

oh well. it started off with chit chatting with my cousin and sister ♥>

the theme was, pretty purple :D

and surprisingly, almost all of US in the house wore purple. and as usual, we had our photoshoot session in the morning. maynn it was funny. haha. with the kids running around, spoiling the pictures, but that's what makes it a memory :)

things went well, i had a really good time today. with all the guests and especially, Salman Al-Farisi ♥ hehehehe

facts about him:

three years old !

loves to EAT

loves taking pictures

extra extra loves attention

well, typical kydd lah. but one thing, he doesn't have a sister, and he's being extra nice to me today ;)

but then, it started to get messy. there were too many kids ! haha. and soon, im like a babysitter. but , those kids are hard to resist. they're so cute :D

but them, by the time its 1 oclock, (or atleast i think that's the time at that moment) three of us dozed of on the sofa, in front of tv, while there are guests around ! oh what where we thinking ! goshhhhhh. haha. thats what we get when we sleep at 3 during the night before Raya. hehe.

duit raya ? well. i did get some. atleast i did get some, not like that person, who is struggling to get even a ringgit ;) hahahahaha XD

well, this is just the start of Raya. and Anati is leaving tomorrow. be safe okay Nat :) and then Eng , Lisa , Jeej , and Yaya will leave also. hope that you'll stay safe wherever you girls go okay ? and oh Goodluck ! :D

my sister's doing something with her teeth, my younger cousin is doing addmaths, and her brother is reading a book. what about me ? watching movies al my laptop, or probably dozing off somewhere. haha.

*YAWNNNNNN* i'm sleepy. okay. bye !

oh kids, please don't play with firecrackers okay,

POP POP is accepted. haha.

reset by charice

Past

i may be late, but there is never too late for anything. i would like to express my condolences towards a person that i have only met once, and it certainly had an impact on my life.

ENGKU ARIF ADLAN. it is certain now that God loves you more. you were taken by Him during this month of Holy, so maybe he has better plans for you. may you rest in peace. Al-Fatihah.

life isn't certain. it isn't certain at all. you may ask, so what is certain anyway ? DEATH. but only He knows excatly when. so. cherish every moment that you have. and also, do take this last day of Ramadhan as your last Ramadhan ever. we will never know if we will still be here for the next one.

maxime

innocent by bruno mars

Brainfreeze !

That fire you ignited

Good, Bad and undecided

Burns when I stand beside it

Your light is ultraviolet

Visions so insane

Travel unraveling through my brain

Cold when I am denied it

Your light is ultraviolet.

this song is sooo fun to sing along

and please, include HEADBANGING pleasee :)

haha, actually, i had this song in my ipod like ages ago. but i just feel like liking it all of a sudden now. why ? hehehehe. i'll tell you why. angus , thongs , and perfect snogging ♥ ever watched that movie ? 'its fantastic !' (with a british accent if you may) hehehehe.

oh well, talking about ipod -.-' well, obviously you know that Apple had released their brand new line of Ipod stuff. and yes i am drooling over that new Touch ! and also that new Nano ! plus, not to forget the slightly recent Iphone 4.0 and Ipad ! hehehe. gosh, if i had it all. sigh. i girl can dream. but but i am serious about the ipoh touch :D

okayyy. i got to go. hihihihi byeeee

maxime

ultraviolet by stiff dylan

Sigh

when the one thing that you love the most perish, what will you do ?

note to self : don't cry :D


maxime

follow me down by 3OH!3

All About You

i should really go to bed. like, right now. but wait. i have to say something.

FINALS IN 5 DAYS. OMG.

*deans list ? sooo it must be >3.5 GPA okay :)

people talk all the time. you can not know the connections that people around you have with each other, and believe me, you don't wanna know. or , maybe you do. but yeah, it might scares you. you can either care to know, asking all the questions, sulking to know the answer

I MISS MY TRANSCENDERS SO EFFING MUCH :'( so sad i can't make it to the iftar, goshh :'(

or just don't care, and stick up with your own life, your own principles. just do what you always have been doing, and not changing your lives in order to makes those peeping tom a better story to gossip about.

ITS ALMOST RAYA :D oh wait, finals first. hehe

i don't have time to think about anything at all. i may sound cruel, or heart-less. trust me, maybe i am one of them.

hope for a rendezvous with you people okay. during raya timeeee. long time since i wandered around klcc like its nobody's business :D you , the ones that i love ♥

you just need a phone call to lift you up, another to bring you down, and another to bring you back to the place where you belong. there's always hope for you my dear.

and yeah, no exceptions.

i may follow, but that doesn't mean anything

maxime

something more by secondhand serenade

That's The End Of Today

BOLD WHAT IS TRUE (or what you think is true)

001. i miss somebody right now.
002. i watch more tv than i used to.
003. i love olives.
004. i love sleeping.
005. i own lots of books.
006. i wear glasses or contact lenses.
007. i love to play video games.
008. i’ve watched porn movies.
009. i have been in a threesome.
010. i have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
011. i believe honesty is the best policy.
012. i have acne free skin. *hoping*
013. i like and respect al sharpton.
014. i curse frequently.
015. i’ve changed a lot mentally over the last year.
016. i have a hobby.
017. i’ve been told i have a nice butt.
018. i carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
019. i’m really, really smart. *not really, really haha*
020. i’ve never broken anyone else’s bones.
021. i have a secret that i am ashamed to reveal.
022. i love rain.
023. i’m paranoid at times.
024. i would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
025. i need money right now.
026. i love sushi.
027. i talk really, really fast sometimes.
028. i have semi-long hair.
029. i have at least one brother and/or sister.
030. i was born in a country outside of the u.s.
031. i shave my legs. *once*
032. i have a twin.
033. i couldn’t survive without caller i.d.
034. i like the way that i look.
035. i am usually pessimistic.
036. i have mood swings.
037. i think prostitution should be legalized.
038. i think britney spears is pretty. *used to*
039. i have a hidden talent.
040. i’m always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
041. i think that i’m popular.
042. i have an ipod
043. i enjoy talking on the phone.
044. i practically live in sweatpants or pj pants.
045. i love to shop.
046. i would rather shop than eat.
047. i would classify myself as ghetto.
048. i’m bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
049. i’m obsessed with my blog!
050. i don’t hate anyone.
051. i’m a pretty good dancer.
052. i’m a horrible dancer.
053. i’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
054. i have a cell phone.
055. i watch MTV on a daily basis.
056. i cry myself to sleep. *once, or twice maybe*
057. i have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
058. i have never been in a real relationship before.
059. i’ve rejected someone before.
060. i have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
061. i want to have children in the future.
062. i have changed a diaper before.
063. i’ve had the cops called on me before.
064. i bite my nails.
065. i am a member of the tom green fan club.
066. i’m not allergic to anything deadly.
067. i have a lot to learn.
068. i have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger.
069. i plan on seeing ice cube’s newest “friday” movie.
070. i am very shy around the opposite sex.
071. i’m online 24/7, even as an away message.
072. i have at least 5 away messages saved.
073. i have tried alcohol before.
074. i have made a move on a friend’s significant other in the past.
075. i own the “south park” movie.
077. when i was a kid i played “the birds and the bees” with a neighbor or chum.
078. i enjoy country music.
079. i love my best friend(s).
080. i think that pizza hut has the best pizza.
081. i watch soap operas whenever i can.
082. i’m obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist.
083. i have used my sexuality to advance my career.
084. i love michael jackson, scandals and all.
085. i know all the words to slick rick’s “children’s story”.
086. halloween is awesome because you get free candy .
087. i watch spongebob squarepants and i like it.
088. i have dated a close friend’s ex.
089. i’m happy as of this moment.
090. i have gone scuba diving.
091. i’ve had a crush on someone i’ve never met.
092. i’ve kissed someone i knew i shouldn’t.
093. i play a musical instrument.
094. i strongly dislike math.
095. i’m procrastinating on something right now.
096. i own and use a library card.
097. i fall in “lust” more than in “love”.
098. cheese enchiladas rock my socks.
099. i think the lord of the rings is one of the greatest things ever.
100. i’m obsessed with the tv show “lost.”
101. i am resentful that i have to grow up.
102. i am an entirely different person around different people.
103. i think the world would be a better place if people just smiled and meant it more often(:
104. i think ramen is the best kind of food in the whole world.
105. i am suffering of a broken heart.
106. i am a nerd.
107. no matter where i am or who i’m with, i always seem to be lonely.
108. i am left handed and proud of it.
109. i don’t change who i am for someone else.
110. my heart resides below my feet.
111. i am a senior in high school.
112. i enjoy smoothies. *vanilla*
113. i have gastritis.
114. i have nothing better to do with my time. clearly.
115. i am listening to radiohead right now.
116. most people call me by my middle name.
117. i once stole a music stand.
118. pi confuses me.
119. i love nascar!
120. i own over 200 cds.
121. i work 7 days a week.
122. i have mono.
123. i don’t have the ability to make decisions without changing my mind.
124. people tell me i have a horrible sense of humor.
125. i’m only wearing underwear.
126. i had more than one thanksgiving dinner this year.
127. i’ve driven to a different state to see a band i liked.
128. i am the most over analytical person i know.
129. i believe in wasting time.
130. i don’t listen to too much music.
131. i have a shoe fetish.
132. my favorite holiday isn’t christmas.
133. i prefer weeks off of work instead of days here and there.
134. i love sex.
135. i wanna go home.
136. i don’t know what i would do without my friends.
137. christmas threw up in my dorm room and i love it.
138. friends is (one of) my favorite tv shows.
139. i’m hungry !
140. i’m still angry about the nip/tuck season 2 finale cliffhanger.
141. i’m a potterhead and proud of it!
142. i lied about one of the items on this list.
143. my siblings are my best friends.
144. i believe cheese should be its own food group it is soooo good!
145. i have a problem expressing things.
146. i have lost a parent.
147. i am the most deprived person i know on the face of the planet.
148. i have at least one test tomorrow that i am not prepared for yet.
149. i love slim jims! even if they are really bad for you.
150. i am sick and tired of school so i am not going.
151. i love sundance.
152. i do not watch television.
153. i love starbucks coffee drinks.
154. i am living at least one lie right now.
155. i love wearing skirts, even if its winter.
156. i’m a techie.
157. i am writing this far, far too late/early.
158. i’m a little crazy.
159. i like the smell of white tic tacs.
160. i know at least one person in a “life or death” crises at this moment.
161. i don’t associate myself with any political parties.
162. i always know all the gossip at my school/workplace/whatever, and nobody ever suspects it.
163. i have no idea what i am going to write for my question.
164. i can be selfish.
165. i’m so emo at times.
166. i can solve a 3x3 rubik’s cube.
167. i think the human race is evil & should be demolished.
168. i cheated on a test before.
169. i am a member of animemusicvideos.org
170. i’m sick of drama
171. i need a job

oh btw GROWNUPS ?
must watch movie :D

♥ maxime

if i were you by hoobastank

How To Say Sorry In The Most Exquisite Way Ever ?

just now i had a phone call with my mum. she said, do you know why recently there are so many cases of abandoned babies ? i answered, yeah of course i know. my mum replied, so take care of yourself okay :)

love you maa :D

urgh, smeared eyeliner. gotta go.

maxime is sorry, really am

dynamite by taio cruz

Misfit

she turned away and left the love of her life alone, seconds from freezing to death. and at that moment, she dreamed about hell. of its unsustainable degree of coldness, and how one would freeze once step foot in hell.

and so she thought, 'oh nevermind. he'll be used to all that cold once he is in hell.'

she didn't dare to continue. how could such words came out from her mouth ? she knew that she blew it. she blew the chance that the Hope gave her. she made a deal that she will live the full life as a normal human being, and not to stop until the end. is she running away from the truth ? is she afraid ?

oh yes. she is afraid that she might love. love the place, love the human being she once called Lover. and so, she had to discard him. she was afraid that if she went deeper in, she couldn't get out. but well when it is time, Hope will certainly get her out of there, but she is certain that there will be strings attatched to Lover. and she didn't want that. not now. not ever.


she remembered the day she begged for this life. she said she had been observing some of the kingdoms, and this Earthlings fascinate her and she would like to try to become one of them for just a moment. when Hope heard this, she was shocked for a minute. no one ever requested such thing. its always been taking a creature from either one of the kingdoms and transforming it into one of us, never inversely.


she thought about her first time stepping foot here. on earth. oh how she despise this land. of its foolish creature, and its shockingly rude behaviour. she wanted to leave right away. but Hope forbid her. 'this is what you want right? now i've given it to you, not for a moment. its for a life cycle of a human being. so use it wisely. there is nothing you do that won't give any good to yourself.'

that change when she saw Lover. its like the name automatically gets to her. but she didn't fall for her senses. she was right to do that. because when she was with Lover, she was foolish.

'another day, and i'll be gone. my life here is done. and Hope was right all along. despite all the hate and fury she found here, he also found happiness and kind. and peace and serenity. but there is no place better than home.'

she had a family back home, who were always waiting for tomorrow to come. and silently but surely, she misses them too. she was sorry for Patience, who is like the name, always being patient with her, eventhough she had found Lover. but its okay, because Patience know that the human life is a miraculously short life. this is eternal. this is forever.

she was done with her letter to Lover. its time to go back up. she tore the letter into bits and pieces and each one of them changed into white birds whom she call Pigeon. she vowed, whoever can gather all the bits and give it to Lover before he die, he or she will experience endless riches.

but until this day, the pigeons are free to fly around our Earth, each one of them secretly carrying part of her letter to Lover. this story has no end.

OH ! : maxime

she loves you by the beatles

*laughs*

no doubt. when time flies, it really do. let me tell you the story about today, and how fast i think today went. hehs.

5.00 am
i was woken up by the sound of Kris Allen's Live Like Were Dying. the voice urged me to wake up and sahur. and so. by 510 am, i was in the car, heading to Bayan, eating my first ever decent sahur :) it was Maggi Goreng Telur Mata and Horlicks Ice :)) yummy ! then, by 545 i was back in my room, waiting for Subuh. and this was one of the days that i went back to sleep after Subuh. hehehe.

830 am
i was woken up again by my mum. we were on the phone for like, 10 mins i think. and all the way thru the the phone call, i had the most painful stomach ache (actually the stomach ache was there since after sahur. idk whyy) then i texted Sarah, saying that i want to do the precal workshop with her. and yea, i slept right after. fuh, terbaik :D

1030am
The final wake. heh. received a text from Sarah at 1000am saying that she just woke up. i cleaned myself up and went to Sarah's room.

1100am
sarah is rambling about her laptop. i was watching himym, elin took a shower. the precal is still untouched. hehe.

1230 pm
finally we started to do the precal. and we took 1 hour to complete the FIRST question ! haha, its because the question has 1a, b, c and so on. haih. so time-consuming !

230 pm
Zuhur prayer. :)

300pm
we were at question num 3. heh. nice progress but still. slow as a tortoise. sarah brought the question downstairs. sob sob. so the work is delayed jap. sarah ! hahahaha. pity her. her laptop is broken. can't on. dunno whyy.

430 pm
went down to v2 cafe to act. hehehehe. i'm the head gangster ! haha. act we have to help this other drama gruop with their drama. sarah weng and i are the girls who wants to take away baal from emyy. hehe. so atfirst i have to wink at baal while he was walking with emyy. then baal winked and waved back. hehehehe. HAHA ! it was really finny when we're recording the acts. then, the best part was when i have to really fight with emyy to get baal. hilarious ! couldnt stop laughing. good times :)

545pm
continued with pre cal. starting to skipped the easy ones , reaching the harder ones first. hehehe. can't believe that doing precal could be so much fun. heh. but not knowing the answer and the way to do it is not fun at all. hmphh. but then just having each other can make me smile already :)

630pm
rushing back to my room to perform Asr prayer. fuhh. skipped the shower. hehe

645pm
in the car, heading to Sabila to break fast :)

700pm
reached Sabila. ordered plain rice tomyam sayur kangkung belacan and ikan bakar. fresh orange :D yummmmmmmmmmy

730pm
BREAKING FAST :) and suddenly we were all very quiet. makes me flash back to the time when im in college, they always say that college girls are quiet only when they are eating and sleeping. haha. everybody laughs but suddenly baal added, eh, when you pray ? haha. yeah, so that's the third. heh. had a great iftar just now with ian fathi baal faris apek helmie farah weng elle and sarah :D

810pm
reached back in my room :) washed my clothes and perform Marghrib prayers :) and yeah, took a shower.

920pm
now here i am, back in Sarah's room. planning to do my phy and chem report today. due monday : erkkk. plenty of work to do, little time. haihhh.


but , there's joy in everything i do. and i loike it :D

till then, MAXIME :)

breathe by michelle branch

This Just In

Ramadhan ? Oh i could not wish for anything better (:

so gear up peeps, don't just look forward to raya. be sad cause when raya's coming, Ramadhan's ending , oh well. its too soon to talk about that righttt ?

not too soon i think. with finals at the end of Ramadhan, i think time will flyy. so just appreciate the time you have okayyy.

'clear your hearts, and absorb the knowledge that is coming. embrace this holy month so that when this month had passed, we will gain something, and change. not for the worst, but for the better. and pray, that we'll live long enuff to see this holy month again next year. nothing's certain. and we just can pray to Allah to make it happen.'

psssttt: save money ! don't just spend all of 'em cause of your eyes. those blinding eyes. which can't bear the sight of plenty of food at the bazaar. hehehe.

don't TEXT and drive okay people ! :D

till my hands reach the keyboard again,
maxime ♥

impossible by shontelle

Let Me Tell You Something ,

Not very long ago, you used to despise me and my friends. when u ask 'what are you doing?' i'll answer, 'oh nothing, just hanging out with some of my new friends'. Then later the question changes to be 'so u'll be hanging out with them again?(please do with sarcastic tone ever)' and i'll be speechless. well , your phsycho may work then, but not now. oh i think you should know. i don't do hanging out anymore. trying to let out the stress that's building up in me. and he's not involved anymore. thank you.

excuse me for being annoying. but that's not the theme of this post . heh.


timetable until 7th sept

11th reading and writing test
12th multimodal presentation
13th test chem
16th phy test
18th precalculus test
19th english drama

FINALS
4th sept chemistry 1 (you should know that its a goddamn saturday-.-')
5th sept Physics 1
6th sept english 1
7th sept precalculus

finally free, end of semester 1 :)

BUT

thats like 4 weeks away. ramadhan's near. oh thank you, now i can focus more to my books instead of food. hahah.

missing playing wii at home. sighhh.

just an update of my confused hectic life.

and yes, i overslept today, so no merdeka run for me this year. next year ! ahhah.

need gadjets terribly D:

maxime

if i had you by adam lambert

During Chemistry Class,

There's Always A Last Time For Everything

and yeah. yesterday, something ends. not this im proud of it. but yeah, you can say that :)

no need for details, cause only the ears who listened and eyes who saw knows :)


wait. i don't reckon people saying this but, i think waking up at 10 in the morning is such a waste. haha. i used to say that waking up at 12 in the afternoon is a waste. but now it has jumped up to 10 o'clock. how is that ? ahha.

lab report

tutorial pre-cal

essay english

quiz chem

STUDY STUDY STUDY :)

*finals in 6 weeks

oh well. i might as well go and vomit right now :)
thank you for understanding :)

maxime

good day by click five

Love Game

VS

jeng jeng jeng.

obviously squash :D yes, i had a great time playing tennis. but, i do prefer squash moreeee. altho im not good at it. i can learn (:

oh nicol ann david, you're my sports idol/crush ! HAHAHA. lame, i know. okaayyyy, gotta scoot. shower ! :D later people ,

maxime is soooo smelly right now. wanna hug ? hehehehehehe. NO WAY.

by your side by lifehouse

Hint, hint

Do you want to stay awhile ?
Stay. But don't change ?

and please. Always remember.

Remember. Know all the things that makes you who you are.

*this is not the case of third time's lucky

When you did anything wrong. admit it, then you'll be free.

Look at them right in the eye and tell them there's nothing wrong with you. Just buying a couple of things.

I never try to say goodbye. i just say it.

You caused me much pain, which used to be a fantasy of mine.


i won't come back to you. not now, not ever.

remember maxime

*people. DON'T even try to assume. i know you don't know :D

alexithymia by anberlin

You Think You Are Rational ? Think AGAIN .

ta-daa. bought a new book ! :D

*although my cover is al little bit more interesting than this one ! hehe

well, i was about to pay for the book (actually, my dad did. heh). then SHAZZAM ! i saw nana :) heh. its been a while. so im like super glaaaaaad. and she was like so surprised :D but yeah wished i could stay longer and chat like we used to do, but. u have work to do, and well, m with my family. so. that rendezvous was shorter that imagined, but never thot i'd bumped into her like that. oh IMYsfdm :(

oh well. tomorrow, im leaving for UTP. but, no sad faces ! or maybe, a small one :( i am going to go there and study ! no play play haaaa. haha. okay, maybe a little time to play :)) but yeah, studies do come first. yep.

and about the phone calls, i couldnt say anything. we are grown ups now. and should know what to do. i wouldn't say it. yeah simply because of my high ego. hahah. screw me. just wait till m old enuff. sigh.

oh i miss my friends :( i miss the times at coll,

where we don't have to spend anything but time

to hang out with each other.

oh gosh. lets turn back time !

oh but its goood to be a university student now. hehe :)

maxime misses you. like seriously

slipped away by avril lavinge

But I Guess It's Over,

Hey, slow it down whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Yeah I'm afraid whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

There might have been a time
When I would give myself away
Oooh once upon a time I didn't give a damn
But now, here we are so whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Just don't give up I'm workin it out
Please don't give in, I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Yeah, it's plain to see (plain to see)
that baby you're beautiful
And there's nothing wrong with you
(nothing wrong with you)
It's me, I'm a freak (yeah)
but thanks for lovin' me
Cause you're doing it perfectly
(it perfectly)

There might have been a time
When I would let you slip away
I wouldn't even try
But I think you could save my life

Just don't give up I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in, I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep comin around
Hey, whataya want from me (Whataya want from me)
Whataya want from me (Whataya want from me)

Just don't give up on me
(uuuuuuh) I won't let you down
No, I won't let you down

(So hey) just don't give up
I'm workin it out
Please don't give in,
I won't let you down
It messed me up (It messed me up)
Need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me

Just don't give up I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in, i won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me (whataya want from me)
whataya want from me (whataya want from me)
whataya want from me

right ? sighhhhhhhh

maxime

whataya want from me by adam lambert

Alah Benci

but this one, I LOIKEEEEEEE :D

wanna cut my hairrrrrr
dah panjangg ! *hehe padahal takley ikat pun tau.
hehehehe

wa, tak main la tgk wayang dgn mat sempit mcm lu

wa, layan mat kereta je bro

yang ada bumbung

kalau hujan, wa tak kena basah bro

-adnan sempit terbaikk :)

maxime has a dream

i have a dream by westlife

Finals Baby !

Netherlands aka Holland

VS

Espanyol aka SPAIN ♥

wuuuuuuuuu. all my love goes to spain of course :)

just wait for it,

sorry germans,

the octopus's psycho really works ;)

maxime

misfit by lesley roy

Baby, Baby, Baby Ohh

David Villa my Babyyy :)

that 83rd minute goal was awesome :)

make sure i'll see you guys during the finals yeaaa :))

oops sorry torres, hehe

fabregas replaced you for that game,

hihi XD

pre calculus test this wednesdayy -.-' wish me luck yeah :)

maxime misses you

youre so damn hot by ok go

Sigh,

i don't know where i've been. okay, since the story is out of the bag. let me tell you the story.



i knew it from the moment i said it. i knew that u will be the one that would crush me.as the saying goes, youre the only one that could lift me up in an instant, and crush me down without even trying to do so. and alas, i crashed. crushed. and yeah, you are the one who got away. sigh, my bad.

unfinished by maxime

cool by gwen stefani

Repetition.

when i hear that someone speak the words i know too much ,

when i listen but i cannot agree ,

when the person speaks with full of sincerity ,

when i ask just for the sake of satisfaction ,

when i doubt the sure ,

when i question, what makes you so sure about that ,

when i did what i thought was right ,

when the sure is doubted ,

when i am not that cruel to reject ,

when my heart disagree with everything ,

when my brain stops to think ,

when chemistry test is this evening ,

when time is running out ,

when i miss the near ,

when i miss the far ,

when i sleep, and i dream ,

when i hope it was just a dream ,

when i wish for a distance ,

everything doesn't make sense.

and thats when i come to you :)

and when i come up with this words,

i meant every. single. one of them.

MAXIME

halfway gone by lifehouse

Slowly,

*remember this ?

yeah, until now, i havent watch this story. yet.

tests are coming up next week, so wish me luck ! sorry haven't had that much time to update this blog. many to blurt out actually, but i prefer to let it out on people. or rather text messaging. haha. oh and and, my beloved spain and portugal are on a fight this coming wednesdayyy. gosh !

dont forget to watch :) wed, 230 am :)) waka waka !

maxime still loves you

dunia by bunkface

The World Around Me

When you have that someone to talk to, it makes your heart lives much longer.

When you have that someone to depend on, it makes your mind stronger.

When you have that someone to make you laugh, it makes you happier.

When you have that someone to help you, it makes you grateful.

When you have that someone who loves you, it makes you feel alive.

When you have that someone to love, it makes you hold on.

THANK YOU

nan cheese terbaikk(: ALHANA

the only exception by paramore

Wish I Could Dissappear

sparks fly, its like electricity
i might die when i forget how to breathe

as far as fantasy exists, and how people hold on and apply it, it still won't come true. like santa claus, the thing itself isn't real, but the act of others that made it sound real. and looks real. the talk of it, and those little little clouds that hover above our heads, showing things that are meant truly for us, but the one thing we can question is how to achieve it. or just let it be a moment of fantasy. you choose.

it doesn't matter what is the subject matter of the cloud. it may be about your plans of getting married, you excellent results in exams, you utmost ambition came true, your worst enemy dies, or merely the hottest boy of the school is your boyfriend. because fantasy is controlled by the mind, it is somehow limited to what we know. expand your knowledge, and your fantasies will fly.

im not fantasy doctor, but i know its huge. you can go all the way from the history of fantasy to the list of fantasy, all the genre in fantasy, but i wont come to that. my explanation is simple. like albert einstein said

everything should be made as simple as possible simple but not simpler

so boys and girls, all you have to do is believe, and it will happen. i myself enjoy all this fantasy talk with my friends, especially when we act like its true. we speak with full of passion evebthough its not there yet. yet. the moment is yet to come where we can look back to those moments of time when you fantasize, and cherish the greatness of having it achieved. but to those impossible ones, lets grief because for once you had actually thought about it.

its almost the same as the Law of Attraction. almost. go read yourself, its quite interesting (:

[i wanna rock i wanna rock your bodyy]

been playing in my mind, so i have to write it down.hehs

maybe you are right. no wait. i think you are right. very right indeed. you are different from others. typical eh ? but really. different. very street-wise :)

just remember : i said it first. maybe its not a big deal to you. it is for me. i broken my vow. and remember when my friend is doubting me, what did i say ?

i am trying to make this work

and i'll hold on to that. will you ?

: alhana

psst : tomorrow is 1st of Rejab,

lets fast people :)

before the storm by jonas brothers

So Addicted,

been playing this over and over and over this whole dayy (:

the video is damn addictive, cute jaden, :D

want to watch karate kid badlyyyyyyyy. badly ):

oh and shrek 4, toy story 3, elm street, prince and persia,

and all the movies that are in the cinemas right now. now. nowwwww.

never say never ! very inspiringg (:

maximelovesyou

i want to hold your hand by the beatles

Suzuki Swift Babyy

mama : mama nak pergi kelas arab nii

adik : mama nak adik hantar ? hehehe

mama : oh takpe takpe takpe takpee, hehehe

adik : hehe [tapi downn, haha]

*reason dia sbb tak safe ye ! THANK YOUU :D

love youu maa ♥

maxime suka SWIFT

your love is my drug by kesha

Let's Talk

what most people might not know about me is that, im so damn easy.

yes. easy to please. that's what i mean. i'm not saying that i like that fact, but its true. just treat me, i'll love it. make me mad, just say sorry once, and i'll be okay. hang out with tons of girls, but stay true to me, its okay. but i'll still be jealous or mad, or i will sulk for days. who doesn't ? but it's not okay if you start to go over the boundaries. you know what i mean. hm. not all people are like that. guess being easy is not that easy afterall.

being hard is tough. especially if you're not that one who is hard. if you're dealing with a hard person, then, u're gonna face the most outmost challenge in your entire life. re schedule everything. not that i am saying being tough is not good. just that i, as an easy person, can't really understand the true in and out feelings of a hard person. and i wish to know. really. maybe the word is not hard. emm, its, its. emm. not that easy i suppose ? but not hard.

i don't quite know what am i rambling about. but this is one thing that i want you to know. tell me. as hard as you know that its hard for me to absorb change, during times and age like this, but please. just tell me. but if you hesitate, just don't. i don't enjoy being in a state like this. im not really sure. guilt ? or angry ? haa. sensing something, like i am played. being played like a fool. just, tell ? if m not satisfied, i won't tell you. haaa.

the arguments came almost everyday,

but i still love you anyway; maxime

everybody by ingrid michaelson

Fresh Freshies

this past week had been a blast for me :D woohoo. met a lot of new friends, a lot ! haha. the fassy's are grrrreatttt ! haha and its totally different here, and m impressed, for a person who doesn't want to go here at the first place, that's a good thing, i guess. well, i am a ROCK pun kan. XD haha

so classes dah start, woohoo ~ a little something bout my lecturers,

Mr Joan, English Lecturer, super cool :D haha, going to take us to a play next month. and just watched the movie, Dead Poets Society. cool, Carpe Diem ! :D literature ? hehe

Dr Chong ? Chemistry Lecturer. Very very fast. Superbly fast. we're done on chapters 1 and 2, whereelse everybody just finished on chapter 1. haha.

Dr Mumtaj Begam. Physics. i like, but, errr but. kinda hard to pick up on what she is saying. heh, must try again. fast.

lastly, Mr Jale. Pre-Calculus. he's great, but the subject's not so. haha. soo much to absorb, so little time.

hmmm. what else ? oh, well. mara. haihh. i did got the offer, but its for aviation or marine engineering at Russia. haha, andd Pre-U at UniKL, MIAT to be exact. buttttttt, there are complications, so its a no no (:

assignments ? okayla. getting heavier by the day. but then, time for loitering around until midnight is still there, first week kan, not that busy without the call labs and the tutorials. haha, nxt week ? wait and see.

oh yes, presenting,

girls from top, eleena me athira. boys from top, yusuf baal helmie (:

*ni gang kepala otak sama nih XD haha

and also,

atika and aisyah first row. suraya, me SYAZA and yani at the bottom.

going back today :D

with love, alhana

pulangkan by misha omar

Close Enough

but im not there yet !

THERE = UTP = TRONOH = PERAK = EFFING FAR D;

NOT READY NOT READY NOT READY NOT READY NOT READY
SOB SOB )': *where are you now ?*

*not sure ?

17th may

wish me luck for MARA, so that i can get out from UTP ASAP, hahahah XD

oh and VAD, not much hope left ? *sigh*

oh and

UK tak jauh ke alhana ?

jauhhh tapi. ermmm, i'll be back, don't you worry dear ;)

*yeah, life is like a bloody wheel.thoughts and feelings too, sometimes it goes up, you're happy, everything falls into place, friends love you, families together, you can smile and laugh, you're in love, you have money, you enjoy walking around with you loved ones, but when it goes down, you're sad, u have problems with your family, loved ones, you are broke you hate someone, you are crying, you'd been fired, and you don't even have a house to live in, you just CHILL. think back, someday, you're gonna get back up to the top, but it comes with EFFORT :D *


a knock from a pen that leaves me in pain like iron man 2 ; maxime

3 words by cheryl cole ft will.i.am

Together

P untuk penat. sangat penatttt.

P juga untuk lesen kereta P yang berwarna merah menyala yang garang gitu, selamat tertampal di atas cermin kereta Suzuki Swift yang handsome yang kian berhabuk akibat berhujan panas di bawah porch rumah ataupun di bawah pokok angsana yang tinggi lampai di hadapan rumah itu. ngehehe.

tidak perlu diceritakan kisahnya, kita terus ke markah, part best nii, 18/20. haha, walaupun bukan markah penuh, tetapi rasa seperti mahu frame dan gantung kan kertas jpj itu pada dinding bilik kini dan juga sehingga kahwin nanti supaya dinding turut merasa sedikit sebanyak kebanggaan tuan empunya dinding itu kerana telah berjaya menjadi seorang driver yang sah, wah wah, berbunga bunga hati ini sampai agak agak 100 ekar tanah pun tak cukup nak tanam, bayak sgt bunga. haha. tarikh harini, 1205, fuhh keramat keramat,

hati ini terlalu gembira sehingga sanggup meredah hujan ribut semata-mata hendak pulang dgn secepat mungkin dgn harapan ingin berjumpa dgn kekasih hatinya, yang ntah ya ntah tidak menunggu-nuggu kehadirannya itu. atau sekadar ingin membeli topup dgn secepat mungkin untuk membalas mesej yang bertubi-tubi, *sekadar hiperbola sahaja* takpelah. jam menunjukkan jari pendek ke kanan, dan jari panjang ke atas. dlm otak hanya berfikir, van mana kau, van mana kauu.

seletah dua jam menunggu, dan kelibat manusia di sekolah memandu itu sudah boleh dikira jgn jari, air mata sudah mula beraksi. mengada ngada nak keluar pahal ? otak turut memainkn video video yang tidak masuk akal seperti visual diri ku keseorangan di sekolah memandu yang kira kira 55 kilometer dari rumah, dan sekaliling yang gelap gelitaa, mengundang bahaya dan malapetaka, hishhh, cpt2 ku buang visual itu. merepek merepek. tepat jam 5, lebih sikit la kot, muncul lah sebuah van yang gah berwarna putih, yang pada awal pagi tadi memuatkan 10 orang pelajar, kini tinggal aku dah si jejaka yang tidak diketahui namanya, aku yang separa marah dan separah lega, kini sedar, apabila mengetahui bahawa jejaka yang tidak diketahui namanya itu adalah dari sesi satu. betapa sabarnya lelaki itu menunggu, tetapi aku yang hanya baru 2 jam menunggu sudah marah dan resah gelisah seperti adam tanpa amani. fuh, terbeliak mata sebentar.

*if you think that you are in the lowest point in your life, trust me, there are people who are lower than you. don't ever give up*

setelah sampai ke sekolah memandu di AU, timbul lagi satu masalah yang tidak berapa besar sebenarnya. saya ni, ada habit tau, nk tau ? kalau rumah saya dari sesebuah tempat tu tak jauh sgt, jauh, tapi tak jauh sgt pun, orang normal mesti naik kereta, kiranya jauh la jugak untuk berjalan kaki, tapi tidak la jauh sampai berpuluh puluh kilometer, hanya 5 kilometer dan ke bawah agaknya, saya ada perasaan yang sangat kuat untuk tetap berjalan kaki, merentasi highway, dah menerima hon hon yang kuat lagi menceriakan dari pemandu dan penunggang di jalan raya itu. mengapa ? satu, kerana menjimatkan kos, dua, kerana mahu saving, haa, sama bukan ?HAHA takdela, entah, menyihatkan badah juga(: atau sekadar mahu membuat experiment untuk mengisi masa yang terluang.

alkisah tadi pada pukul 6.00 ptg, setelah membeli topup dan mengira duit di dalam dompet yang tinggal beberapa helai sahaja wang kertas yang berwarna biru cair itu, walaupun tahu disebalik zip terdapat harta karun bernilai hanya lebih sedikit dari RM 49, tetapi sayang, jadi otak membuat keputusan untuk berjalan kaki pulang. harapan adalah untuk sampai ke rumah sebelum siri adamaya yang kian sedih itu bermula.

mata melilau, sedang kaki berjalan. eh, byk pulak taxi lalu lalang kat sini, jadi, anda tahu kesudahannya ? pulanglah nik alhana ke rumahnya menaiki taxi, helaian duit seringgit ada 7, nasib baik taxi charge 5.9 tapi saya ckp keep the change la uncle ! HAHA :D


MAXIME

where is the love ? by black eyed peas

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAYY

what more could i say ? it doesn't matter anymore.

ENOUGH SULKING LIKE A LITTLE KID.

haha XD

so, been enjoying myself with movies <3 style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">


furry vengeance
funny, hilariousss haha and the last partt
effingly funny hahaha
reminds me of my dean XD
oh and, such smart animals, haha
and kinda stupid story, kinda :P
they give hints at each other like so freaking normal
haha

iron man 2
mama's treat on mother's day :D
woohoo, eventho i didn't watch the first one, i quite enjoyed this one,
but at the middle, i felt that it was dragging my eyes to shut, means it kinda boring
but yeah, the lightings. cool
and the thing at the palm, super cool :D
robert downey jr. i salute youu :D

oh but, the losers is better. hihi.


right now, i curently don't really have the passion to spend my money on shopping. haha, seriously, i'd rather spend it on food. this week, i ate anything i wanted to, muahahah :D because seriously, if i wanted to buy any clothing, i first i would have to set my mind that the thing im buying is cheap. for instance, a half jacket at Zara costs RM49, thats a huge amout of money but i consider it cheap because im in Zara, get me ?

okay enuff babling, got to go

high temperature ; maxime

i believe i can fly by R. Kelly