Misfit

she turned away and left the love of her life alone, seconds from freezing to death. and at that moment, she dreamed about hell. of its unsustainable degree of coldness, and how one would freeze once step foot in hell.

and so she thought, 'oh nevermind. he'll be used to all that cold once he is in hell.'

she didn't dare to continue. how could such words came out from her mouth ? she knew that she blew it. she blew the chance that the Hope gave her. she made a deal that she will live the full life as a normal human being, and not to stop until the end. is she running away from the truth ? is she afraid ?

oh yes. she is afraid that she might love. love the place, love the human being she once called Lover. and so, she had to discard him. she was afraid that if she went deeper in, she couldn't get out. but well when it is time, Hope will certainly get her out of there, but she is certain that there will be strings attatched to Lover. and she didn't want that. not now. not ever.


she remembered the day she begged for this life. she said she had been observing some of the kingdoms, and this Earthlings fascinate her and she would like to try to become one of them for just a moment. when Hope heard this, she was shocked for a minute. no one ever requested such thing. its always been taking a creature from either one of the kingdoms and transforming it into one of us, never inversely.


she thought about her first time stepping foot here. on earth. oh how she despise this land. of its foolish creature, and its shockingly rude behaviour. she wanted to leave right away. but Hope forbid her. 'this is what you want right? now i've given it to you, not for a moment. its for a life cycle of a human being. so use it wisely. there is nothing you do that won't give any good to yourself.'

that change when she saw Lover. its like the name automatically gets to her. but she didn't fall for her senses. she was right to do that. because when she was with Lover, she was foolish.

'another day, and i'll be gone. my life here is done. and Hope was right all along. despite all the hate and fury she found here, he also found happiness and kind. and peace and serenity. but there is no place better than home.'

she had a family back home, who were always waiting for tomorrow to come. and silently but surely, she misses them too. she was sorry for Patience, who is like the name, always being patient with her, eventhough she had found Lover. but its okay, because Patience know that the human life is a miraculously short life. this is eternal. this is forever.

she was done with her letter to Lover. its time to go back up. she tore the letter into bits and pieces and each one of them changed into white birds whom she call Pigeon. she vowed, whoever can gather all the bits and give it to Lover before he die, he or she will experience endless riches.

but until this day, the pigeons are free to fly around our Earth, each one of them secretly carrying part of her letter to Lover. this story has no end.

OH ! : maxime

she loves you by the beatles